On Monday morning, Kacy called the number on Dinaburg’s business card. The phone was answered by a secretary with a haughty tone, who pecked at Kacy with questions (Was she a client? No? Had she been referred to Mr. Dinaburg?) before putting her through.
“I have an idea,” Kacy told him. “I could use your water. You could ship it to me.”
“I appreciate the offer, Kacy,” he said. “I do. But it’s a done deal. Signatures have been signed. Cash has been paid. I’m sorry.”
After hanging up, Kacy flung open her desk drawer and took out a pack of Winstons that Marisol had left the last time she’d cleaned. She shook out a cigarette and rolled it in her fingers. She’d quit smoking three years before, so her taste buds could be in top shape. She considered lighting up, could almost feel the smoke caressing her lungs, but she tucked the cigarette back into the pack. She wasn’t about to let a man like Dinaburg-as-in-dynamo drive her back to a habit she’d worked so hard to break.
April appeared in the family kitchen and began pawing through the fridge. Her hair was limp and greasy, and a patch of scalp glared out at Kacy, pink and naked in a morning sunbeam. Kacy considered throwing the pack of cigarettes at her daughter. “Here,” she imagined saying, “try being self-destructive like a normal person.” But she didn’t throw the cigarettes, and she didn’t say anything — proof, maybe, that she was not the worst mother in the world, after all.
A week later, Kacy called Dinaburg again. She reached the same secretary, who sniffed and put her on hold. After a few minutes with Neil Diamond crooning tinnily over the line, Dinaburg picked up. “I’m sorry to bother you, Joel,” Kacy said, “but could you tell me where you’re getting the cake? I need to know my competition.”
“Sure,” he said, as if nothing were wrong, as if he’d never raised her hopes and then crapped all over them. “We’re getting it from Rona Silverman. You’ve heard of her, right? She’s famous. A New York institution.”
“Rona Silverman,” Kacy repeated. The name was bitter on her tongue.
She drove to the library and found a profile on Rona Silverman in a magazine called Bridal Elegance. The full-page photo showed a birdlike, maroon-haired old woman inspecting a cake through gold pince-nez, surrounded by three shiny-toothed young men in starched chef’s coats. The article gushed about Silverman’s attention to detail, claiming that she spent afternoons picking flowers and bringing them to her kitchens for her assistants to study and re-create in painstakingly detailed gum-paste miniatures, which were then put in tiny boxes and filed away in refrigerators. Kacy quietly tore the article out of the magazine, folded it, and tucked it in her purse. Gum-paste flowers! A cheap gimmick. Dinaburg ought to know better.
On the way home, she stopped at a red light on Guadalupe, the sky blackening behind her as an early-summer storm rushed in toward downtown. She was watching a cluster of spike-haired kids slouch around a storefront when she saw April walking past them on the sidewalk. Yes, it was her daughter: the thick legs, the slump-shouldered trudge, a newish bald patch on the back of her head. And no hat. Good Lord. Kacy was about to honk the horn and call to her, but she stopped herself when Skillet — wearing a ridiculous pair of orange-plaid bell-bottoms — emerged from a café and flagged April down. They walked together, talking, and Skillet gave no sign that he noticed how mangy she looked. For once, Kacy found herself thankful that men refuse to see what they don’t want to see.
The light turned green and Kacy drove, not wanting to interrupt them. After she’d gone a few blocks, though, thunder cracked and rain poured from the sky, beating insane drumrolls on the car and sheeting over the windshield. She turned off Guadalupe and doubled back to find her daughter, to get her home safe and dry. She made three circuits, rolling slowly along as she watched for April and Skillet through the passenger-side window, ignoring the honks behind her. But the two kids were gone, as if they’d melted away like spun sugar in the downpour.
One night, Kacy dreamed about Dinaburg. They were together in her kitchen, cooking by candlelight. A bottle of champagne appeared in his hands, he popped it open, and they each drank a glass. They used the rest of the bottle to make a champagne reduction. Dinaburg held her by the hips as she stirred the hot mixture on the stove. Then, suddenly, she was supine on the butcher-block island in the middle of the kitchen, and he was frosting her naked body with champagne buttercream. He started at her feet and worked his way up, over her legs and hips and breasts, and then covered her entire face, and then all she could see was a smooth sheet of yellow-white. When she felt him bite off her big toe and understood that she was made of cake, she found she didn’t mind being eaten, not really. Not until she felt bites on both her feet at the same time and heard an old woman hack out a snicker. Then she knew Rona Silverman was there with him, in Kacy’s own kitchen, and they were laughing together as they ate her up. She awoke in the bed alone.
Roger was in the kitchen, making coffee. The circles under his eyes were even darker than usual. “You’re not going to have any teeth left,” he told her. “You sounded like a goddamn blender last night.” He snapped the lid onto his plastic travel mug and walked out the door with his shirt poking through his open zipper. She let him go.
Kacy returned home from a Texas Businesswomen’s Club luncheon hosted by the governor’s wife — for which she’d baked a raspberry gâteau with a sweet mascarpone icing that had seventy-five female executives moaning in caloric ecstasy (and made with a splash of good old Austin municipal water, thank you very much) — and she found a message on her business line from Dinaburg. “Calling to talk cake with you,” he said. He left his home number. She immediately memorized it.
Her mind raced happily with the possible reasons his deal with Rona Silverman had fallen through. Had he come to his senses, remembered the sweet, smooth glide of the Four Chocolate Delight across his tongue? Or maybe Rona Silverman had died. Kacy imagined a photo of the old crone in her stupid pince-nez on the New York Times obituary page.
“Hello, Joel,” she said when he picked up. “It’s Kacy.”
“Such a quick response,” he said. “Ever the professional. How are you?”
She told him about the governor’s mansion and about the gâteau. She told him how busy she’d been lately, spending ten hours a day in the kitchen just to fill orders and even more time experimenting with crème fraîche infusions and searching for even better-tasting butters and flours and vanillas and rums. She was, she said, doing the best work of her life. She stopped herself, realizing she should let him talk. She wanted to sound casual. She asked him how his azaleas were.
“Doing fine,” he said. “The neighbor’s dog dropped dead. The guy thinks I poisoned it, which, for the record, I didn’t. But I called about business.”
“I can do the wedding,” Kacy said. “I’ve kept the date open, just in case.”
“No, no, no, Kacy. Like I told you, we’re already committed.”
She was confused. She would have said something, but she was afraid she’d cry.
“I’ve had my own kitchen designed,” he said. “I based it on yours. I’d like to fax you the plans. Could you take a look and tell me what you think?”
“Sure,” she lied. “Happy to.”
When the fax came in, Kacy studied the plans, making comments on the paper with a thick black felt-tip. She kept her notes brief. MAKE ISLAND WIDER. WHERE IS HOBART? LOCATION OF SINKS=DUMB. She faxed the plans back to him an hour later, then opened the best bottle of scotch in the house and toasted her brand-new vow never to call him again.