‘Have you no time for reading here?’
‘Oh, no! I am too sleepy to read except on school days and Sundays,’ he said, as if this were a great achievement.
‘And your acquaintance—is he a reader of Paley too?’
‘I believe the chaplain set him on it. He is a clerk, like me, and not much older. He is a regular Londoner, and can hardly stand the work; but he won’t give in if he can help it, or we might not be together.’
Much the Doctor longed to ask what sort of a friend this might be, but the warder’s presence forbade him; and he could only ask what they saw of each other.
‘We were near one another in school at Pentonville, and knew each other’s faces quite well, so that we were right glad to be put into the same gang. We may walk about the yard together on Sunday evening too.’
The Doctor had other questions on his lips that he again restrained, and only asked whether the Sundays were comfortable days.
‘Oh, yes,’ said Leonard, eagerly; but then he too recollected the official, and merely said something commonplace about excellent sermons, adding, ‘And the singing is admirable. Poor Averil would envy such a choir as we have! We sing so many of the old Bankside hymns.’
‘To make your resemblance to Dante’s hill of penitence complete, as Ethel says,’ returned the Doctor.
‘I should like it to be a hill of purification!’ said Leonard, understanding him better than he had expected.
‘It will, I think,’ said the Doctor, ‘to one at least. I am comforted to see you so brave. I longed to come sooner, but—’
‘I am glad you did not.’
‘How?’ But he did not pursue the question, catching from look and gesture, that Leonard could hardly have then met him with self-possession; and as the first bulletin of recovery is often the first disclosure of the severity of an illness, so the Doctor was more impressed by the prisoner’s evident satisfaction in his change of circumstances, than he would have been by mere patient resignation; and he let the conversation be led away to Aubrey’s prospects, in which Leonard took full and eager interest.
‘Tell Aubrey I am working at fortifications too,’ he said, smiling.
‘He could not go to Cambridge without you.’
‘I don’t like to believe that,’ said Leonard, gravely; ‘it is carrying the damage I have done further: but it can’t be. He always was fond of mathematics, and of soldiering. How is it at the old mill?’ he added, suddenly.
‘It is sold.’
‘Sold?’ and his eyes were intently fixed on the Doctor.
‘Yes, he is said to have been much in debt long before; but it was managed quietly—not advertised in the county papers. He went to London, and arranged it all. I saw great renovations going on at the mill, when I went to see old Hardy.’
‘Good old Hardy! how is he?’
‘Much broken. He never got over the shock; and as long as that fellow stayed at the mill, he would not let me attend him.’
‘Ha!’ exclaimed Leonard, but caught himself up.
A message came that Mr. Ernescliffe feared to miss the boat; and the Doctor could only give one tender grasp and murmured blessing, and hurry away, so much agitated that he could hardly join in Hector’s civilities to the officials, and all the evening seemed quite struck down and overwhelmed by the sight of the bright brave boy, and his patience in his dreary lot.
After this, at all the three months’ intervals at which Leonard might be seen, a visit was contrived to him, either by Dr. May or Mr. Wilmot; and Aubrey devoted his first leave of absence to staying at Maplewood, that Hector might take him to his friend; but he came home expatiating so much on the red hair of the infant hope of Maplewood, and the fuss that Blanche made about this new possession, that Ethel detected an unavowed shade of disappointment. Light and whitewash, abundant fare, garments sufficient, but eminently unbecoming, were less impressive than dungeons, rags, and bread and water; when, moreover, the prisoner claimed no pity, but rather congratulation on his badge of merit, improved Sunday dinner, and promotion to the carpenter’s shop, so as absolutely to excite a sense of wasted commiseration and uninteresting prosperity. Conversation constrained both by the grating and the presence of the warder, and Aubrey, more tenderly sensitive than his brother, and devoid of his father’s experienced tact, was too much embarrassed to take the initiative, was afraid of giving pain by dwelling on his present occupations and future hopes, and confused Leonard by his embarrassment. Hector Ernescliffe discoursed about Charleston Harbour and New Orleans; and Aubrey stood with downcast eyes, afraid to seem to be scanning the convict garb, and thus rendering Leonard unusually conscious of wearing it. Then when in parting, Aubrey, a little less embarrassed, began eagerly and in much emotion to beg Leonard to say if there was anything he could get for him, anything he could do for him, anything he would like to have sent him, and began to promise a photograph of his father, Leonard checked him, by answering that it would be an irregularity—nothing of personal property was allowed to be retained by a prisoner.
Aubrey forgot all but the hardship, and began an outburst about the tyranny.
‘It is quite right,’ said Leonard, gravely; ‘there is nothing that might not be used for mischief if one chose.’
And the warder here interfered, and said he was quite right, and it always turned out best in the end for a prisoner to conform himself, and his friends did him no good by any other attempt, as Mr. Ernescliffe could tell the young gentleman. The man’s tone, though neither insolent nor tyrannical, but rather commendatory of his charge, contrasting with his natural deference to the two gentlemen, irritated poor Aubrey beyond measure, so that Hector was really glad to have him safe away, without his having said anything treasonable to the authorities. The meeting, so constrained and uncomfortable, had but made the friends more vividly conscious of the interval between the cadet and the convict, and, moreover, tended to remove the aureole of romance with which the unseen captive had been invested by youthful fancy.
To make the best of a prolonged misfortune does absolutely lessen sympathy, by diminishing the interest of the situation; and even the good Doctor himself was the less concerned at any hindrance to his visits to Portland, as he uniformly found his prisoner cheerful, approved by officials, and always making some small advance in the scale of his own world, and not, as his friends without expected of him, showing that he felt himself injured instead of elated by such rewards as improved diet, or increased gratuities to be set to his account against the time when, after eight years, he might hope for exportation with a ticket of leave to Western Australia.
The halo of approaching death no longer lighted him up, and after the effusion of the first meeting, his inner self had closed up, he was more ready to talk of American news than of his own feelings, and seemed to look little beyond the petty encouragements devised to suit the animal natures of ordinary prisoners, and his visitors sometimes feared lest his character were not resisting the deadening, hardening influence of the unvaried round of manual labour among such associates. He had been soon advanced from the quarry to the carpenter’s shop, and was in favour there from his activity and skill; but his very promotions were sad—and it was more sad, as some thought, for him to be gratified by them. But, as Dr. May always ended, what did they know about him?
CHAPTER XXII
Oh, Bessie Bell and Mary Grey, They were twa bonnie lasses; They bigged a bower on yon burn side, And theekt it over wi’ rashes.
The early glory of autumn was painting the woods of Indiana—crimson, orange, purple, as though a rainbow of intensified tints had been broken into fragments, and then scattered broadcast upon the forest. But though ripe nuts hung on many a bough, the gipsyings had not yet taken place, except at home—when Minna, in her desperate attempts at making the best of things, observed, ‘Now we have to make the fire ourselves, let us think it is all play, and such fun.’