He must have known that Whalen had been freed. He must have used his special extrasensory gifts to intuit Whalen’s intent-the intent to come after me. Franny sensed the danger and he tried to warn me through his art, his special language. In a word, he tried to save my life even before it required saving.
Chapter 78
The nurse came back in with my lunch, which she set down on the table beside me. I couldn’t bear the thought of eating. Attached to the nurse’s clipboard was a strip of paper. She pulled the piece of paper off the board and held it in her hand. Just a small strip of litmus paper about the size of a cigarette, its tail end painted with pink.
When the nurse glanced at Caroline, I could only assume that she took her for my mother, and Franny for my brother.
“I have some good news,” she announced. “You’re going to have a baby.”
For some reason I could not explain, the news didn’t throw me into the least bit of shock. The effect it had was good and kind. It made me feel warm inside; it made me feel healed.
Caroline came to me, hugged me without getting in the way of the wires.
“From out of the bad comes the good,” she whispered in my ear. “Where there is death, there is life.”
I believed her.
In my mind I’d thought about all the people I’d had relations with over the past twelve months.
Michael. He was the only one. I pictured him doing what he loved-working at his laptop, biting the nail. I saw him sitting at a small table sipping cappuccino outside a Paris cafe; I saw him working at a desk inside a New York City hotel room. I felt him lying beside me in bed, our bare feet touching.
Michael, don’t die.
Chapter 79
Michael was being kept alive inside a clear partitioned room in the ICU Caroline wheeled me into the dimly lit room, pushing me directly to the bed that held my husband’s comatose body. When Caroline left the room, I took Michael’s hand in mine. Already it felt cold and as frail as Molly’s had just before she died all those years ago.
There was an IV attached to his left forearm by means of a needle and clear plastic tubing. The monitors set beside the bed recorded blood pressure and heart rate.
Although dark hair veiled more than half his face, I could see just how pale was.
“We’re going to have a baby,” I whispered. “How about that? A couple of divorcees starting a family together.”
I squeezed cold fingers together and I began to cry. For a brief second, Michael’s eyes opened up. I felt my heart race. But just like that, the eyes closed and a short breath was exhaled out his mouth. That’s when the green line on the monitor went flat and an electronic alarm sounded.
“I’m sorry,” I cried. “I’m sorry, Michael.”
A nurse came in then. She didn’t look at me at all. She approached the machine and turned off the alarm. Glancing down at her wristwatch, she made a mental note of the time. Before walking back out, she set her hand on my right shoulder and gently squeezed.
“Stay with him for a bit,” she said.
She closed the door behind her.
I stayed with Michael for a while. I cried and I also talked to him, planned things out. But after a time I knew it was no use. Michael had waited to die until I came to him one last time. Until I said goodbye.
Michael waited to die. He loved me that much.
I let go of his hand knowing I would never hold it again. I let go of his hand. But still I felt it in mine.
Michael.
I let go of his hand. It was time to let him go.
Chapter 80
One week later I received my discharge. My doctor’s healing instructions in hand along with a big fat bill (the Albany Art Center couldn’t afford comprehensive health care), I packed up my bag with get well cards, sympathy cards, and gifts and tossed out the now wilted flowers. Then I wrapped Franny’s final ‘Touch’ painting in aluminum foil that one of the nurse’s had snatched up from the floor kitchen. Everything set to go, I settled into an A.M.C. wheelchair.
I’d lost five pounds over the past week, but the weight loss didn’t make me feel any lighter. Nor was it good news for my pregnancy. Maybe Michael’s parents were still alive, but in their mind I was still his wife and they saw to it to wait on burying him until I was well enough to attend the funeral. But I was no longer his wife even if I was the mother of his unborn baby. Only when the funeral was over would I share the news about my pregnancy with Michael’s parents.
I shared an elevator with Caroline and Franny.
Staring straight ahead, I caught my reflection in the chrome-paneled doors. My face stared back at me, distorted, black-and-blued, unfamiliar, like a beat-up funhouse mirror reflection.
Almost tranquilly the elevator descended three stories to the first floor where we proceeded along the extended length of the narrow corridor to the exit. But Franny and I were barely through the automatic sliding glass doors before we were besieged by the scattered reporters who shouted out questions regarding mine and his overnight ordeal of one week ago.
“Do you plan on bringing a class action suit against Albany County for negligence, Ms. Underhill?”
“Is it true Whalen abducted you and your twin sister thirty years ago?”
“Do you fear for your life now that Whalen’s body has yet to be located?”
The questions were machine-gunned as microphones were shoved to within inches of our faces even while we made for the parking lot.
Until Caroline took control.
She stopped the chair, stepped around to the front, blocking any and all access to Franny and me.
“Ladies and gentlemen,” she exclaimed. “Please leave us in peace. In time, we’ll release a statement regarding last week’s ordeal. But until then we ask for patience and understanding while the process of convalescence continues. Thank you.”
As soon as I was seated besides Franny in the front of Caroline’s old truck, I decided to break my silence.
“That was eloquent, Caroline,” I offered, eyes planted on the open road up ahead.
Throwing the automatic transmission into drive, she said, “I’ve had a lifetime of protecting Francis from vultures like that.”
For a moment I was reminded of Franny’s upcoming cable television debut. But I thought better of mentioning it now.
While she motored the truck out past the city limits, over the South Troy Bridge and along Rural Route 2, Caroline brought me up to speed on a few developments that had transpired over the past twenty-four hours.
First item of importance was that Robyn had been transported to her mother’s home in the Albany suburbs where she continued to recover. Silently, I brooded over my best friend and partner not having called or come to visit me. But then, I knew something about post traumatic stress. I knew about wounds that change a person, make them withdraw-wounds that even time couldn’t heal. Caroline went on to say that the FBI still had no clue as to the whereabouts of Robyn’s attacker, and in all likelihood would not until someone either caught him in the act, or was able to make a positive ID in a line-up.
The next item was very important; it was believed that traces of Whalen’s body were uncovered in the deep woods not far from Mount Desolation. Having been left to the elements and the animals, his body was assumed to be badly decomposed. Specifically recovered were several bones that might belong to his right hand. Not even the press was aware of the discovery since the remains were now arriving at the FBI forensics’ lab in Albany for DNA verification.
“Is Mr. Whalen dead now?” Franny asked, his eyes staring out the windshield onto the pine tree-lined road.
I took hold of his hand, held it.
“Yes Franny,” I said. “You don’t have to worry.”
“What if he’s not dead? Does Mr. Whalen come back for us?”