Except for Ava.
She could feel it. Something dark shadowed her. It lurked in the trees.
“I dream of dark things, Orsala.” Her voice was barely over a whisper. “Even when Malachi is there, there’s a darkness, too.”
The old woman put a hand on her arm as she sat next to Ava at the table. “That’s normal, daughter. I dreamed of my mate after I lost him, too. It’s normal that your dreams of him would be troubling. He was taken from you in the most violent way. Don’t hide from that. Your soul must grieve.”
“They’re not always dark.”
“Good.”
“But there’s something…”
“What?” The kettle began to whistle, and Orsala rose. “What is it?”
“I feel like it comes from me. Or it’s tied to me, but separate. I don’t want it… but it’s part of me. Like when I didn’t let go of Bruno. It wasn’t that I couldn’t. Part of me didn’t want to. I liked the power.”
Ava could smell the aroma of tea rising from the cheery brown pot Orsala always used. It did nothing to cheer her.
“You’re angry,” the old woman said.
“At myself, yes.”
Orsala finally sat again, putting the tea and two cups in front of her, closing the book of spells they’d been studying.
“Ava, you spent much of your life in the human world, not realizing who or what you were. For years, they told you that your mind was wrong. That could easily have created the shadows I see within you. Yes, there is darkness. But none of us are completely dark or light. We are, none of us, perfect beings. Not even the angels are perfect. We fail and fall like the humans. We have rage. Greed. Violence against each other. But we seek the light. That is what makes us different from the Fallen.” Her lip curled. “From their Grigori spawn. Our souls seek the light.”
Her mouth turned up at the corner. “You don’t feel the darkness in me?”
Orsala hesitated. “I do.”
“I do, too.”
“But I see far more light than dark. Yes, your magic has… a shadow. I’ve seen it just as you have. But I truly believe the longer you are with us, the longer you know who you are and what you are meant to be, that shadow will lessen. It will never overpower you.”
“Are you sure of that?”
“Are you?”
“No.”
“Be sure, Ava.” Her voice dropped. “Summon the will that kept you sane among the humans and fight it. If you aren’t sure of yourself, then the darkness could win.”
“And the shadow I’m feeling? The one surrounding me?”
Orsala shrugged. “We’ll watch. But Sarihöfn is protected, Ava. Very protected. We know Volund is after you, but it is doubtful even one of the Fallen could find you here with all the shields in place.”
“Okay.” She took a deep breath and let it out. “Okay.”
“Shall we study more?”
“Yes.”
Because if there was anything she could learn that might help hold back the darkness, then Ava needed it.
“Do not fear the darkness.”
She slept, but he wasn’t there. She stood at the edge of the forest, looking out. There was nothing there but blackness, and the birds did not sing.
“You shouldn’t have left.”
The voice came from behind her. She turned and saw the soft-spoken man in glasses.
“Who are you?”
“You shouldn’t have left. He’s coming now. His children found you, so he can, too.” The man sighed. “Blood. It’s very difficult to stop blood magic.”
“Where is he?”
“That, I cannot tell you. Perhaps he does not sleep.”
She blinked and the image of the man wavered.
“Take off your mask,” she said.
He smiled. “You are bold in dreams. I do not find offense in this.”
“Then take off your mask.”
“Are you sure you want to see me as I am?” He must have read the uncertainty in her eyes. “I will show you a shadow of my face in this world, but that is all.”
The man grew. Expanded. His soft face shimmered away and a harder one took its place. A beautiful face. Unearthly. His hair was black and shining as a raven’s wing. His eyes were a glittering amber gold. Smooth tan skin was marked by raised letters she recognized. They were like her mate’s, but more. This being’s magic was not written on him, it was part of him. She knew he would not hurt her. He was frightening, but she felt no fear.
“You’re beautiful.”
“You are not the first to say so.”
“Your spells…” She stepped forward and put a hand on his arm. The skin was warm under her fingertips. The raised letters glimmered with a faint, silver sheen.
“They are not spells.”
“What are they?”
“Magic that is part of me.”
“Like my magic is part of me?”
“No. They are more.”
“I don’t understand.”
“You’re not meant to, child. It is a thing beyond your ken.”
She looked around the forest. The darkness crept closer. Around the glowing being, it was held back, but it did not seem afraid of him any more than she was.
“Why does it find me here?”
“He finds you because he can. Just as I can.”
She looked up into his glowing face. “Will it hurt me?”
He cocked his head. “I do not know his purpose. Only that he would thwart mine.”
“And what is your purpose?”
He smiled. “That is not for you to know yet. I gave you my vision once. I will give you others when you need them.”
“When will I need them?”
He shook his head. “Not now.”
“Why not?”
“Wake up, or the darkness will find you.”
She frowned. “I don’t want to leave yet. You don’t answer my questions.”
His smile turned sad. He lifted his hand to her cheek and trailed a warm finger there. “I had hoped… You look nothing like your mother. But your voice reminds me of her.”
She felt tears on her cheek, but he brushed them away. “I don’t understand you.”
He vanished from her sight, but his whisper came from the trees around her.
“Wake, Ava…”
She woke, and the tears were cold on her cheeks. There was a commotion outside the cottage. She could hear shouting and car engines roaring to life.
Ava bolted up in bed, throwing on her clothes and racing from the bedroom. Damien burst through the door a moment later.
“Two Grigori. Both dead. But they found us, Ava.” His cold voice turned Ava’s stomach. “They found Sarihöfn.”
“This is my fault,” she whispered at the kitchen table, listening to Sari plan the evacuation of the entire community. Orsala sat on one side. Damien sat on the other. Irina bustled around, listening for instructions and then setting about tasks as Sari gave them.
“No.” Damien gripped her hand. “You did nothing wrong. Mala is sure you were not tailed from Bergen. This is from some other crack in our defenses. It was… surprising. But we had become too complacent. It was probably inevitable after so much time. There have been so many who have used Sarihöfn as a refuge over the years. No magic is impenetrable. And with the Grigori becoming more aggressive, we should not be surprised.”
Far from chaos, a quiet urgency lay over the house. There was no shouting or panic. The Grigori soldiers the guards had apprehended in the woods had been killed, but plans were underway to empty the haven. If there were two, there would be others. Listening to Sari give instructions to Mala and Astrid, Bruno and Karen, she realized that this had always been planned. As secure as Sarihöfn was, the Irin were a people constantly at war. No place was truly safe.
And Ava realized it would always be this way.