She shook off the cold with a shiver, stamped her feet for warmth, and said, “That, and to clean up a little. How’s Jacko?”
“Never better! And guess what? I ‘followed my bliss.’ Like Nikki said.”
“She did?”
“Yeah. We had a talk—just before… what happened. And I took the part.”
“What part?”
“In the Scorsese movie. I’m ‘Doorman #2—Ramon Castro de Vega.’ How ‘bout that?”
“Wow!”
“So now, I’m thinking: maybe I’ll do some community theater, y’know?”
“Why not?”
“Anyway… the mail’s on the kitchen counter in the apartment. I put it there for you. You need the key?”
“No,” Adrienne told him. “I’ve got one.”
Ramon guided her to the elevator, pressed the button, and touched the brim of his hat. “I’ll tell Jacko you were askin’ after him!”
“I’d like that,” she said.
And then she was upstairs, moving toward her sister’s apartment, thinking, I have to do something about her ashes. I have to—
As she entered the apartment, she was hit by a gust of grief that was as strong as it was unexpected. Maybe it was all the stress she’d been under, or maybe it was the apartment, with its dead plants and listless air. Whatever the source, the sadness hit her like a truck. Tears shot into her eyes for the second time that morning. Walking out to the balcony, she stood in the freezing cold and wept for Nikki, the high-rises across the river fracturing behind her sadness.
After a few minutes, she couldn’t stand the cold any longer. Returning inside, she got down to business. The apartment was depressing; its untidiness seemed in some way disrespectful to Nikki. She was going to have to clean this up some day and she thought it might make her feel better to do it now. The refrigerator was a mess, reeking of sour milk and some fishy remains in Chinese take-out cartons. There were orange peels with puckered skins, and yogurt containers bristling with a sort of fur. She swept it all into a green garbage bag, and carried it out to the trash compactor in the hall. Then she went from room to room with a spray bottle of Fantastik and a roll of paper towels, wiping the dust from tables and counters. That done, she gritted her teeth and went into the bathroom—which the police had left in a mess. Fingerprint powder was everywhere because, as the police had explained, until her sister’s death was ruled a suicide, the crime scene had to be treated as if a murder had occurred.
The plants on the balcony were dead but Adrienne didn’t have the energy to drag them to the trash room. So she did the next best thing, compacting them into a corner of the terrace, where they looked neat, at least.
Which left the gun. She’d been thinking a lot about the gun. If Nikki herself had bought it, where and when? Maybe it could be traced. There must be a serial number or something. Crossing the room to her sister’s closet, she opened the door and reached inside for the lime-green carrying case.
But it wasn’t there.
At first she thought she’d forgotten where it had been. Lifting the bed skirt on her sister’s bed she looked on the floor and saw… a tangle of dust bunnies and a couple of paperbacks. Getting back to her feet, she went into the hall and looked through the closet there, then into the living room and under the couches, searching everywhere. But it was gone. It was big and green and you couldn’t miss it… and now it was gone.
Or what was more to the point: it was stolen. As much as she hated the idea of dealing with the gun, the notion that someone had come into Nikki’s apartment and taken it… that gave her the creeps.
It was like what happened in Duran’s apartment, when Bonilla’s body disappeared.
It made everything seem precarious and insubstantial, a kind of existential first draft subject to constant, but invisible amendment. It made her queasy to think about it, as if her mind—her world—was a staging area for someone else’s possibilities.
Ramon reminded her about the mail (which in fact, she’d left upstairs), and then, when she came back down, waved her on her way. She thought about going to her own apartment, if only to pick up Nikki’s ashes, but decided it was just too dangerous. In the end, she got back to Bethany just after six.
Duran was in a good mood. She told him about cleaning Nikki’s apartment and the rifle’s disappearance, but not about her meeting with Slough. She sent him to the supermarket for a prepackaged salad and some Paul Newman dressing. They cooked the steaks out back on a Weber Grill, and opened the bottle of Glass Mountain Cabernet that he’d bought earlier in the day.
He was in an expansive mood, looking forward to the answers that the operation must certainly provide. And he’d had an insight: for as long as he could remember, he’d felt uncomfortable whenever he left his apartment. He told her about the panic attacks that he’d suffered, and the agoraphobia he sometimes felt. “It’s gone, now,” he said. “It hasn’t been there for days—not since we went to the Comfort Inn.”
“And what do you think that’s all about?” she asked.
He shook his head. “I don’t know. But you saw all that stuff in the apartment next door, right?”
She nodded.
“Well,” he asked, “what if that was having… I don’t know… some kind of effect on me?”
She looked puzzled. “What do you mean?”
He shrugged. “I’m not sure. I just know that I feel a lot different. Better. More myself.”
She nodded thoughtfully, but couldn’t resist: “And that would be… ?”
Duran smiled. “Whomever.”
She was in bed when she heard it, and it was amazing that she did. If the sea had not been so calm and flat, the sound of the surf would have masked it. But the night was breathless, the sea inert, and she was restless and half-awake, her mind at the races.
The sound that woke her—a faint but distinct metallic squeak—seemed to rise through the floorboards. And for some reason, it alarmed her. Someone’s under the bed, she thought. But, no, that was crazy. Lying there in the dark, unmoving, yet straining to hear, she realized that the sound had come from farther away. Someone’s in the basement.
Then a long time passed—a minute or two—when nothing could be heard. She’d almost decided that she was imagining things when, suddenly, she realized that someone was standing outside her bedroom door. How she knew this, she couldn’t have said. There wasn’t any sound. There was nothing with the light. It was just… a fact.
And then the door was opening. She kept her eyes closed, but she could feel the other person watching her. Duran? Had to be. And yet, it didn’t feel like Duran. She’d just had dinner with him, and whatever else you might say about the guy, this wasn’t his style at all. It was someone else. But who?
What seemed like a long time passed—though she had no way of knowing if it was one minute or five. She thought she heard another sound—not from the door, but from the basement again. Was she hallucinating? Maybe. Maybe not. Whatever… It was driving her crazy to stay so still. And yet… it was her only advantage—the secret that she was awake.
After a while, she slotted her eyes in a glance, fluttering her lashes in a semblance of REM sleep. The look revealed a slash of light where the door met the jamb, and a backlit shoulder. Then the door eased shut with a whispered snickkk and the light was gone.
And that was it. She could hear the sea, the listless thudding of the surf. She could even hear the distant thrum of traffic from the A-1, six blocks away. She listened for footsteps in the house, for sounds from the basement, for the sound of the front door closing. But there was nothing, just the white noise of the surf and distant traffic. She might just as easily have been in a sealed vault.
So she lay there, watching the minutes tick by on the luminous dial of her bedside clock. Finally, when six minutes had passed, she heard the faintest crunch of gravel from outside the window. Getting to her feet, she ran to the window, inserted a finger between the flexible slats of the blinds, and peered out toward the sound that she’d heard.