Perhaps there was some doubt of it, what with the darkness of the room, and a possible sky reflection on the panes between, but Rachel felt him to be looking straight into her face. “Of course he can! Please don’t stand there—” She drew her mother out of line.
“I didn’t hear a thing,” Matthilda said, bewildered. “I just looked up and—”
Her daughter whisked to the door, and the Sharp & Hankins came off its tree nails into her hands. The sliding barrel clashed twice, clambering a cartridge. Matthilda cried out, “Wait—don’t—”
“Ben said to—” Rachel jumped the heavy bar from its slot, and forgot what she was saying as the door creaked wide.
“Rachel! Don’t go out there!”
But Rachel was only standing on the stoop, looking frightened, and a little silly, as she stared up-creek and down. No one was in sight as Matthilda came to her side.
“He—he’s around the corner of the house,” Matthilda whispered.
“Let me go! I’ll put a ball through his hat!”
“No! You come in here—please, Rachel, please—”
That breathy, frightened note had not come so strongly into her mother’s voice since Rachel could remember. She hesitated, listening for a sound of hoofs, but the great organ-toned wail of the wind through the cottonwoods scoured away all sounds. Strands of hair whipped across her face, stinging her eyes. Suddenly Rachel wanted to be inside, behind the heavy door, within the thick walls. She was looking meek as she obeyed.
Matthilda’s hands were unsteady as she barred the door; she crossed to warm them by the fireplace, so that her back was to the room. This was not like her. The stranger hadn’t actually done anything much. Maybe he had been trying to see if anybody was home, never dreaming that women lived here. At first glimpse of them he had fled like a scalded cat. Yet Matthilda, always first to make allowances, had no word of reassurance. She seemed numbed.
Rachel said, “We know that man, from someplace. I’ve seen him before, a long while back.”
“Fiddle,” said Matthilda absently.
But Rachel was beginning to remember, not the man, but a happening that was the same. Long ago—six or seven years?—when they lived on the San Saba…. She began setting the table in shaky silence.
This time the boys came soon. Rachel saw Andy, first, jogging homeward around the upper bend of the Dancing Bird; and in a few moments more Cassius appeared, looking so sure of himself, so easy in the saddle, that Rachel was comforted in the uncertainty of this dusk. Still, neither of them, nor the two together, could quite take the place of Ben, who could make everything seem all right just by coming into sight.
She held her tongue when they came in, waiting to see what her mother would tell them; for she had a wicked little plan. A name that had been playing tag with her, teasing her by dancing just out of her reach, had now come clear into her mind. She judged it would serve to get Cash’s attention this time. Certainly there had been enough fuss and to-do—yes, and mystery made of it, too—that time on the San Saba, long ago.
“Any word of Ben yet? Any sign at all?” Matthilda always asked that first, nowadays; although, unless she was thinking of smoke signals, it was hard to see how she expected any kind of word to outtravel Ben himself.
“Nope.” Cassius scooped a handful of homemade soft soap and began to wash. “You all have a good day around here?” He always asked that, too.
“Well…” Matthilda wavered, and would not meet Rachel’s eyes. “Just a middling ordinary day, I reckon.”
Quiet again, under the sound of wind, while Cassius bent low to souzle his face and hair. Rachel waited a moment more, watching her mother. Then—“Abe Kelsey was here,” she said.
The effect was explosive. Cassius straightened so sharply his heels lifted off the floor. Rachel was dumbfounded; she had almost scared him through the roof. Well, not scared him, maybe—startled him, more like. His eyes went to his mother, not to Rachel, and held with a hard questioning. Good lord, I’ve pulled a trigger. What trigger?
She had been stretching it, of course; she had no memory of what anybody named Kelsey looked like, way back yonder. She had meant to admit, in a minute, that she hadn’t really recognized the stranger. She guessed she had better snatch that mysteriously powerful name back, and in a hurry. Confession was on the tip of her tongue. Then suddenly it was too late for that.
“I was going to tell you,” Matthilda said to Cassius, and her voice was coaxing him not to be mad.
Rachel’s heart contracted. Her mother had recognized the stranger and had not let on. When you live so close to people, and they hold things back from you, it makes halfseen things stir in shadows that come all around you. Part of the cabin fever…. Cash still stood there, water from his face running down his limp old buckskin shirt, and puddling on the floor from his dropped hands.
“She doesn’t mean he came in,” Matthilda said. She was faltering now, and near to tears. “He—just sat out there and—looked—”
“How long ago?”
“Well—I guess—it might have been—”
“Twenty minutes,” Rachel said clearly.
Cash shifted as if he would rush outside, but changed his mind without moving a step. “But the light was failing. You couldn’t have told if—Wait. How far out was he?”
“About seven feet,” Rachel said. “He leaned down close, to look in.”
“Seven—” He stared at her blankly a moment and his next question fairly crackled. “How come she knew him?” he demanded of his mother. “Did you tell her who—”
Matthilda shook her head, and her eyes were ominously shiny. “Why, the child can’t have seen Abe since—why, she can’t have been more than ten years old. And not even then, unless—and anyway, he’s so changed, Cash, just dreadfully. It’s uncanny she remembers him now.”
More uncanny than you think. This man was faceless, for all I saw. Aloud Rachel said, “A man of that name had an ambuscade with Papa, back in the earlies.”
“Papa had falling-outs with a lot of people.” Cash reached for a towel, wishing he were shed of the whole thing.
“But Kelsey kept nosing around.”
“The child’s right, Cassius,” Matthilda murmured.
“There was something more to it,” Rachel said. “Something queer, that I was never let to know.”
“All you need to know is I don’t want him around! Let him smell gunpowder—you all hear me?”
It was as if Ben himself had come into the room. No, more as if Papa had come into the room; Ben was quieter. Andy was sitting there gaping, with no more idea of what was happening than Rachel had. Mama went to the table, so that she was behind Andy and Rachel; but Rachel knew at once that Mama put a finger to her lips. “Don’t talk so much in front of the children,” Rachel put it into words for them.
They made no answer to that. “Bring your carbine,” Cassius told his brother, making his tone ordinary. “We’ll put the gate poles up.”
As they let themselves out, the wind whisked at everything in the house, and set the pans to swinging, but perhaps it was less violent than before. The women moved immediately, both at once, to get supper on. The wheels of daily living began to turn again, as they must always turn, no matter what.
“He’s going back where he came from, now,” Matthilda said, and Rachel knew she meant Abe Kelsey. “Hear how the wind’s dying? Going down more and more, as he gets farther and farther away.”
It was the kind of sign some of the Indians believed. The Zacharys took no stock in such heathenisms, but out here you could sometimes get mixed up, and confuse the things you really believed with things that just sort of came with the country. But it was true that the wind was abating. This should have made the night a better one for sleep, but it did not. Their bedding was turning clammy again for want of sun, so that they were chilled and sweated, seemingly both at once. Rachel knew she should have baked their blankets before the fire, but had put it off, hoping for a chance to get the outdoor smell of sunshine into them.