He let his horse wander, knowing it wouldn’t stray unless endangered and, with his saddle as a pillow of sorts, lay back to contemplate the mess in which he found himself. There was a pit in his stomach that stole any appetite and a burning in his throat that had nothing to do with his earlier shouting. But above it all in his mind rode a deep sense of unease and wrong, coupled with loss. He’d walked out on The Raven, the only family he’d ever really known. This was nothing like the sad, if inevitable and certainly amicable parting of the ways they’d shared a few years before. This had been an act of finality.
Hirad sought fruitlessly for a comfortable position on the soaking leaf mould, his mind distracted by the howling wind that tore at his sheet, threatening to rip it loose; the incessant heavy rain that poured from the leather, pooling on the ground before running downhill and away.
He wasn’t a deep and clever thinker like the others, never had been. He just reacted to what he saw, heard and felt. It was his strength and his curse. He had no idea what had snapped in him earlier. It would have been easy to blame Denser completely but he had to shoulder much of the blame himself.
It was a culmination of things. The way he was always expected to jump to and help other people though, when matters were reversed, those others always found reasons not to bother. And Denser was the worst of them. He’d been acting very strangely since they’d met him in Greythorne.
But still, Hirad knew he shouldn’t have done what he did. Clearly, the man was scared for his family’s lives and it unbalanced him. Made him say stupid things; and bringing the Kaan into it had been a mistake that had triggered so much.
Once more, Hirad brought the image of The Unknown’s blade to his mind, saw its unwavering point and the intent in the grip. It had been no warning and although Hirad knew The Unknown’s reaction had been purebred instinct, he also knew that the Big Man would have killed him had he threatened the Xeteskian further. It was, after all, what he had been born to do; and even though he had been released from Protector thrall and had his soul returned, the legacy remained.
And now Hirad didn’t know how to feel. Angry at Denser, yes. Sad for what he had pushed The Unknown into, certainly. Disappointed he had walked out without solving the problem as well. That had always been The Raven’s way until now. Not to run. But he had.
There was nothing more to be done that night. Ilkar would know he wouldn’t come back immediately and there was no way The Unknown would sanction a search for him until dawn. But there was one question he wanted to answer before he slept. Did he want to be found? Actually, as the hours slipped by and he drifted in and out of sleep, disturbed by wind, rain and the odd rumble of thunder, the answer had become rather obvious.
Hirad awoke in a tight position that was scant protection from the chill. The dawn brought with it a strengthening of the wind but a welcome cessation of the rain. Hirad opened his eyes and stared at the taut leather bivouac vibrating against its ropes. He frowned as he blinked back the brightness of the morning, surprised he hadn’t woken sooner. But that wasn’t all that was amiss. Despite the wind, he should have been able to hear the sounds of forest birds, only it was very quiet and the wind rushed through what to the ear was a dead wood. Like Thornewood.
He stretched where he lay before rolling over and sitting upright, rubbing his face and scratching at an itchy scalp. It was time, he thought ruefully, for Ilkar to clear his head of mites.
Pushing himself up, he ducked out from under the edge of his shelter and stretched again, his eyes coming to rest on his horse.
‘Hello, boy, I—’ he began but faltered. The stallion was standing stock still, eyes wide, legs quivering, too terrified to move. Hirad looked left, following its stare to where five wolves stood, partly hidden by shadows.
‘Oh dear Gods,’ he said. His sword lay by the ashes of the fire. He could grab for it but if he triggered a charge, he’d be killed in moments. So he stood, hoping against the odds that they would move on.
‘Easy boy,’ he said to his horse but the words were as much to himself.
The wolves stood in a close pack, the leader in front of two pairs. They didn’t growl, didn’t threaten and didn’t give any indication of intent. Like Hirad, they stood and waited. It wasn’t normal behaviour and Hirad, not blessed with patience, was anxious for an outcome. Any outcome.
He took a pace forwards, ignoring his blade, knowing that open aggression could be fatal.
‘So what is it?’ he demanded of them. ‘Do something. We’re not going anywhere.’ His gesture included his horse, who suddenly pissed on the forest floor.
The lead wolf sniffed the air and then, with a low growl to its fellows, padded out into the dappled sunlight. It was a huge beast, four feet at the shoulder, its eyes yellow-tinged and its coat pale brown but for a sprinkling of grey flecks and an absolutely unmistakable white stripe down the front of its neck.
Hirad felt momentarily weak at the knees.
It was Thraun.
The Unknown, Ilkar and Denser rode in resentful silence but it could have been worse. The Dordovan mage guard had wanted the Raven mages bound but Darrick had instructed them otherwise. The Unknown had smiled at that, a fleeting amusement. The instruction had been little more than thinly veiled threat.
And so the trio rode weaponless but not helpless in the midst of a Lysternan cavalry force heading at good speed towards Arlen. It had become clear to The Unknown that none in the column had any idea what they might find at the busy but sleepy fishing town whose docks had latterly attracted profitable attention. All they knew was that Erienne was due in on an elven ship and that The Raven weren’t to be allowed access.
The big warrior could see confusion in many eyes, including Darrick’s but he could also see loyalty and the drive to follow orders. As every soldier knew, not every action had an immediately obvious motivation. So long as the war was won, battles were immaterial. Achieve the desired objective, that was what was expected and required.
The Unknown Warrior recognised and deferred to it, as did Ilkar, who’d seen enough battles to understand every nuance of conscript obedience and the unquestioning respect a fine general commanded. Denser was another issue and his hostility wasn’t merely directed at his captors.
‘I understood you to be pledged to protect me,’ he said, riding a little closer.
‘Pledged, no,’ said the Unknown. ‘Not any more. Protect, yes. You’re Raven.’
‘I saw how you reacted last night. Don’t make me remind you.’ The Unknown regarded him evenly. ‘You don’t have to, I remember it perfectly well. I experienced an unfortunate throwback. It’s a reaction that will pass eventually. However, I will always be your friend. And Hirad’s.’
‘Unknown, he’s dead,’ said Denser, a heaviness in his tone.
‘Believing it on seeing it.’
‘Come on, Unknown, you heard Darrick—’
‘Who saw nothing,’ said Ilkar. ‘Until we have confirmed sighting of a body, he’s still alive. And there’s something else. He’s Dragonene and I don’t see any Kaan.’
‘Whatever you say.’ Denser shrugged.
Ilkar shook his head.
‘What have I done now?’ demanded Denser.
‘All these years and you still miss the point sometimes, don’t you?’ said Ilkar.
‘Get what? Hirad lost it and now he’s gone, dead, missing or whatever. I get that. What else is there?’
‘He’s angry, Denser. He feels betrayed by you and he’s going to be confused and distressed by what happened between him and The Unknown last night. But he’s Raven. We’ve been his whole life’s focus despite his work with the Kaan and he won’t walk out on us. He agreed to help you, under duress I know, but he agreed and he’ll never fail a contract until it kills him. That’s what being one of us means.’ Another shake of the head. ‘You should know that by now.’