We cruise by what was The Social Club and Mom tells me to stop. Now this right here was it, she says, and goes on about how The Social Club was also the afterhours, the place where old men knocked dice to wee hours in a smoky back room, where they served the stiffest drinks you could find, where you could order a burger big as a dinner plate stuffed with sausage, eggs, and whatever else they had in the kitchen. They never had music or a dance floor, Mom says. But my oh my it always boomed with grown folks having the time of their natural born lives.
The Social Club’s on the same block as the building that used to be Rose City Auto Repair. Mom says the owner (a freckled Creole named Mr. Black who wore clean coveralls with his name patched on his chest) must’ve fixed every knock and ping in Northeast. She says old man Black could keep your Chrysler or Buick or Ford running well past when your mileage turned over. Says he was loved for giving free car washes to customers and always quoting a fair price. And if he knew your people, Mom says, he might let you work out payments.
We ride by what used to be Burger Barn. Gosh, you sure did love them burgers, Mom says. Just couldn’t get enough of them burgers but everybody else was stuck on the chicken baskets. Them and the desserts. Mom says half the folks she knew would’ve pawned an arm for even a teaspoon of their banana pudding or peach cobbler, for the thinnest slice of their sweet potato pie. She tells me twins (who pimped on the side and would let their prostitutes rest in back booths between shifts) ran the restaurant day to day, but that the hoes were only there on weeknights since the after-church crowd ruled the weekends.
Figures, I say. You know how the Christians love their after-church grub.
Those were the days, Mom says. Those were the times. She tells me we should ride by the mall, that if it’s about her day then we have to. We wheel down MLK to Weidler where I pull into the underground parking, see mall security patrolling in a jeep, an old couple strolling for an entrance, wild kids rollerblading between parked cars. Remember those Saturdays after I got paid that we’d come and make a day of it? Mom says. That was everything. I’d shop all my favorite stores for clothes and shoes, then swing by the discount shop to check the ninety-nine cent specials. Mom admits that, while we thought a treat, the times she sent us to the ice rink were times she didn’t feel like being bothered. But least ya’ll got some junk out the deal, she says, and reminds me how we never left the mall without a trip to the Candy Shack and a blessing of our pick of cotton candy or an XL box of caramel corn or an XL box of caramel and cheese corn mixed or a just-the-right-ripe caramel apple.
We take Seventh Ave up from the mall — past Broadway, Siskiyou, Knott, Monroe. Mom points at Irving Park and I circle an island and pull near the day care center across the street. Nothing doing on the courts but dudes playing a scrap-game of one-on-one. Talk about summers, she says. Me and my girls couldn’t wait for the sun. Couldn’t wait to put on high cut shorts, stroll up here, and make an afternoon of parading around the fields and courts, while the guys huffed and sweat through games. We’d traipse till our legs hurt then make our way to the street, where there was never a shortage of highsighting guys sitting on their hood or trunk with their eight-track blaring a Motown hit.
We (Mom and me) have been how long out? Neither one of us have checked to see. She asks what I have planned for Kim.
Oaks Park, I say. Gone hit the rink.
Oooh, skate night, she says. Now that should be fun.
It should, I say. You wanna roll?
With these knees? No, you two enjoy. Enjoy yourselves just you two. You need that sometime. Mom turns to me and flashes a seismic smile. Soooo, what about you? How about you show me a spot or two?
What comes to mind first is MLK: the used car lots, the liquor store, the barbershops, the beauty supply, the car washes, Albina Bank, the precinct, the Job Corps office, the gas stations that sold that cut-rate low-octane ethanol shit that gave my ride the coughs.
Can’t let you off that easy, Mom says. Lets see them. Let’s go.
The first spot of mine we hit is the hand carwash on MLK. This is where, soon as there was a inkling of heat, the hustlers would gather with their old-schools: chameleon-painted Mustangs, Monte Carlo Super Sports, ’64 Impalas tricked with dual exhausts, El Caminos customed with trunks of big-ass woofers. You’d see the carwash packed with flossy rides, with dudes cooling against a fender or craned by the ear of a blushing young broad. What I don’t tell Mom is how I’d sputter by in my hooptie (a Buick Regal with a faulty alternator) and dream of being among the go-getters, of being posted beside a late-model four-door on pristine five-stars swathed in low-profile meat — how I longed to seize a place in the life.
I cruise a couple blocks up to Quickies, the brick convenient store where, after a long day of park balling, me and my hoop patnas would slog to (T-shirts drenched and feet on hell in high tops) intent on copping a sports drink or juice, and if we had the loot, a hot link or jo-jos or a flaky bean burrito. We’d hit the store and either tramp back to the park for the close-to-sunset runs or trek back home to wash our sweaty nut sacks. Then around the time I hit my growth spurt, about the time the old heads started letting me ball on the main court, niggers caught in that red and blue strife were turning Quickies’ lot into the Wild Wild West. Got to the point where you’d bop out carrying your half guzzled drink and sack of JoJos and get caught in ballistic funk. Quickies is where one of my homeboys from grade school got shot in the chest and lived, where the brother of a JV teammate got shot in the neck and died.
Where do we end up?
Where could we end up but the corner of Sixth and Mason.
I park across from the house and for a time the both of us sit quiet and gaze. The light is dying behind the clouds. Whatever was left of the season’s heat has been sucked out the air. We get out and walk to the fence. They’ve got the lawn cut and the porch painted, a new screen door. What I think of about then is this, I say, and sweep my arm.
Mom nods. She nods and smirks. Tell me what you remember most, she says.
When Mama Liza would keep us hostage for hours of prayer and devotion. Stealthing into Bubba’s fruit stash for a kiwi, plum, or mango. Oh yeah, and remember the year you bought me that rolltop desk and encyclopedia set? I say. The one I talked my boys into playing school all summer?
Yes, I do. Yes, I do, she says.
Mom, have you ever thought? I say. Sometimes I think, I say, how we spend all this time looking further and further, when what we need was behind us all along?
Yes, Champ, she says. It would be nice, it would, if we were all at some point sprinkled with light.
Mom asks how often I come by the old house.
That’s a good question, I say. Not that often and often, I say. Or whenever I feel the need.
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Skate night. We (my girl and me) swank in late with our arms looped. Ain’t been in here in a hot minute, but ain’t much changed. Walls wood-paneled, raggedy carpet, a glass case filled with old skates and trophies, lockers with the paint rubbed to patterns. And it’s dim in here too, disco dim with a light machine playing colored swirls across the rink. We find a seat in the lobby and I help Kim pull off her boots and carry them to the counter, do that and ask the counter girl for new skates for my girl if they have them cause I should. You shouldn’t have, Kim says, and slips on the new wheels. She gets to her feet and scissors her stilts apart this way, then that. Then who walks in but this funnstyle super-skate dude who’s been a mainstay at the rink since my old summer program was coming here on field trips. He lopes in dressed in a field jacket and fatigue pants and carrying a metal box. He finds a seat close by and lifts a pair of calf-tall skates (black leather joints with zebra laces and neon rubber wheels) and small can out the box, drips oil on his axles, and gives each wheel a spin. He swanks on his custom skates, ties the zebra ropes in intricate-ass bows, locks his combat gear away, and rushes onto the floor.