For Brion, the Old Man of the Mountain represented Control, a principle now embodied by other Old Men who sit in their electronic Alamuts with their long, bony fingers on the nuclear detonator button. Cut-ups were a useful tool because they sprung the trap of language, enabling the spirit to soar free from Control’s prison of words. Getting Out — out of that prison, out of the body, and ultimately out of this world entirely and into space — was for Brion the Great Work. The purpose of his art, from paintings to The Process, was Liberation.
Sometimes his preoccupation with this purpose can leave an unpleasant aftertaste. In particular, there is an apparent misogyny in The Process and in Gysin’s other writings that shouldn’t be glossed over. His tendency, shaped both by sexual preference and by years spent in the sexually-segregated Arab world, was to be with the boys. Yet women were always among his closest friends. “There are no Brothers,” he would say; yet he called his lifelong chum Felicity Mason his pseudo-sister.
“Don’t go calling me a misogynist … a mere misogynist,” he railed in Here To Go: Planet R-101. “I am a monumental misanthropist. Man is a bad animal, maybe the only bad animal.… No one but man threatens the survival of the planet. Space Man may well blow up the planet Earth behind him. When ya gotta go.… Now we know what we are here for. We are not here to love fear and serve any old bearded but invisible thunder god. We are here to go.”
Pardon me if I snicker just a bit at the idea of a self-styled misanthropist who had uncountable hordes of friends and was gregarious and giving in his personal relationships, a philosophical posthumanist who seemed to want to know all there was to know about the whole history and thought and experience and dreams of humankind. But don’t get the idea that I’m not taking the man seriously. He was Here to Go, all right. He streaked across Present Time like a runaway rocket, and then he was Gone. And I don’t think I’ll ever get over missing him.
New York City
March 1987
1. I
I am out in the Sahara heading due south with each day of travel less sure of just who I am, where I am going or why. There must be some easier way to do it but this is the only one I know so, like a man drowning in a sea of sand, I struggle back into this body which has been given me for my trip across the Great Desert. “This desert,” my celebrated colleague, Ibn Khaldoun the Historian, has written, “This desert is so long it can take a lifetime to go from one end to the other and a childhood to cross at its narrowest point.” I made that narrow childhood crossing on another continent; out through hazardous tenement hallways and stickball games in the busy street, down American asphalt alleys to paved playgrounds; shuffling along Welfare waiting-lines into a maze of chain-store and subway turnstiles and, through them, out onto a concrete campus in a cold gray city whose skyscrapers stood up to stamp on me. It has been a long trail a-winding down here into this sunny but sandy Middle Passage of my life in Africa, along with the present party. Here, too, I may well lose my way for I can see that I am, whoever I am, out in the middle of Nowhere when I slip back into this awakening flesh which fits me, of course, like a glove.
I know this body as if it were a third party whose skin I put on as a mask to wear through their “Land of Fear” and I do go in a sort of disguise for, like everyone else out here in this blazing desert where a man is a fool to show his face naked by day, I have learned to wrap five or six yards of fine white muslin around my head to protect the mucus of my nose and throat against the hot, dry wind. All you can see of me is my eyes. For once, I look just like everyone else. No need for me to open these eyes. I know what is out there — nothing but the very barest stripped illusion of a world; almost nothing, nothing at all.
Bundled up like a mummy, I huddle here under my great black burnous, a cape as big as a bag for an animal my size, shape and color. It also serves as a portable tent smelling of woodsmoke and lanolin, under which I fumble for the two pencil-thin sections of my sebsi, my slim wooden keef-pipe from Morocco, to fit them together. A fine flesh-pink clay pipe head, no bigger than the last joint of my little finger, snuggles up over a well-fitted paper collar shaped wet with spit. I try it like a trumpet; airtight, good. My keef-pouch from Morocco is the skin of a horned viper sewn into a metoui and stuffed with great grass. I check with my thumb the tide of fine-chopped green leaf which rolls down its long leather tongue, milking most of the keef back into the pouch. What remains, I coax into the head of my pipe with the beckoning crook of my right forefinger.
A masterpiece matchbox the size of a big postage stamp leaps into the overturned bowl of my left hand, riding light but tight between the ball of my thumb and my third finger. I make all these moves not just out of habit but with a certain conscious cunning through which I ever-so slowly reconstruct myself in the middle of your continuum; inserting myself, as it were, back into this flesh which is the visible pattern of Me. Yet, I know this whole business is a trap which may well be woven of nothing but words, so I joggle the miniature matchbox I hold in my hand and these masterpiece matches in here chuckle back what always has sounded to me like a word but a word which I cannot quite catch. It could be a rattling Arabic word but my grasp of Arabic is not all that good and no one, not even Hamid, will tell me what the matches say to the box. I hold the box up to my ear as I shake it again, trying to hear what the box stutters back. If I remember correctly, Basilides in his “Game” reduced all the Names proposed by the Gnostics to one single rolling, cacophonic, cyclical word which he thought might well prove to be a Key to the heavens: “Kaulakaula-kaulakaulakau …” Can the matches match that?
I love these little matches bought back in Tanja. Each match is a neat twist of brown paper like a stick dipped in wax, with a helmet-shaped turquoise-blue head made to strike on the miniature Sahara of sandpaper slapped onto one side of the box. Matchbox is clamped into the claw of left thumb and middle finger. This indifferent caliper proves suddenly sadist as it rams poor matchbox back onto himself, with little-finger of right hand clear up his ass. Little-finger holds him impaled; proffering a drawerful of identical matches to caliper, who solemnly selects one little brother, pinching him tight. Matchbox is closed with a small, scraping sigh against the heel of right hand. Little-finger withdraws from the rape to help snub poor match against the backslide of his box; striking and exploding his head.
I elbow my way out of this cocoon of felted camel-hair smelling of woodsmoke to thrust forward this pipe, pouch and matches just as we go over a bump and I open my eyes. I am not alone. We are five passengers in here, where we should be only four in the blistering metal cabin of this truck whose red-hot diesel is housed in with us, too. Two seats on either side of it are called First-Class Transportation, while Third-Class is out on the back on top of the cargo of sacks beneath a cracking tarpaulin. In the front seat, Driver, who looks like a chipmunk with the toothache because of the way his sloppy turban hangs under his chin, crouches over the wheel like a real desert rat. Black Greaser, his number-two man, has been playing a long windy tune on a flute made out of a bicycle-pump and the bump nearly rams the flute down his throat. An anonymous vomiting man, like a doll leaking wet sawdust and slime, flops out the far window carsick while, here right beside me, crammed into my seat with me when we are not up in the air, is Middleman; Stowaway. We rise shoulder to shoulder and I hope he lands back on the diesel and burns.