"You will learn it soon enough. It will be engraved in your heart."
Cavillex nodded thoughtfully as he searched Will's face. "You have been touched by us before."
"Many men have been touched by your kind. There will be an ending to that business."
Cavillex ignored Will's insolence and continued to peer deeply into his eyes. "What was her name?" he enquired thoughtfully.
Deep in his head, Will felt something shift. His thoughts unfolded, rolling away like the mist on an autumn morning, and in the sun-drenched landscape that was revealed, he saw jenny again, coming towards him through the cornfield, her face ablaze with love. His heart pounded with joy. He wanted to feel the touch of her hand in his once more, the sweetness of her cheek against his lips, the perfume of her hair, the melody of her voice, her laughter; her love.
And then the image faded, and he knew it was an echo, fading with each passing day, slowly draining the happiness from his life. A wave of grief washed through him, but he held it back before it broke on his face.
"Would you like to know if she still lives?" Cavillex enquired.
"Why would I listen to your words? They are lies and obfuscations and swamp-lights that lead you on to disaster," Will replied.
"Because hope and yearning forces you to listen, even when you know it is painful or futile. That is the way of men. You follow the light to try to ease the pain of your existence. You need the promise because you cannot deal with the harshness of the truth."
"And you take advantage of our weakness."
"You carry your own destruction with you," Cavillex continued. "Love. Even as it leads you on, it ruins you."
"And yet we continue," Will replied. "And when you divine that mystery you will realise you can never win."
"I know where she is." Cavillex nodded as he saw the light rise up in Will's face. "Alive, yes."
"With your kind?"
Cavillex remained implacable.
Will privately cursed himself for responding; he had proved Cavillex right. He forced himself to dismiss Cavillex's admission as another manipulation designed to inflict pain, but something in his opponent's face, or tone, hinted at a deeper truth.
"We will meet again, when it is time to balance our accounts," Cavillex said to Will with a nod. He turned to James and added, "We enjoy our time among your people and the sport it gives us." James winced and once again Will thought he was on the brink of tears. "Now, you have a choir here?" Cavillex continued. "I would hear more of your music that celebrates the joys of your short lives. Let them sing the opening verses of the 137th Psalm, in the setting of Filippo de Monte, Super flunaina. Please your honoured guests." He bowed, and moved away into the crowd.
James wrung his hands. "I am a king, yet I am a slave."
"None of us can be ourselves-our lives are not our own. We all make sacrifices for the good of the ones we serve, and that is how it should be."
"But I would not be a slave to him!"
"Nor shall you, for much longer. We will never be truly free of them, but there will be a time when we have driven them back to the edges of life, and for most people they will become a memory, nothing more."
"Your words give me confidence. Remember me to your Queen, and, if you find it in your heart, pass on what I have said." He gave a weary smile, a nod, and went in search of the choir.
His resolve reaffirmed, Will moved towards Nathaniel, Meg, and Reidheld, who had been watching from afar. All the joyous noise of the festivities faded into a dull background buzz as his thoughts coalesced around the image of jenny in the cornfield. Was Cavillex telling him the truth, or was it a lie designed to cause emotional pain? New hope that would eventually be crushed so brutally it would be worse than not having hope at all? It showed the cold effectiveness of the Enemy: in only one moment they had identified and attacked his most vulnerable area. He tried to force the image back into the deep, dark place where he had learned to keep it so he could continue with his life, but it clawed its way back, refusing to be subdued. Raw once more, the old questions hit him with renewed force: alive or dead? Salvation or damnation?
Unsettled, Nathaniel wanted to know the identity of the new arrivals, and appeared only partly placated when Will told him they were Spanish agents, although Meg was convinced. "They are here because they know I have the cipher and they are afraid I will reach their prize before them," Will said. He watched the Unseelie Court select unsettled women and men for dancing partners, and added, "Though how they knew I would be here this evening, I have not yet concluded. But they must not be allowed to follow us, or prevent us reaching the object of our search. Nat, you must come with me."
"You can count on us," Meg said with a confident smile.
"Do not take any risks," Nathaniel said with concern.
"We shall not fail you," Reidheid added, "though our lives be forfeit."
"I said, do not take any risks!" Nathaniel stressed. He touched Meg's hand briefly before Will tugged him away.
"She has a brave heart, Nat. Trust her," Will whispered as they slipped across the room. Nathaniel cast one backwards glance as Meg drew attention to herself by causing a commotion with one of the attendants. At the door a guard barred their way, but James caught his eye and nodded. The king exchanged a brief, curious glance with Will before accepting that whatever was planned was in his best interests. He turned away as Will and Nathaniel darted through the door.
"I am in debt to the king," Will said as they moved through a chamber where servants bustled into a long corridor with views across the darkening hunting grounds at the rear of the palace. The sky was a deep blue, turning rapidly to black, the trees stark silhouettes, the moon and the stars gleaming. "He is a good man, burdened by the demands of his office." Will realised he felt a strong affinity for the young monarch.
All the activity in the palace was centred on the State Rooms, and the rest of the corridors and chambers through which they passed were still and silent. Returning to the quadrangle, they found a door on the south side that led to a short corridor with another door leading directly into the abbey.
Inside it was cool and dark, the glow from the candles flaring up the walls to the vast wooden beams supporting the roof and drawing sparkles of brilliant colours from the stained-glass windows. The empty abbey was filled with the pungent aroma of incense. Their footsteps echoed on the stone flags as they made their way into the nave and looked up to the transept and the choir where the shadows gathered.
"Where do we begin?" Even though Nathaniel whispered, his voice carried far amid the perfect acoustics of the interior. He shivered and glanced towards the door to see if he had drawn any attention.
"Search the interior for any sign of a martyr," Will said. "A statue. A painting. An icon. An image hidden in the stained glass. A carving in the wood. It is here somewhere."
Nathaniel moved off to begin his search at the west end near the tower. Will approached the transept. The original design of the abbey overseen by King David had been altered here. During an attack by the English army forty years earlier, the eastern part of the abbey church was destroyed where it enclosed the royal tombs of James V, Magdalen, his first queen, and his infant sons by his second marriage to Mary of Guise. Will studied the rebuilt section and wondered if his search was futile. Perhaps a statue of the martyr had not been replaced during the restructuring, or some other clue to the location was missing.
As he continued to scour the abbey, he began to fear he was correct for there was no sign of a martyr anywhere. Despondently, he returned to the nave where Nathaniel paced back and forth, scanning the interior.
"Anything?" he asked.
Nathaniel shook his head. "Perhaps we look in the wrong place."