“Maximilian Horatio.” He hugged Max, patting his back twice, and then held him at arm’s length, taking him in. He was nearly Max’s height but lank with broad shoulders and moved, generally, with a lightness, a physical grace evident even in his stillness, like the pose of a magician before a trick. “Long time.”
“Too long, Mr. Apache. Too long! I trust you’ve been well?”
Apache said, “Call me Bernard.”
“All right then, Bernard,” Max said, anxious to establish levity. “How you been for godsakes?”
Apache ignored this and instead made a show of looking at me. He wore a brown suit, a black bolo tie, and cowboy boots.
“Bernard, meet Giovanni Bernini,” Maximilian said.
Apache nodded shortly and turned back to Max. “So. Why are you here?”
“Serendipity, if I ever seen it, Bernard! Here I am trying to decide where to go with this new act — I’m getting offers uptown, downtown, but, y’know how it is, none of them feel right—and that’s when I happen upon this”—he had produced the Gazette from his pocket, snapping it against the palm of his hand—“about your taking over the Tinder, and, well, it’s a match made in heaven, you ask me.”
Apache casually removed some stray tobacco from his tongue. “Is this person talented with something?”
Max paused for effect. “A master impressionist!”
“Good to see you. Stay well.”
“Wait, wait!” He chased Apache with mincing, diplomatic steps.
“I know what you’re thinking, impressionist — please, I go out on the street and find twenty just taking a shit. But this kid—”
“Take care of yourself, Max.”
“He can do anyone.” Max snapped his fingers. “Like that.”
Apache had pulled his chair back but hadn’t yet sat. “Anyone?”
“At all!” said Max. “We take volunteers from the audience. One at a time, we bring them up and—boom—Giovanni imitates them. On the spot.”
“Have him do me.”
“Then we — I’m sorry?”
“Now, please.”
“You? Why, yes, I–I mean, you’re sure?”
Apache smiled, though his eyes, throughout the smile, exhibited a hardness, a bedrock of meanness I had not yet seen. “You just asked my least favorite question.”
“Sure, sure.” Max clapped his hands. “Well, then. Without further ado, I present to you”—he retreated with small steps, like a backup dancer—“Master Impressionist Giovanni Bernini…”
I decided to use the moment he heard Max’s name and pull from there. The way he smiled, fakely, and laid down his cards (mine pantomimed) like an actor slowing down routine gestures for maximal effect. “Maximilian!” I hugged Max and patted him, held him at arm’s length. I raised an imagined cigarette and sucked it through the wall of my hand, all with his physical looseness. I said, “You just asked my least favorite question,” adding, “You are my least favorite question,” and when I did, a strange light finger pricked right between my shoulder blades, a calm easing down my back, and his thread emerged, yes, there it was — and pulling it, I saw, clearly, that this figure named Bernard was but a handsome shell, a kind of emissary or stand-in for the soul peering in through those eyes, a presence otherwise absent from the room as I was now absent from it. And I was free to look through my eyes without fear of being looked at, for my body, light and airy, was not mine at all.
A knock somewhere. Several. It was Max, I realized, patting me on the back. “Good job!” Each pat seemed to cement me, as if Max were a sculptor rounding out my shoulders.
“Very nice,” a voice said. Apache’s. He smiled fully, and looking into his eyes, I could still see it: He was not there. “Bravo.”
“You liked it? You liked it!” Max was still chewing his nails. “Of course you did!”
Bernard pulled on his cig, winced. The promised stage behind him. Perhaps the tingle hadn’t worn off yet, for I had a strange premonition. That if I were to stand on that stage, I would become not more visible but less, that I would disappear.
“I’ve got a slot open on the second at ten,” he said. “You’ll receive seven percent of admissions. Depending on how that goes, we’ll discuss further engagements.”
If there were such a thing as a jubilant heart attack, Max suffered one at that moment. “You won’t be disappointed, Bernard.”
“I suspect not,” Apache said and was sliding into his chair when a voice shot down from the balcony.
“What next, Bernard? The monkeys in top hats and the women sawed in half?”
Maximilian and I both looked up to the balcony where a woman leaned so far over the banister it seemed she might fall off. She wore a sleeveless, kelly green dress. “Hello, Maaax.”
“Lucy.” Max bowed theatrically.
“You don’t approve?” Bernard asked.
“Nope,” she said.
“Why not?”
“Do I ever?”
“Some of the time, yes, you do.”
“Maaaybe.” She gave me a look, cocking her head at an angle. In any other circumstance I would’ve melted under such female attention, but the scrapings of Bernard still covered me — or unfleshed me — so I withstood her gaze, even, I think, returned it. “Well, I’ll leave you to the boooores of business.” With that, she pushed off the banister. The green of her dress, as if worn by a ghost, floated past a bend in the balcony, and away.
On the street later, Maximilian walked ahead, talking to himself. Me, though, I had a headache. A hangover. That could happen after good ones. “He’s the first,” I heard Max say as he passed a warehouse with broken windows. “The first one who liked it.”
FOUR
I discovered it one morning while Max slept. Under the sway of some dream, I woke with a specific desire: to imitate that woman Lucy, the one on the balcony, and so tiptoed into the bathroom where I whispered, “Maaaax,” the way she had, and “Noooo,” and “Do I ever?” Several times I tried, but each pushed her further away, like a tin my own steps knocked out of reach. I tried the vowel-indulging voice, the headlong posture. But none of the usual feeling, a kind of internal warmth, came to me. “Maaax.” My tongue heavy. “Maaaax.” I sounded like a sheep.
“What?”
I turned, and there he stood in his sleeveless undershirt.
“Just warming up.”
So went the cycle the two weeks leading up to our debut: trying to imitate that woman and failing. When Maximilian showered, I tried her bugling voice. When he used the bathroom at the New Parthenon, I sat in the vinyl booth, bouncing my neck side to side like a swimmer. Wherever and whenever we walked, I tried her gait: that pushing forward, that volunteering of the face before the rest of the body. None of it right. Needless to say, such a blind spot, a limit, had never presented itself before. What’s worse, the further I got from her thread, the more individual elements, those units of her person (the tone of her voice, the angle of her head), abandoned me, stranding me with my failed attempts, like a bad mechanic scattered among car parts.
These shortcomings, needless to say, did little to reassure me in the run-up to our debut. In those two weeks I had to mimic homeless men, bus drivers, the ticket taker at the Stone-Wild Museum to reestablish that I still was, despite this recent trouble, Giovanni Bernini, Master Impressionist. This too, though, was about to change.
“Master Impressionist — it’s, well, weak,” Max mused over his pretzel. We had taken to a bench at the edge of Darling Park, two blocks south of the Stone-Wild Museum. “Master Impressionist — it’s weak, lame, flaccid.…”