She trotted along beside him, smiling and chattering about all the journalists she'd met. He walked fast, not listening to the details. Where had she got this hard gaiety of hers? The change in her had started like a sudden fever a month after the inquest. In the first few weeks, while she was back and forward from the hospital and he had been busy with tying up the case, there had been a strange lulled silence, a dreamy fermata in which Bliss's name wasn't mentioned. Then suddenly, overnight it seemed, Rebecca began talking. But not to him to the press. To him she still wouldn't mention it directly.
"Are you ever going to talk to me about it?"
"I already have. I gave you a statement, didn't I"
And off she went to bury herself in her mad art. Plaster casts of other women's genitals. It was as absurd as it was dispiriting. Sometimes he believed she could make her heart move in the opposite direction to her body, in a way his unsophisticated heart couldn't.
"You could have been a bit nicer," she said, as they walked around Tesco's. "You don't know who she was she might have been with one of the papers."
"Or she might have been a ghoul."
"You don't understand." She lingered a little behind him, idly looking at the shelves, swinging her arms like a bored schoolgirl. "I have to be on display at these things it's part of the game."
"Well, I'm not up for it." He walked ahead, not waiting for her, trying to get this over and done with, wanting to be out of Brixton as soon as possible, subconsciously scanning the other shoppers, wondering if Rory Peach's abductor might walk past him. He half expected someone to come up to him, point a finger, and say, "Why aren't you looking for him? What do you think you're doing, hanging around in the pasta section of Tesco's when Rory's still missing?" He threw some rice into the basket and continued up the aisle, Rebecca trailing behind. "I'm not up for another night of watching you talk to every dickhead with a mike and a pen."
"Ooooo-wooh," she trilled behind him. "Where's this coming from?"
He didn't answer. He walked a bit faster.
"Is it coming from the case we're working on?" she whispered, closing on him. "Does it all remind us of something we'd rather forget? Is that what the mood is?"
"Shall we change the subject?"
"Oh, Jack! I was joking." She got ahead of him, stopped to pull a bottle of red wine off the shelf and turned to him. "You should learn to lighten up a bit. You take everything so seriously."
"I mean it, Becky. Don't push it." He walked past her. "Unless you're after something, unless you really want to talk, really want to take the gloves off and I don't think you do."
"Oooh!" She caught up and grinned up at him. "I wonder what you're talking about."
"It's not funny."
"I think I can decide what's funny and what isn't. After all' She suddenly leaned back and lobbed the bottle into the air, her head back, watching the swish-swish-swish of light on the glass above her. The bottle twisted back down and she caught it, turned to him and smiled nicely. 'it was my assault."
"Jesus." He started to walk away, disgusted, but she caught up again, grinning at the side of his face, skipping along.
"You just can't stand the fact that I'm not traumatized and you are," she said. "I mean, what am I supposed to be grieving about? I lived, didn't I? I'm dealing with it."
"You call what you're doing with your work dealing with it? You call telling some jerk-off from the Guardian how it's "informed" your art dealing with it? You've got a perverted sense, Rebecca, of what "dealing" with it is."
"Oooh perverted!" She scooted up ahead of him and turned, walking backwards up the aisle. Tell-ver ted she sang, whirling the bottle in the air again, almost missing it on its way down. A couple passed her warily, shrinking back a little against the shelves. "This guy, right." Rebecca stopped in Caffery's path, her face bright. Now he could read the print on her leather jerkin. Article 5 of the Alcatraz inmate regulations, stencilled in white: You are entitled to food, clothing, shelter and medical attention. Anything else you get is a privilege. "This guy says to his girlfriend, "Let's have anal sex "'
"Rebecca '
"He says, "Let's have anal sex." And she says, "Anal sex? Isn't that a bit perverted?" And he says '
"Please just stop it '
"And he says "Perverted? Perverted? My, but that's a big word. Especially for a ten-year-old." She bent over, bottle clasped against her knee and shook with laughter. "A ten-year-old!"
"Yes, very good." He tried to get past her but she jumped from side to side, blocking his path.
"Oh, come on, Jack, read the dating manual. You're supposed to find my jokes funny. You're supposed to '
"Will you just thinkV He pushed a finger in her face and she shrank back a little, taken off-guard. "Will you just fucking THINK, for once." He put his face near hers, his voice low, stooping slightly so that no one else could hear. "Think about what it was like for me to find you, Rebecca, hanging, hanging from a hook in the fucking ceiling. I thought you were dead he told me he'd fucked you and then killed you. How do you think that felt, eh?"
She blinked at him and with that small reaction something hardened in his chest. He slammed down the basket, bottles clinking, and walked away, feeling for his keys in his pocket. She asked for it, she pushed me, she pushed me. He took deep breaths, half expecting her to be bouncing along at his side, poking him, telling him to take a chill pill or something. He had wanted to push her, wanted more than anything to see her rattled, and when he paused at the exit and turned round he knew he'd succeeded.
She was standing motionless in the centre of the aisle under the vast fluorescent lights, a single, small figure, quite alone in the huge supermarket, her face quite blank. He took a few steps back down the aisle. "Becky?"
Her head jerked a fraction and her chin dropped but she didn't answer. When he took her hand it was cold. So you've done it. Congratulations.
Hating himself and hating her, he led her out of the store and across Brixton to the car. They drove in silence and at home she took a bottle of Blavod and a packet of cigarillos upstairs and went to bed without eating. They didn't speak another word to each other that night.
Eight.
(20 July)
Reluctantly AMIT moved the search team from the park and extended their house-to-house parameters and witness-appeal campaign. DS Fiona Quinn went to Donegal Crescent. It was still sealed to allow the Specialist Crime Unit's chemicals to cook, but she went in and swept the corner of the room where Alek Peach's statement placed the intruder. Meanwhile Alek Peach discharged himself from hospital.
"What?"
First thing in the morning, his jacket still on, his hair wet, a cup of Kryotos's good coffee in his hand, Caffery stood in the SIO's doorway, disbelief on his face.
"Aye, this morning." Souness was sitting with one foot up on the other knee, using a screwdriver to pick a stone out of the sole of her cowboy boot. A pile of zoned search grids of Brixton generated from the Maplnfo programme sat next to her on the desk. Her sunburn had turned a little brown overnight, making her ordinary eyes a starry, periwinkle blue. "He's definitely not dying and even if he was he decided he was going to go a lot faster if he couldn't get a Superking in his mouth. The consultant's got the right arse about it."
"So where is he now?"
"At the NersessiansV
The family liaison officer had called Souness from there and told her about Alek Peach's tears: "Every inch of the sodding way from King's to Guernsey Grove." He had ignored Mrs. Nersessian standing with her arms wide open, a tragic look on her face -and had gone straight upstairs to where Carmel Peach was still lying on her side and had curled up on top of the coverlet, his arms around her. There they lay for an hour, neither speaking, chain-smoking together as if the fags were the glue in their marriage. And by the way, the officer, who had just consumed almost a pound of baklava and four Armenian demitasses, wanted to know, what was it that Mrs. Nersessian owed the Peaches? If all she wanted was a captive audience for her vine leaf mazzas, wasn't she taking the Good Samaritan thing a little far?