Simon went into a peal of laughter. "Now, just how, my dear girl, did you get that impression from the last hour?" Ariel blushed crossly.
"Besides," he continued, "this accusation of Puritanism grows irksome. As it happens, I have never held to the Puritan way of life and don't ever intend to."
"But you dress in the dark, somber clothes of a Puritan?"
"I've no taste for peacocking around. And besides, dark colors and simple cuts suit me."
"Oh-ho, you are vain, after all, Sir Puritan!" she crowed.
The laughter died out of his eyes and his face became dark. "I have little cause for vanity. I know it as well as anyone." Almost unconsciously, he touched the scar on his cheek.
There was silence for a minute, then Ariel said, "I do not find anything distasteful about you… except that you're a Hawkesmoor," she added.
Simon smiled. "As are you, madam wife. As are you. Well and truly."
So in conclusion, my dear Helene, I don't really know what to make of my bride. I think you would probably like her. She has a straightforwardness that you would respond to, but she has also a deep personal reserve and she's more stubborn than the most obstinate mule.
Helene leaned back in her chair, Simon's letter fluttering to her lap. The fire was a warm glow in the small wainscoted parlor, and the wind and rain lashing the casements made it seem even cozier within. Her gaze rested on her eldest daughter, Marianne, sitting with her tambour frame on the other side of the hearth. The child was intent over her needle, sewing a sampler for her little sister's birthday. Louise, unaware of her sister's efforts on her behalf, was sitting on the floor playing spillikins with her young brother, James. His father's heir, the reason why Harold in his will had stipulated that if his widow remarried she would lose guardianship of her children.
Helene picked up Simon's letter again. I wish you could meet her, my dear. I would value your insight. Sometimes I believe I understand her, know what's going on behind that broad forehead, and then in the next minute I realize she's a complete enigma. She was unwilling for the marriage, as I've already mentioned, and while she seems resigned now, I have the strange feeling that she is not. Her brothers are brutes of the first water, and she is as different from them as crystal is from clay, but I still believe that in the deep-running rivers of her soul she could never bring herself to care truly for a Hawkesmoor.
"And you once said there would never be room in your heart for a Ravenspeare."
"I beg your pardon, Mama?"
"Nothing, my dear." Helene hadn't realized she'd spoken aloud. Ravenspeare Castle was a fifteen-mile journey across the fens from the dower house of Kelburn Manor. She was practically a neighbor of the Ravenspeares. And her own family's connection with the Hawkesmoors was so well known in the Fens, any interest she might take in the marriage of the earl of Hawkesmoor would cause no comment. It would not be unheard of for a neighbor to pay her respects to the bride and groom during their extended wedding celebrations. Not unheard of, but given the reputation of the lords of Ravenspeare, most unusual.
But Simon sounded strange in this letter. He was a faithful and regular correspondent; even from the battlefields of Europe, he had written monthly accounts. She could read his mood beneath the words as easily as if she'd been sitting in the same room with him. And he was clearly disturbed, uncertain, most uncharacteristically unsure of himself.
And all because some nineteen-year-old chit didn't understand her good fortune. She should be on her knees thanking God for giving her such a wonderful man as husband, instead of making him feel unwanted, withholding herself from him, when he so clearly wanted her… her what?
Her love?
Helene leaned forward abruptly and threw another log onto the fire. Her face was hot and a nasty sourness was in her belly. Of course Simon didn't feel love for his Ravenspeare bride, but it seemed he felt something. It seemed she interested him… intrigued him, even. And there was a softness behind his frank and puzzled confidences that Helene had come to believe was for herself alone.
Now it seemed she must share it. She despised the wave of jealousy as it flooded her veins, made her mouth turn down, her eyes narrow. But she couldn't seem to prevent it. It was demeaning and futile. She was the one who had refused to marry Simon after Harold's death. Oh, for invincible reasons, ones that Simon had understood without question. But all the rational thought in the world couldn't seem to stop the venom of jealousy from infecting her blood.
"Are you ill, Mama?" Marianne, of the three children ever the most watchful and careful of their mother, threw aside her embroidery and dropped to the floor at Helene's knees. Her eyes were filled with concern as she touched her mother's cheek with the back of her hand.
Helene smiled reassuringly, stroking the girl's bright head before kissing her brow. "Just a dark thought, my love. But it's passed now."
"About our father?" James cupped the spillikins in his small hands before letting them fall to the carpet to start a new game. The lad had no real memory of Harold, Helene knew, but he referred to his father on every possible occasion, as if he needed to make him real.
He would have benefited so much from a stepfather… such a one as Simon would be. Helene caught the tiny sigh before it escaped. "Come, let's all play spillikins." Smiling, she sat down on the floor among her children, who gathered around her like a trio of baby ducklings.
She would visit the new countess of Hawkesmoor as an old family friend ready to welcome her into her husband's world. She would see this Ariel for herself. And if the girl didn't understand the full worth of Simon Hawkesmoor, then Helene would make her understand in no uncertain terms.
Ariel watched the earl of Hawkesmoor draw back the longbow. Despite the cool afternoon, he, like the rest of the archery competitors, had shed his coat. The muscles of his shoulders bunched beneath the white shirt as he pulled back the thick willow. The shirt was tucked carelessly into his britches. A broad belt with a magnificent jeweled buckle outlined his slender waist, accentuated the taut buttocks and slim hips.
Desire flickered in her belly. The arrow was loosed from the bow and thudded into the center of the target. Ariel smiled and swung her legs as she sat on an upturned rain butt to one side of the archery court. She had abandoned her wedding finery for a simple gown of homespun russet linen. White cuffs banded the wrists and a deep white collar set off the creamy oval of her face. Her hair hung in a thick rope down the middle of her back. She wore no hoop and on her feet were a pair of sturdy leather clogs over woolen stockings.
Simon stepped back, took a tankard of ale from a waiting servant, and drained it in one gulp, his eyes on the lad who had run to the target to remove the arrow. It was pronounced a bull's-eye and the Ravenspeare brothers looked sour.
Ariel watched as Ralph stepped up to the mark. At this archery tournament, the earl of Hawkesmoor and his team were competing with the Ravenspeare brothers and theirs. Ralph drew his bow and his arm shook with the strain as he pulled the string taut. Ariel judged that as usual he was not sober. The arrow hit the target, but off center. Ralph muttered a vile oath and stepped back.
"Beggin' yer pardon, m'lady."
Ariel turned immediately to the girl bobbing a curtsy a few feet away from her. "What is it, Maisie?"
"Mistress Gertrude sent me, m'lady. Would you come to the kitchen?"
Ariel slid off the rain butt immediately and left the court with the long, energetic stride that set her skirt swinging about her ankles. Simon noted her departure but gave it not a second thought. Ariel was always about some household matter or other. However, once the contest was over, he went in search of her.