“Signy,” he says. “Are you all right?”
I keep silent, afraid of what I’ll do.
Ned frowns. “Signy.” He waves away the cat wights, nudges them off with his boots. They swarm away from him and he walks to me, trailing trolls in his wake.
“I saw her kill you. I saw her eat you.” I fling his sword onto the ground. It hits concrete with an ugly clang.
Ned brings a finger to his lips. “Hunters are everywhere. Would you bring the city down on us? Have them all massacred, their packs and families?”
“They massacred mine! Why are they even here?”
Ned nods. “Witnesses. Nothing like this has happened in hundreds of years.”
“Nothing like what?”
He doesn’t respond except to twist his lips.
The trolls slink back into the shadows, curling into stone vases and pressing against curved roofs.
I stamp my boot. “Tell me, curse it. Is she in here, too? Where is she?”
Instead of answering, Ned crosses the distance between us, grabbing me up in his arms.
My eyes shut themselves and I clutch him, holding tight around his neck, my cheek against his rough jaw, sucking in huge breaths of him and the scent of my own blood. He hugs me, his fingers digging into my sides as if he’ll hook them through my ribs. His breath is cool on my ear, and he presses his lips to my temple, to my cheek.
Gasping, I shove back but seize his face. The moonlight does little to illuminate him or mask the strain in the corners of his mouth. I put my thumbs under his eyes and stare into them, into the gray-glass irises.
Truth.
“I don’t know if I can trust you, Ned,” I say in a voice so low it doesn’t sound like my own.
His eyes drift closed. “Finally.”
Confusion settles me somewhat. My natural state when I’m with him. It convinces me he’s real, at least, and I slide my hands down from his face. “What happened? Tell me how you’re here, alive?”
“Not here,” he says, picking his sword up off the ground. “Somewhere we can talk. Besides, I need a drink.”
We walk through the dark streets of Port Orleans. Ned moves in his off-kilter way, profile straight and sharp but missing the usual slight sneer from the corner of his mouth. He looks tired.
He glances at me, too, and I catch the tentative nature of it. Whatever happened to him has changed him, too. My Ned Unferth was never tentative about anything.
Or, I think as force myself to look away, I never knew him at all.
We find a dirty pub in the corner of a town house that blazes with neon beer signs. Ned stomps to the bar and gets us pints that slosh thickly over the rims. I use a fistful of napkins to mop off the tall round table I find, but mostly the paper sticks, so I unfold and spread them out like a tablecloth. Ned smiles tightly at my fastidiousness, clunking the glasses down.
Lazy jazz plays off a jukebox, harsh with static, and most of the other patrons hunker over their own drinks or bet at the pool table in the rear. We’re the only blond, pale-faced people here, which is surprisingly uncomfortable for me. It makes me think of Soren, and with a sharp longing, I wish he was here for a buffer.
Ned drinks a fourth of his pint in the first go, then curls his fingers around the glass. “I can’t tell you everything,” he begins.
I sip surprisingly smooth beer and wait.
“But not because I don’t want to. I truly cannot.”
I flick my fingers but refuse to tell him it’s all right. Let me be the recalcitrant one now.
He takes another drink. “I wasn’t dead. I woke up after it all, in a stone dugout, hidden under leaves. She buried me; she hid me.”
“Why? I saw your sweater—I thought they were eating your bones, Ned.”
“She knew better than to kill me. She knew what I was.”
“And what was that?” I manage.
“Her ally.”
“Her ally! She killed people. Your friends. My family! Rome and Jesca are dead.”
His eyelids don’t even flicker. “I know. I always knew.”
“Always knew what, exactly?”
“That when the sun was lost, the trolls would come.”
I grip my hands together in my lap. “That’s what you were afraid of. When I told you Baldur was missing, that’s what it meant. The trolls were coming.”
“Yes.”
I shove away from the table. “Odd-eye.” My boots hit the ground. Like I’ll attack him, or run as far away as I can get.
“Signy.” He catches my elbow. “Signy, wait please.” He pulls my arm against his chest and I avert my face, unwilling to look at him.
“You could have warned them,” I say.
His fingers tighten and I notice the bartender eyeing us. It would serve Ned right for me to make a scene, hand him over. But probably he’d hurt somebody. I shake my head a little and pull myself free of his grip.
“I wanted to, Signy, but I couldn’t. I wasn’t allowed.”
The urgency in his tone makes me listen. But I glare. “You weren’t allowed. You can’t tell me! Why not? Who? Who forbids it? Freya? It was the goddess, wasn’t it? She gave you the prophecy about the sun being lost. She told you to find me.”
“I … can’t … say.” But he doesn’t avoid my eyes, staring hard as if he wants me to know I’m right.
“Skit, Ned, then why are you even talking?” I cry, flinging my arms out. “Why did you bring me here if you were just going to tell me rag-all?”
He glances up at the ceiling helplessly, revealing the shiny, nearly invisible scar that hugs his neck under his chin. Like a noose. When his eyes lower back to mine, truth throbs in the rainy irises, and I taste an edge of laughter like bitter, bitter rage. I say, “Ask the right question and you’ll answer? Is that it, Truth-Teller?”
“Always,” he sighs.
I’m tired of being the one responsible for riddling out his truth. Wearily I say, “The Alfather didn’t send you to me.”
He says, “He’s a student of history, not the future.”
“Stop beating into the wind, Ned.”
“I’m trying to be direct.”
“Well, you suck at it.”
“And you’ve gotten better,” he snaps, then drains the last of his beer.
I grind my jaw. “Tell me where the troll mother is.”
“Here.”
“Where here? Tell me.”
“I don’t know where, exactly. But I … I do know she’s looking for you. Waiting for you to make a move where she can get to you. You must be careful, though. She wants to kill you, Signy.” He says it like it will be a surprise. “As much as you want her.”
I shrug as flippantly as I can. “Tell me things I don’t know, Ned Unferth.”
He’s quiet, lips pinched.
“Why does she want to kill me? What have I done to her? Is she the first troll mother, and her heart is the first heart? Did Freya set her on me? Are you all in league? What is it they want?” Every question comes faster, a deluge I barely control.
Nothing.
“Tell me why you came to find me last year. Tell me why you set me onto her trail, why you told me the answer was a troll’s stone heart.”
His hands tighten around the glass of beer. Ringless, his fingers seem longer but vulnerable. I threw one of those rings into the foliage in that moonlit garden three nights ago.
I say, “Tell me or never speak to me again.”
Now his mouth twists into a wry, bitter smile.
Frustration makes me pound my fist on the table, shaking my pint. Suddenly I’m glad for this slice across my collarbone, itching with dry blood and painful when my hoodie scrapes against it. Not quite over my heart like the tiny cut I put there myself, but near enough to be an unavoidable reminder that I already know what Ned the Spiritless will do to me.