She went back to her room and tossed the lab report on the desk and sat in the chair, looking out the window at the blank wall of a building across the alley from her hotel. She wasn’t sure now how they were going to communicate with Cameron or Goodman, but she felt certain the two of them were still watching her, somehow. Perhaps she would have to wait now until one of them made contact, but when they did, she had to be sure she could control the flow of information.
She hadn’t wanted to risk speaking to Martha the day before, but now she felt she owed her a call, at least to smooth things over as much as she could before she returned home. She reached for the phone, but her hand froze in the air over it. A little uniformed man was bent over backwards on the receiver, his head lolling off his shoulders.
She wasn’t half out of the chair when she heard a slamming noise and Goodman burst from the closet beside the desk and drove her sideways to the floor. She heard herself shout and the pain burst in an electric shower down both her legs as she struggled beneath him, trying to push backwards toward the wall where she’d have some leverage. But he was so much larger than she was and he pulled her back toward the centre of the room, the carpet scraping at her clothes and burning her flesh. She felt him slide his hand down her flank to her holster and she twisted and drove an elbow into his face. He grunted in pain and he fell away, but she saw a flash of black metal pass over her head and she knew he had the gun. He stood and spat a ribbon of blood out of the side of his mouth. “Get up,” he said, gesturing with the barrel.
She stood with difficulty, the familiar feeling of numbness spreading down her backside. Her legs wouldn’t take her weight – whether due to injury or fear, she didn’t know – and she slumped on the floor against the foot of the bed.
“What did you say to her?” he asked.
“Who?”
“Joanne.”
“We said a lot of things to each other.” She leaned against the boxspring, trying to breathe. “I told her the truth about you. How you’d gone rogue well before she met you. It all made sense to her.”
“Sure it did.”
“Oh, and I complimented her on her necklace. You know, the one you give to all your victims?” His eyes were wild. The gun was shaking in his hand. Hazel said quietly, “She didn’t like you paying a visit to Martha, did she? A little too close to home for her, eh? Now she wants out.”
“Don’t kid yourself,” he said. “She knows there’s no out except for you doing what we chose you to do. What should have been done in the first place.”
She sneered a laugh. “There’s no should have, Goodman. There’s just what happened. There’s just a broken woman, you, and all the people you failed to protect, all of them still out there shooting themselves full of garbage and filling their crack pipes, if they’re not already dead.” She shifted a little and felt the sensation in her legs returning. “So where is she? Joanne? Did she walk away?”
“She’s exactly where she wants to be. Back with Eldwin, waiting to see how this all turns out.”
“You talked her into it again, huh?”
He took a step toward her with the gun raised and she pressed herself against the edge of the bed, her breath catching in her chest. “How hard would they come for me if I blew your brains out right now? What’s the chance you’d ever be a cold case, Detective Inspector?”
“I think they’d figure out pretty quick I hadn’t killed myself,” she said.
“They’d never rest. Never,” he said. “But why? Why you and not her? Because you’re inside the machine and she wasn’t? You ever thought how lucky you are that your death would actually move people to action?”
“The right kind of action. Due process. A conclusion based on the facts. I wouldn’t expect anything more.”
“That’s because you’re not prepared to see past the surface. I was wrong about you.”
“You’ve been wrong about everything. For one thing, Eldwin was at home the night she died.” He was closer now and she wondered if she could get the upper hand. But she’d have to push herself up from the bed and be on top of him before he could shoot her and she was pretty sure he’d shoot her.
“Eldwin’s alibi is bullshit,” he said.
“So – what? He killed her and the wife covered for him?”
“There’s a thought.”
“Have you ever met Claire Eldwin? Take my word for it: she’d be thrilled to see him in an orange jumpsuit.”
He ignored her. “Joanne gave you the sweater. Did you keep your word?”
“The lab report’s on the desk. You can see for yourself.” He drew back and, keeping one eye on her, retrieved Toles’s fax and flipped through the three pages. Hazel carefully drew herself up against the end of the bed and sat on the edge. “I found the same thing you did. Except I can see it for what it is. It’s from a dock, where she was pulled up.”
“She was pulled out onto the grass.”
“How can you be sure?”
He threw the pages back onto the desk and leapt forward, shoving his face in hers. She smelled the sour taint of his mouth. “Are you fucking stupid? I caught the case, I wrote the report – my name is on it – so what do you think? I saw it on the news? She washed up at the bottom of someone’s garden. We pulled her onto the grass. No wood involved.” He shook his head in disbelief. “Is that what you’re hanging your case on?”
The hell with it, she thought, if I’m dead, I’m dead, and she pushed up from the bed and stepped quickly away from him. He trained the gun on her chest. She had pain, but the adrenaline was covering it. “You want to know what I’m hanging my case on?”
“You wanna get shot?”
“You’re not going to shoot me. You need me.”
“You still believe that?”
“Brenda Cameron was anaesthetized,” she said, ranging in a semi-circle away from him. She knew there was no escape, but she had to keep moving. “Her blood alcohol was.19. That’s more than twice the legal limit. You get to.26 and you might as well jam a swizzle stick in your brain and stir. And there were high levels of lorazepam in her blood, that’s Ativan -”
“I know what the fuck it is -”
“Then you know it increases the effects of alcohol. She was knocked out. She did it to herself.”
He said nothing.
She stood by the window, looking at him, the muscles in her thighs jumping. “Or, on the other hand, maybe someone did it to her. Maybe Colin Eldwin did it. Gave her so many drinks she didn’t know what planet she was on. The problem is that you’ll never know now. Nobody saw them together that night, no one saw anything happen on the lake, nobody heard anything at all. All we have is a stolen rowboat, a body, a griefstruck relative, and you. And that doesn’t add up to anything but a tragedy. Whether you shoot me or not, Brenda Cameron’s going to stay in her grave a suicide.”
He was still sighting her straight down the length of the gun. “Well, if that’s your conclusion, then tell me where you want Eldwin’s body. I’ll do you the courtesy of leaving a trail you can follow this time.”
“You’ve got no reason to kill him.”
“I told Joanne Cameron I’d get her justice. But it doesn’t matter to me what size his cell is. I think you know I’d just as soon put him in a box.”
“And then what? Are you going to bring Brenda Cameron back from the dead? Maybe she’ll sell that necklace you gave her for some rock.”
It was as if he hadn’t heard her – he stood in the middle of the room, staring past her, out at the city. “Maybe,” he said. “Maybe this time, she’ll get out alive.” He pulled his gaze back and he was looking at her, his expression stone cold. “You can’t be everywhere at once,” he said. “But you can tell them what happens to them matters to at least one person. You light the way a little, and maybe it saves a couple of them. Maybe they come in before it’s too late.”
“Or maybe it has nothing to do with you. Maybe you’re one of them, except there’s something else in your pipe.”