By the pool she sat on a lounger and rubbed sun-cream on her limbs and torso. Her hands were as claw-like (but supple), her muscles as stringy (but strong), her skin as mottled (but taut) as they had all been for forty years.
On her left, behind the clinic’s main buildings, the ground rose as a farmed foothill to a high, barren cliff. Across the kilometre or so of valley bottom, it faced a lower cliff, which sprouted scrub and trees. Overhead, the sky was deep blue. Paragliders, their canopies shaped like brighdy coloured nail-parings, drifted by, from a higher range far behind the high cliff, to the beach a mile or so distant. Cicadas whirred like small electrical devices. The rest of the people here seemed to be either young, getting their fix, or old like her, getting their rewind.
For two days, it was great. The sun rose above the cliff on the left, set behind the cliff on the right, regular as clockwork. In the evenings the barren cliffs looked red and martian, and the clinic like a Moon colony, a little artificial environment over which the gravity-defying paragliders swooped. Myra spent her days in sunshine and swimming and not dying. It was better than heaven. She rolled over and let the sun bake her back.
Big bare feet stopped in front of her face, in a spreading stain of water on the concrete tiles. Her gaze tracked up hairy brown legs, wet stretched trunks, hairy brown chest, to a face. Beaky nose, bright brown eyes, dark red-brown strandy hair swept back. The man smiled down at her, nodded unconsciously to himself.
“Myra Godwin?”
“Yeah?” like, what’s it to you?
He squatted. Big, white, irregular teeth.
Jason Nikolaides,” he introduced himself. “I’ve been asked to speak to you.”
She felt slightly befuddled.
You’re Greek?”
He laughed. “Oh no. Not for generations. American.” He bowed slightly. Drops of water fell from his hair. “CIA. We have a few things to talk about.”
Myra rolled over, swung her legs round, sat upright. Fumbled a cigarette. She looked at him, eyes screwed up against the sunlight and the smoke. She sighed.
“It’s been a long time,” she said.
9
The Sickle’s Sang
I looked back at the pub door, shook my head, and then walked along the side of the square and turned a corner to the street where I lodged. I went to my lodging, ran upstairs and dumped my bag, then downstairs and out again.
Without taking thought, I turned right, in the opposite direction from the station and the square. I crossed a pedestrian bridge over the railway and walked along the road out of the town, past the flood-plain of the Carron River and along the southern shore of the Carron Loch. The railway line was on my right, between the road and the sea. The sun was lowering ahead of me, but not yet shining into my eyes. On my left the wooded hills shouldered up. I walked past the hamlet and glen of Attadale, and on beside and beneath the slope of Cam nan Io-mairean.
I’d walked about five kilometres before I stopped, walked over the railway line and sat down on a rock on the shore at Immer. The tide was high and the loch was still; I could hear clear across it the fiddler playing at some revel in the wood at Strome Car-ronach. The Torridonian hills, their rocks older than life, older than the light from the visible stars, loomed black behind the hills of Strome.
In all that walk I’d met no one, and encountered few vehicles. The whole landscape seemed to shut me out, and to remind me that I was a stranger here, excluded from everything but God’s terrible love. A couple of hundred metres away, a man with a scythe was working the long grass of a meadow, as his ancestors had done and his descendants, no doubt, would do. Menial had, on Saturday up in the hills, recited a bit of tinker doggerel that meant more to her than it did to me:
The hammer rang in factory The sickle sang in field The farmer proved refractory The hammer made the sickle yield.
No hammer, no factory had stopped this man’s scythe; its rhythmic swing slashed the grass as though the centuries had never been.
Then the man laid it carefully aside, and jumped to the seat of his tractor, and its methane-engine’s fart scared the birds as he lowered the baler and set about raking up the hay.
I laughed at myself, and stood up, and walked back to the town.
She’d left, the barmaid told me, shortly after our quarrel. I thanked the girl, avoided my mates and headed for the tinker estate.
“She isna here.”
I turned from my futile chapping on Menial’s white door. A small boy in shorts and shirt, both too big for him, regarded me solemnly from the path. I stepped over.
“Do you know where she went?”
He was very clean, as far as I could see in the low sunlight, except for a red and evidently sticky stain on his chin, furred with fluff. I resisted the urge to spit on my finger and wipe it.
“I canna say,” he told me, with artless guile.
“Well, can you take me to somebody who can?”
As he shook his head I became aware of the crunching of gravel around me and realised that I need not look far. A dozen tinkers, young and old, male and female, seemed to drift in from nowhere. They gathered in a loose semi-circle around me, none closer than three metres away. Some of their faces Fd seen on my previous visits to the camp; others were altogether strangers to me. All of them were dressed in that mixture of simplicity and artifice which I was beginning to recognise as a peculiarity of tinker garb; it was as though the rest of us wore the cast-off finery of some reduced aristocracy, while the tinkers alone cut their own elegant cloth.
Tm looking for Menial,” I said, boldly enough; in the silence my voice sounded as startling and thin as a curlew’s in a field.
“Aye, we know that,” said a young man. “But you’ll not find her here.”
“And I know that,” I retorted. “So where can I find her?”
He shrugged. Somebody tittered. Finally, and as though with sympathy, an older man added, “That’s for her to say. If she disna want you to find her, it’s no for us to help you do it. If she does, you’ll find her soon enough.”
“So you do know where she is?” I sounded, even to myself, pathetically hopeful. The only response was more shrugs and a giggle.
“There’s someone else I want to see,” I said. “Fergal.”
“Oh,” said the older man, with a pretence at puzzlement, “there are a lot of men by that name. You wouldn’t happen to know his surname, would you?”
You know damn well who I mean,” I said. “Let him know I want to see him.”
Everyone took a step closer. The semi-circle became a close-packed horseshoe of people who began to move so that the open end was in the direction of the road. I had never thought of the tinkers as intimidating to one of the settled folk—more usually it’s the other way round—but I felt intimidated at that moment, possibly because of their greater numbers. I decided to give way with as good a grace as I could, rather than make them make good on the implied—or perhaps imagined—threat. So I kept my distance as they continued to move forward.
“Ah, you’d best be off,” said the young man.
“I reckon so,” I said. “Good night to you all.”
I turned on my heel and stalked off with as much dignity as I could muster. A stone bounced on the paved road as I reached it, but I didn’t look back, or quicken my pace. Inwardly I was boiling with shame at having been, twice in one evening, faced down by tinkers. I was determined, however, that no one among my friends and acquaintances should know about this—not because of the embarrassment to myself, but because they might feel obliged to engage in some collective counter-intimidation of their own.