When she came out of the kitchen, she began to speak of Anand’s difficult childhood in her soft French accent, frequently mixing up the English tenses. Miss West and I settled ourselves on her bed, leaning against the bolsters and drinking coffee. Catherine hadn’t put on the lights yet and the room was full of the smoky blue light of the evening. Street sounds drifted in through the tiny window: the squeaks of Bajaj scooter horns, the jangle of rickshaw bells. In one of the rooms in the congested house across the street a fluorescent tube kept flickering in and out of life; the pigeons, so neatly arrayed one moment on the electric wires, kept exploding into the air with a loud flapping of wings.
Anand’s parents had two daughters to marry but no money for the dowry, the current rate for which was very high within families of their caste. They had looked to Anand for help: they expected him to do well in his studies and find a salaried government job somewhere. They had actively discouraged Anand from developing his musical talent and they had almost disowned him when he dropped out of school and declared his intention of going to Benares to find a music guru. There had been vicious rows at home. Anand was often beaten up by his father.
‘Now,’ Miss West interrupted, ‘I didn’t know that. How absolutely awful.’
Catherine said that it had indeed happened — not once or twice but several times. ‘And,’ she added, with a sudden sharp edge of passion in her voice, ‘this was when he was already eighteen years old.’
Catherine mentioned similar cruelties, the passion in her voice unmistakable now. It was odd to hear her talk about Anand in his absence: he suddenly appeared a man of deeper personality and experience than his own quiet, slightly bland presence made him out to be.
Presently, Catherine got up to turn on the lights and came back with a few photos of Anand’s village. Shoddy printing and tiny white disfiguring spots made it impossible to isolate any detail on them. But the overall picture they added up to was clear: the jumble of low mud huts and naked brick houses with cowsheds in the front yard on narrow lanes rutted by bullock-cart wheels, beyond which lay the whitewashed shrines, the buffaloes floating on algae-covered ponds, the sea of yellow mustard fields and the emptiness of dusty country roads.
How hard it was to imagine Catherine in this setting! Or to visualize the journey to the village, to see Catherine among the overflowing crowds on Bihar trains, packed tight together on hard wooden bunks and the floor and spilling out on the roof; to see her with the even more ragged passengers on the ramshackle country bus of dented abraded steel, its tyres worn smooth by the broken roads, the windshield cracked and grimy. Such aggressive curiosity she would arouse! How exposed she would be to the blank insistent stares, the intrusive questions in pidgin English, the lewd speculation about her connection with Anand.
*
As it turned out, I didn’t see her for many days after she returned. The first time I asked Miss West about the visit, her sole remark was: ‘It didn’t work out.’ Judging by her tone, she didn’t want to invite more questions on this matter, but later, in an absent-minded moment as we stood on the roof one evening, she came back to it without any prompting from me.
‘Did I tell you about Catherine’s visit to Bihar?’ she said. ‘They were hard on her, scowling and suspicious: they didn’t say anything to her — they hardly speak a word of English — Anand got all the flak. Poor girl, she was in tears. But that’s something she’ll have to live with. You can’t expect people like Anand’s parents to change: they’ll always disapprove of her, and in some sense that disapproval is important to them. It’s part of their identity; they can’t let go of it.’
Catherine herself had moved on to other preoccupations when I next saw her. The biggest source of anxiety now was her own parents. She had discussed with them the possibility of arranging some concerts in Paris so that Anand could pay, with the advance money, for his air ticket to France. They had replied that he ought to earn the necessary amount in India before he even started for France.
This greatly exasperated Catherine. How on earth was he going to do that? she exclaimed. Didn’t they know the difference in scale between the two economies? That kind of money doesn’t come easily in India. Her mother had been here after all; she must have taken with her at least some idea of Indian conditions; she was expected to be more understanding than her husband.
We were at Mark’s house. Miss West had taken me there, on one of her rounds of late-afternoon visits after the mornings spent reading and listening to music, and we had found Catherine, along with Sarah, the German Buddhist. Miss West often asked me if I wanted to accompany her on her trips. The visit to Mark’s house, as with the previous visit to Catherine’s, was her attempt to create a social life for me. Lately, she had also undertaken to introduce me to Western classical music; she played me CDs of Schubert’s String Quintet in C Minor and the String Sextet No. 2 by Brahms, and directed my attention to specific bits. I didn’t always like the music or understand what she said, but I was glamoured by this contact with names that I had encountered only in print.
I had seen Mark’s house several times from the river ever since Miss West pointed it out to me. This was the first time I had been inside it. It had three rooms huddled around a courtyard that offered a wide, unrestricted view of the river. The rooms were filled with a medley of selfconsciously ethnic knick-knacks — Azamgarh dhurries, Himachali wall hangings, Gujarati lampshades, Tibetan tangkas and various kinds of pots and pans.
As we walked into the half-enclosed courtyard where they all sat, catching the last bit of warmth before the sun disappeared behind the houses to the west, Mark was reclining regally on a jute mat, facing the glinting river. Sarah and Catherine were leaning against the wall a few inches away, but it was Debbie who caught my eye. She was lying on a saggy string cot, stripped down to her bra and panties, her skin already a leathery brown, her legs drawn up and parted in a rather graceless manner.
Miss West had told me that a widow from Bengal lived in one of the rooms in Mark’s house; she had long stopped paying the rent, but the landlord had been unable to evict her. It was her white saris that hung on a clothes line in the courtyard. Mark, Miss West said, got along well with her.
But what about Debbie? I wanted to ask Miss West, who had remarked once before on her sunbathing: one of the signs, I remembered, of her ‘commonness’. No one seemed to see anything amiss in her present appearance; Debbie herself seemed profoundly unconcerned about it. But it was shocking to me, and I knew it was very far from anything a widow from Bengal, living out her last years in prayer and near-destitution, could have countenanced. All through the visit I kept worrying about the possibility of her making an unexpected appearance upon the scene.
We had arrived in the middle of several bustling conversations. Mark smiled at us and gestured towards the vacant space in front of him. Sarah paused for the briefest while in her conversation with Debbie, acknowledging our presence with a smile that momentarily animated all the wrinkles on her face. Debbie abruptly sat up, revealing the freckled tops of her breasts, and waved.
Catherine was in the midst of a serious-seeming conversation with Mark. On the last occasion we were together at her house, I had heard her say to Miss West, ‘I don’t like Americans very much, but Mark is different. He is deep, deep.’ I couldn’t see Miss West’s face; she had her own opinions of Mark, opinions she had expressed to me. But she said nothing to Catherine, and it pleased me to think that there were things she would confide only in me.