Her head felt like lead. Her thoughts were still snatching jerkily at scraps of violent dreams that had haunted her brief sleep, but she recognised the man in front of her instantly. He was reaching for a book on a high shelf, unaware of her presence, and she caught sight of the title. Photography: The Nude Figure: Female.
‘Hello, Mr Mason. I didn’t know you were interested in photography. ’
He jumped; she saw his fingers nearly slide off the book, but he gathered himself well and turned his head casually. His expression was friendly, but his dark suit made him look authoritative and remote.
‘Well I’m blowed, I didn’t expect to find you here, Lydia. Shouldn’t you be at home doing homework?’
‘I’m just finding some books.’
‘Run along, then. Mrs Barker wants to close.’
‘Yes, I will.’ But she twiddled a finger idly over the spines of a row of poetry volumes in front of her and waited to see if he would put the book back. He did.
‘Do you know what I would like, Mr Mason?’ She didn’t even bother to look at him.
‘What’s that?’
‘An ice cream.’
He actually managed to smile at her as he said, ‘Then let me buy you one, Lydia.’
The rain had started up again, sharp and stinging, by the time she hurried home. In the attic she found her mother preparing to go out for the evening and she felt a kick of disappointment. Oh yes, the job. For a moment she had forgotten, the dance hostess job. It paid the rent and that’s what she wanted, wasn’t it? So she mustn’t complain, but she didn’t want to be on her own, not tonight. Valentina was artfully twisting her hair up on top of her head and her eyes were bright with anticipation.
Not just the job then.
‘Is Alfred joining you again tonight?’ She picked up one of her mother’s hairpins lying on the floor and detached two long dark hairs from it. She twined them around her finger.
Valentina was humming a snatch of Beethoven’s Fifth but silenced herself to apply the vivid carmine lipstick that Lydia loved.
‘Yes, he’s picking me up, darling.’ She turned her head sideways in the mirror to study the effect. ‘He comes to the hotel every night I work and buys all my dances. He’s a dream.’
‘What dull dreams you have, Mama.’
‘Poof, don’t be so ridiculous,’ Valentina snapped. ‘He’s helping us. Where do you think your supper came from?’ She gestured to a large slice of veal pie on a plate with melon and a French baguette. ‘You should be grateful.’
Lydia said nothing but sat down at the table and opened one of the poetry books she had brought home from the library. She flicked through the pages and said as if it had only just occurred to her, ‘Why don’t you invite him up here for a minute, so I can thank him myself?’
Valentina stopped powdering her throat. She was wearing the navy silk dress again, the one Alfred Parker said he admired, but Lydia was quite sure that to Alfred even sackcloth and ashes would look heavenly if Valentina was wearing it.
‘Why?’ her mother said warily. ‘What are you up to?’
‘Nothing.’
‘You are never up to nothing, dochenka. Look at this afternoon with the commissioner. I meant it when I said you are too wild and deserve a whipping.’
‘I know, Mama.’
Valentina fastened a cloisonné necklace around her throat.
‘That’s pretty, Mama. Is it new?’
‘Mmm.’
‘I’ll behave better, you’ll see. So will you invite Mr Parker up here before you leave? Please.’
Valentina ran a hand along her jawline as if searching out any flaws. ‘I suppose so.’
Alfred Parker beamed at Lydia. ‘This is nice.’
He was wearing an elegant charcoal suit and had put something shiny on his brown hair so that it gleamed, and to Lydia he did look quite decent for once. Shame about the spectacles though. He was drinking the little shot of vodka she had poured him and didn’t even mention that it was in a cup. Lydia was back at the table with her book.
‘Busy with homework, eh?’
‘Yes.’
He stepped closer and peered at her book. His waistcoat smelled of tobacco. ‘Wordsworth, I see.’
‘Yes.’
‘Do you like poetry?’
‘Yes.’
‘Ah.’
‘Lydochka,’ Valentina said in a voice that was much too polite, ‘I believe you wanted to say something to Alfred.’
‘Yes.’
Alfred beamed at her again.
She took a deep breath. ‘I am sorry I behaved badly toward you and I want to thank you for your kindness to me.’ She glanced at her mother’s necklace. ‘To us. And so I would like to give you this.’
The words had come out faster than when she’d rehearsed them in her head. She held out the small felt package tied up in the red ribbon that had been on Sun Yat-sen’s hatbox. Alfred looked impressed.
‘Lydia, my dear, no need for gifts, I assure you.’
‘I want you to have it.’
Even her mother was looking pleased.
‘Thank you, how nice,’ he said as he accepted the present and placed an embarrassed kiss on Lydia’s cheek. His jaw was rough against her skin. Carefully he unwrapped the bow and the felt, clearly expecting a homemade trinket of some sort. When he saw the silver hunter watch gleaming in his palm, his face drained till it was paper white, and he sat down heavily on the sofa.
Valentina was the one to speak. ‘Good God, little one, where on earth did you find that? It’s beautiful.’
‘In a pawnshop.’
Alfred Parker was fingering the watch, opening its case, winding its spring, adjusting its hands, as if his own hands couldn’t get enough of it. Without for one second taking his eyes off it, he said in an amazed tone, ‘It’s mine.’
‘Yes.’
‘How did you know which pawnshop to find it in?’
‘Because I put it there.’
Valentina glared at Lydia over Alfred’s head and made a savage twisting gesture with her two hands, as if she wanted to wring her daughter’s neck.
Slowly Alfred looked up and stared at Lydia, comprehension seeping in. ‘You stole it?’
‘Yes.’
He shook his head. ‘You mean you stole my father’s watch from me?’
‘Yes.’
He rubbed a hand across his mouth, holding in the words. ‘No wonder you asked if it was valuable.’
Lydia was feeling worse than she’d expected. He’d gotten the watch back, so why didn’t he go now? Go and dance.
But he stood up and walked over to her until he was standing right next to the table and she could see the hairs in his nose.
‘You are a very wicked girl,’ he said and his voice sounded all tight, as though he were in physical pain. ‘I will pray for your soul.’ One hand held the watch, the other was clenched on the table, and she knew there was a lot more he wanted to say but didn’t.
‘You have it back now,’ Lydia mumbled, her eyes refusing to back down from his. ‘Your father’s watch. I thought you’d be pleased.’
He said nothing, just turned and walked out of the room.
‘Dochenka, you little fool,’ Valentina hissed at her, ‘what have you done?’
It was after midnight when Lydia heard her mother return. Her footsteps in the black and silent room sounded loud, her high heels click-clacking on the floorboards, but Lydia lay in bed, face to the wall, pretending she was asleep. She refused to open her eyes, even when Valentina pulled aside her curtain and sat down on the end of Lydia’s bed. She sat there for a long time. Without speaking. Lydia could hear her uneven breathing and the rustle of her skirt, as if her fingers were as busy as her thoughts. The church clock struck twelve-thirty and, after what seemed an age, one o’clock, and only then did Valentina speak.
‘You are lucky you are still alive, Lydia Ivanova. Maybe he didn’t skin you alive, but I nearly did. You frighten me.’
Lydia wanted to cover her ears but didn’t dare move.