In his mind, he was calling out to the snakes, imploring them to let him pass — Snake, snake, coming through snake — but his lips weren’t making the sounds. His open-mouthed panting, the brush clawing his clothes, and the sliding scree under his boots provided ample enough warning to snakes that he was coming. He pushed ahead and in his wake, vapor rose from the bushes he swiped. The distance was further than he had figured. The sun kept at him, and he felt his skin — the back of his neck, his arms, his scalp — cooking. Intense heat was radiating into his brain, reflecting onto him from all the scorched world. Dale thrashed along as if inside a cloud of fire, red pain pulsing behind his eyes, pouring out under his skull, throbbing and fading out in time to be replaced by a fresh set.
It took him half an hour to get close enough to realize there was an easier route — a sluiceway below the cave, only partially clotted with gnarled and twisted trees. When he came back down, that way would be the quicker going. Finally, he stepped clear of the line of brush, toward the jutting volcanic rock face, and he was able to peer up at the cave apprehensively. He was more afraid of the sun at this point than he was of a mountain lion. Still, it unnerved him to be so close to the cave without being able to see inside. The blackness he had spotted from the trail wasn’t just the shadowy interior. The rock itself had been blackened by fires. Dale limped closer and saw that the cave was shallow, only about fifteen feet deep, high ceilinged at the opening, but quickly closing off. Then he saw there were dark crevices extending further back than he wanted to explore. The floor was covered with ash, through which a narrow footpath had been tramped. He stepped into the cave’s mouth, into its blue shadow, and heaved himself down against the side wall, resting the back of his head against the stone. He stared out into the day, letting his exhaustion overtake him. Wondering how deranged his senses were, he thought he smelled something sweet and skunky and familiar before he coughed shallowly and passed out.
The Firing
At eleven p.m., Tuesday before her trip, Hoa met her firing partner, Veena, at Studio Clay Co-op. They passed through the gallery space into the common room, its dusty tables strewn with sets of pottery waiting to be glazed or painted — plates, dishes, vases, sake cups. In the individual studios constellated around the common room, sculptural work was drying under polyurethane sheets. They exited the back of the building and let themselves through the locked gate into the kiln complex, a fenced-in, weedy, open-air acre of trees and sheds and piles of all sorts of things — stacked pine and poplar, mill scraps, salvaged sewer caps. Over the kilns, rudimentary tin roofs were pierced by tall chimneys.
Talking softly, Veena and Hoa walked through an inner courtyard, where six long clay-mixing tanks resembled eerie sarcophagi in the moonlight. They ducked under the tin roof, stepping onto the concrete platform of the kiln. It was a small downdraft style, its door already bricked and mudded. A yellow electrical wire led from a thermocouple inside the kiln to a pyrometer set up on a dirty wooden stool.
Veena squatted and removed two bricks from the wall of the ashpit below the kiln while Hoa went through two cribs of dry-wood edgings. She picked a few of the thinnest ones and slid them across the concrete floor toward Veena, now leaning forward from her stool in front of the kiln. Veena placed the edgings over a bed of scrolled newspaper in the ashpit. She lit the paper, adjusting the wood in the flame. As it began to take, she tossed on strips of bark.
The fire rose from the ashpit through the grate into the firebox, and they continued to add thin wood. After two hours, the pyrometer registered 435 degrees, and Veena blocked the mouth to the ashpit with two bricks, opening the firebox door above the grate. Hoa shoved two-foot lengths of cut pine into the firebox.
Now the lengths of wood fell into a conflagration already roaring upward, and as Hoa added more split pine, it swelled the firebox, was sucked through two draft holes, and shot up along the interior kiln walls. Hoa kept adding edgings as the fire vaulted up to the cat arch where, given nowhere else to go, it turned downward into the center of the kiln, passing over shelves of clay pieces before it was siphoned out through a low exit damper in back.
Five hours after first lighting the crumpled newspaper, Hoa and Veena were moving with an incredible mutuality. Hoa lifted and slid the heavy iron door of the firebox and shoved four more thick staves and four thin ones into the crackling fire. With her mitted hand, she slid the door back and shut it again over the firebox mouth. Veena leaned against the wood stack, and Hoa sat on the stool in front of the kiln. Both turned their gazes toward the pyrometer. They were working smoothly as a team, like dancers alternating the lead, talking about slips and glazes, Veena’s fiancé, common friends. Slapping mosquitoes.
Sliding aside the door again, Veena forced five thick and five thin lengths of wood into the firebox. One jammed, and she batted it with the butt of another until both fell into the flames. The wood crackled prophetically. She slid the heavy firebox door closed; they sat in silence as the temperature rose into the end of the stoke, and then Hoa took the pyrometer read. Pungent smoke circled up under the tin roof, mixing with the incense Hoa had set in clay balls on the floor to discourage mosquitos.
Veena arranged the next round of split wood upright against the side of the kiln.
“What have you been stoking?”
“My last one was five-five,” Hoa answered, penciling notations in the record book.
Then they heard a different kind of crack from inside the kiln, and two more. Simultaneously, both of their bodies went rigid. Three muted clay explosions. Veena’s eyes widened as they caught Hoa’s.
“It isn’t your piece,” Hoa said.
She squeezed herself between the stack of wood and the side of the radiant kiln, reaching down carefully to take a brick from the side hole. On the other side of the kiln, Veena was doing the same.
Then both of them were standing shoulder to shoulder like mourners behind the stoking stool, looking at the pyrometer.
“I think it’s mine,” Hoa said. “The thickness was uneven.”
“It’s too late anyway,” Veena answered.
Mosquitos swarmed them as the air went dead. The kiln blared its outrageous heat. Hoa put on her welder’s goggles, stepping up on the stool to check the peephole.
“Maybe it was the clay wads,” she said.
A Vision
There was an occasional pip from the mud nests glommed to the ceiling of the cave. Then when an adult swallow shot inside from the world of light, there was a choral explosion of cheeping. One of the nestlings fell from its mud cup into the spatter cone of birdlime and broken eggshells on the rock floor. Dale was aware of this as he slept. Sometime later, he was aware of the injured chick stumping toward him, using its wings as props, its disproportionately large, naked head skewed to one side of the scrawny neck, dragging. It came on slower and slower until it stopped, near him, along the wall of the cave.
Dale could see with an incredible vividness through his eyelids. Now in the half-light, he watched a fly tamping around in the opaque eye of the dead chick. The fly was testing the inner edge of the eye with its foreleg, turning and dipping its bristled abdomen into the eyeball’s seam. Then there were more flies on the bird’s corpse. Surveying its head, walking the rim of the eye and beak, fussing and fusing with each other. And the dead bird’s oversized eye was glazed with clots of eggs.