“What about the fish?” Dannaher said.
“We will allow the rats to eat the fish,” Proctor said. “Believe me when I tell you, that as far as I am concerned, the rats are welcome to that fish, because it stinks. Besides, rats have to eat. We have work for those rats to do, and we want them nice and healthy and ready to run fast when we light them off, so we will transcend our own appetite for the fish and let them eat it.”
Carrying two steel cages, each about two feet long and one foot wide, in his left hand, and the flashlight in his right hand, Proctor led Dannaher through the underbrush on the northerly side of the gate, trampling the low, green, three-leafed plants. On the easterly side of the gate they stepped onto the gravel road and walked up a long hill. Now and then a trailer truck passed on Randolph Avenue behind them, the lights barely disturbing the darkness. The gravel crunched and the hill became steeper. Dannaher said, “Slow down, for Christ sake.”
“You’re outta shape, Jimma,” Proctor said. “See? Here’s another thing that I am doing for you. I am getting you some exercise so you don’t get yourself a heart attack when you are still a young man.”
“I think I’m getting one now,” Dannaher said.
11
Wilfrid Mack sat on the aluminium chair with the yellow plastic covering, in Mavis Davis’s kitchen at 25 Bristol Street. She was in her late forties. She wore a red jersey dress which showed that she had kept her figure, and an expression of weariness.
“Mister Mack,” she said, “it’s nice of you to come, and I appreciate it. But I don’t know what you or anybody else can do. You know it just as well as I do – Alfred goes off half-cocked. I’ve tried everything I could think of, to do with him. It didn’t work. His sister’s a fine lady and she works very hard. I get out of bed every morning and go down to the hospital and talk to the people all day on the telephone, the ones who haven’t paid their bills any more’n I have, and then I come home at night with a bag of groceries that I can’t afford and I cook dinner on a stove that doesn’t work right. Selene eats fast and goes to work, and if Alfred’s in the mood, he gets up and eats before he goes down to work for Walter all night long. The plumbing backs up and the owner won’t fix it. You can’t even get Mister Fein on the telephone. Two guys came over here the other day, one of the neighbours was telling me, and went into the cellar with a lot of tools, and then they went right out again. They didn’t do anything. If I fill that sink up with water right now, and you sit here and wait for it to go out, you won’t get anything done tomorrow.
“Just as soon,” she said, “just as soon as I start to think that I am making some progress and there must be some way that an apartment with three people in it, all of them working, can have something like a decent life for themselves and send their kids to school, or maybe just go out to a movie, something happens. We don’t have a car, but we do have lamps. They burn out bulbs. Last week, the summer here and everything, I figured Selene would be working full-time and lots of nights I could walk home or take the subway instead of spending all that money on cabs, and I went out and put thirty dollars down on an air conditioner.
“Mister Mack,” she said, “I don’t know how I’m going to pay for that air conditioner. I just wanted one cool room and I put thirty dollars down, and this week I got a letter that the taxes went up and the heating oil went up and my share of those things is going to just wipe out my air conditioner.
“If you want to look out that window,” she said, “you can. This is the third floor and the back yard’s full of junk. You can pull that chair over there and look right out and see a yard that’s full of junk that people threw away but nobody ever bothered to pick up. You can even get a little breeze over there, if you can stand looking at the junk. But it’d be a good idea if you didn’t tilt too far back in the chair because the back legs’re a little shaky. And don’t lean on the table either. We don’t get good meat very often, but when we do it’s hell cutting it because the table’s so wobbly. I keep this stuff, Mister Mack, because I can’t afford anything better. I make twelve thousand dollars a year and both my kids work, but Alfred gives me nothing and Selene buys her own stuff. If I want an air conditioner, I have to eat on a wobbly table, and now I’m probably going to lose my thirty dollars that I put down on an air conditioner. You politicians. If you don’t mind me saying so, you make me sick.”
“Look,” Mack said, “I’m only a state legislator, ma’am. There’re some limits to what I can do. I don’t set the price of oil and I don’t set the city tax rate. I can’t make the man clean up the yard and I can’t do anything about the heat and the humidity. Give me a break, lady.”
“Mister Mack,” she said, “you asked me a question. You asked me about Alfred and why I don’t calm him down and let his sister solve her own problems. You asked me that. I just told you why I can’t do that. You didn’t listen to me.
“Alfred’s got a temper. I don’t know where he got it. His father sure didn’t have one. He never showed it, if he did. All he ever did was smile and say he would think of something to do about it, but he never did. Until the day he thought of something finally, and he did it. He ran away. That was Roosevelt’s way of doing something. Maybe he was right. He was no good at this business of getting along with other people and enough to eat and a place to sleep that was warm in the winter and at least so you could breathe in the summer. He was a nice man, but he liked to have his glass of beer and he almost always had fifty cents to go sit in the bleachers at the Red Sox game. He went to work at the fine offices downtown and he reported every night. He washed the floors and he waxed the floors. At Christmas, sometimes, one of the professional gentlemen would have his secretary give Roosevelt a fifth of cheap whiskey. He would give me a new nightgown and the kids would get one toy each, and everybody was happy.
“He was happy because he didn’t have to do very much, and they were happy with one toy because they were little then and they weren’t seeing what all the other kids were getting. I was happy because where we were living then was damned cold in the winter and I needed a new nightgown. A new flannel nightgown that would be nice and warm for me until it wore out in April, because those were cheap nightgowns Roosevelt bought, Mister Mack. They were very cheap nightgowns. Roosevelt was polite to everybody, and he was mostly a happy man, at least when I knew him, but when the kids started gettin’ bigger, and noticed more things, and I grew up a little myself, we started talking to him. Maybe we talked too much, Mister Mack. Maybe we gave Roosevelt more trouble than he could handle. Maybe Roosevelt found out he might have been a happy man, and he might have been a nice man, but we didn’t think he was a very good man. And he wasn’t. And we didn’t.
“The trouble is,” she said, “the man the kids got, when Roosevelt left, turned out to be me. I am not even as good a man as Roosevelt was. I am not even a man at all. I am a woman whose husband ran off on her and left her with two kids and no way to make a living and not much chance of finding another man who would be better, that was in the market for a woman with two kids that had had a man and lost him. So I was more or less forced to take over where Roosevelt left off.
“I was dumb enough,” she said, “to think that I could do it better. And I was right. I did do it better. But it wasn’t better enough. Roosevelt wasn’t ever around much anyway, so the kids didn’t really miss him and his one toy apiece at Christmas, but until he left and I had to go work, I was around. And then all of a sudden, I wasn’t. I was out making a living for us, and they were pretty much stuck with themselves.