Her helpless feeling echoed his own. He could not touch them. He could not reach their minds or turn their hearts. You will leave me, and I will lose you. That was what Mother Caroline faced, what every family faced. That was the fear which had eaten away at the dreamy idealism of the Diaspora in the years since Ur.
“As far as I’m concerned, she was a runaway, as much as if she’d gone to the streets,” Father Jack had said. “Someone caught her eye with a shiny trinket and a bit of candy and she was gone. She took everything that we’d given her and threw it away. I’m sorry if it sounds hard, but she was dead to me from that day on.”
How many wounds had been left by eight thousand final partings, how many families shattered? How many mates and lovers and children and parents still nursed anger and hurt that they were abandoned? How many that they touched had learned to view the new ship taking shape in orbit as a threat?
“She was a terrific girl,” Father Brett had said. “She brought so much brightness to my life, and now she’s gone. I know we were going to have to say good-bye soon, but I feel cheated. We were expecting her home for Yule, did I say that? And I still half expect to hear her at the door. I loved her and she’s gone. I really haven’t been able to think about anything but that.”
Malena was gone. But the rest of the ten thousand were still here, could still be saved, their families and friends and lovers still spared. Mother Caroline and Father Jack had surrendered, accepted a reality they hated, and their daughter had paid the price. If he, Jeremiah, surrendered as they had, the price paid would be far greater.
When he returned to the house after an hour’s walk, he stopped to watch the hummingbirds darting through the air around the bright red feeder. There were three nesting pairs this season, the most in several years. The frantic energy in their tiny bodies was a marvel, their speed on the wing a delight.
But this morning, he could not feel delight. He descended into the warren, still grasping for an answer. The queues had ballooned again. The new additions included the Houston site director’s first statement, still under way, on the murder. As Jeremiah joined the cast, the director was condemning Silverman and “all those who share his curse of hate and arrogance of virtue.”
“We know his kind,” said Carlos Vincenza. “We’ve seen them outside our gates, waving fists and hurling rocks. We’ve heard their voices, bleating about Mother Gaea and the selfishness of the pioneers. But is there any act more selfish than the one Evan Silverman committed in that field? Is there any explanation besides jealousy for denying someone else a gift you could never appreciate, or stealing a reward that you could never earn?
“They call themselves Homeworlders. Better we should call them homebodies. They protest their own history. They stand against the future. Their life strategy consists of pulling back to the smallest defensible locus. They want to give up nothing, risk nothing, and preserve everything. They’ve made their lives petty and meaningless, and they want ours to be as empty.
“But we have goals and dreams, and we have the right to pursue them. The cost is being borne by those who choose to bear it. The sacrifices will be made by those who choose to make them. We ask only one thing from you: Let us be. Turn your back if you must, but let us go. It means nothing to you, but everything to us—as it did to Malena Graham.”
As Jeremiah watched Vincenza, his expression turned harder and grimmer. “Lila,” he said when it was over, “what has Allied said about Munich?”
“Nothing received, sir.”
“What has Sasaki said about it? Or about Malena Graham?”
“Nothing received, sir.”
“Is the interrupt still ready?”
“Yes, sir.”
“Bring up the translator and animator and give me a countdown,” he said.
“Yes, sir. Translator up. Converter up. Counting down: five-four—”
“This is Jeremiah, speaking for the Homeworld.”
The anger was still bubbling within him, and he welcomed it.
“My heart aches this day for those who knew and loved Malena Graham. Her death was brutal and tragic. But the greatest pain must be the knowledge that her death was unnecessary.
“Who is to blame for what befell Malena Graham? I have been accused. But my goal from the first has been to dissuade—not destroy. I love this world and all its creatures, mankind most of all.
“Who, then? Her parents, for failing to control her? Evan Silverman, for succumbing to the hate that filled him? Hiroko Sasaki, for dangling the universe before a naive girl? Or Malena herself, for the choices she freely made?
“As every parent can witness to, life is a journey from dependence to rebellion to responsibility. Every parent knows that their child will have to face temptations and make difficult choices. You want them to choose well.
“But how do they learn to choose well? They learn from the rules imposed on them from the beginning. If the rules are too strict, what they learn is to escape. And they learn from the examples that surround them. We are sometimes surprised to discover that they have learned more from our example than our words.
“Did Malena Graham choose well? She forsook her family for strangers, the richness of a vast bountiful world for the closed spaces of a tiny metal shell.
“Her father has called her a runaway. But what was she fleeing? Was she abused and belittled? No. We can see that she was loved and nurtured. Was she bitter and unhappy? We are told that she was vibrant and joyful. Why, then, would she make such choices?
“The answer is that Malena Graham was a victim not of a murderer’s hand, but of a poisonous idea. An idea born in the harsh years of the great Repression, when the family of man turned cold in spirit as well as flesh. An idea as false and foolish as a ten-year-old’s notion that his problems will end if he only leaves home.
“Come with me to the stars, whispered the demon. Come with me to find a better place.
“Malena Graham listened. Many good people listened. They saw so much more clearly than we, or so they believed. They saw a burning Earth, an old and weary Earth, a sickly Earth. They saw disease-riddled bodies and fear-divided communities.
“And they dreamed a child’s fantasy of a magic land inhabited by the pure and the loving. A fantasy that became a crippling obsession, a roadblock on the way to responsibility.
“Who is responsible for Malena Graham’s death? We are all responsible—Evan Silverman perhaps least of all. Every one of us who thought the demon harmless. Every one of us who thought the fantasy amusing. Every one of us who failed to notice our children slipping away.
“Malena Graham is dead, but her death will have meaning if only we can read the warning in it. Malena Graham is gone, but there are nine thousand nine hundred ninety-nine more tragedies that can still be averted.
“I say this to the family of Earth: When a child goes astray, a good parent will use a firm hand to bring them to heel. The greater the danger, the firmer our hand must be. We must speak the hard truths. We must set limits. Those who see must act, or those who are blind will stumble.
“I say this to the pioneers of Memphis: We have learned from our mistakes. The Earth is healing. The disease which divided us has been defeated. Now we will correct one last mistake, by saving you from yours. This day, I have struck at the heart of Memphis, in the most protected refuge of Allied Transcon. And I will strike again, and again, until the fantasy is shattered and the demon destroyed—because I love you.