Even with all the practice I’d had at creating a central fiction to form the spine of my ‘autobiographies’, Fishing for Gold turned out to be one of my more challenging enterprises. I think the issue was that Scarlett had given me a problem I’d never faced before. Usually, what I’m editing out is the material that paints the subject in a less than flattering light. For example, when I was ghosting a champion snooker player who had successfully battled cancer, the heart of the book was the strength he’d found in his loving marriage. It didn’t need any intervention from me for the player and his agent to be clear that they did not want the public to read about the prostitutes and the drugs that had been the reality of his backstage life.
I’ve become an adept at treading the narrow line between providing just enough revelation to justify newspaper serialisation but not so much that the client becomes a pariah in their own life. And while it was true that what I was hiding about Scarlett would make her life uncomfortable, it wasn’t because the secrets were dirty and damaging. Apart from Joshu, who was her one blind spot, the truth about Scarlett was that she was smarter, shrewder and much more sensitive than any TV viewer or tabloid reader would have thought possible. I’d found it hard to believe myself at first, but I’d gradually had to accept the creeping suspicion that the Scarlett the world had been privy to was mostly as artificial a creation as Michael Jackson’s face.
I couldn’t believe she’d got away with it for so long. It was on the seventh or eighth day of our interviews that I broached the subject. ‘You’re a lot smarter than you let on,’ I said.
We were lounging on the leather sofas in the late afternoon. We’d been talking about the ill-fated second series, and Scarlett had clearly been bored by my insistence that we had to talk about the horrible thing she’d said to Danny Williams. ‘Look, it happened,’ she said, struggling upright and glaring at me. ‘You don’t need me to go through it all again. It’s there on YouTube for ever.’
‘YouTube doesn’t tell me what was going through your mind.’
She looked away. ‘What do you want me to say? It was like I lost my mind? Like I totally didn’t know what I was saying?’ She pushed herself upright, impatient. ‘Look, I said something that I don’t even believe. I’d been out of sorts for days. All kinds of crap just came bubbling up. I know now it was because I was pregnant and my hormones were all over the place, but at the time, nobody was more gobsmacked than me at what came out of my mouth.’ She sniffed. ‘Will that do?’
And that was when I broke all the rules and stepped across the line of tacit agreement between ghost and client. I’m not an investigative journalist. It’s not my job to challenge what my client tells me. Unless what they’re saying is completely at odds with all the known facts in the public domain, I’m supposed to swallow it whole. Sometimes I feel like a python confronted with a double-decker bus, but you’d be amazed what the punters will accept as gospel. On the rare occasions when I’ve had to point out very gently that my client’s version of events does not quite tally with what the rest of the world remembers, I’ve felt like I was skating on thin ice. The ghostwriting equivalent of ripping a hole in the space-time continuum. Because once you confront them with one lie, it’s hard to stop the whole thing unravelling.
But with Scarlett, I couldn’t help myself. I’d grown to like her a lot over the three weeks we’d been talking. I generally manage to stay on good terms with the people I write about, but this time I suspected we might actually form a genuine friendship. If that was going to happen, we both needed to stop pretending. I’d never write the truth, obviously. I just needed to know it.
So, ‘You’re a lot smarter than you let on,’ I said. ‘There was nothing spontaneous or hormonal about any of that, was there?’
Scarlett’s slow smile said it all. ‘I don’t know what you mean,’ she said, pointing to my little digital recorder.
But I knew what she meant. I don’t like going off the record. It can put you into all sorts of awkward places. I remember the middle-aged man who had survived a childhood of hideous abuse at the hands of the Christian Brothers who asked me to turn off the tape, whereupon he confessed that his marriage was an empty shell and he was having a sexual relationship with their parish priest. The same parish priest who was leading a campaign to name and shame the members of his church who had sexually abused children. That was one of those times when I wished I had a time machine that would take me back to the place where I didn’t know that.
So it was a big step of trust for me to turn off the machine. But sooner or later I was going to have to step outside the box if I was going to attempt to make proper friends with Scarlett.
I turned it off.
We both sat in silence for a moment, staring at the recorder. Then Scarlett cleared her throat. ‘You’re right. I planned it. I knew I was pregnant when I went back to Foutra. Plus I knew the second series was my chance to take myself to the next level. I figured I’d only get one chance to make a splash with the news about the baby, so I better go for broke.’ She gave me a sly look. ‘I think I did a pretty good job of it.’
I laughed. ‘You hooked me. And I’m the best. That’s how good a job you did. Has it all been planned, Scarlett? From the off?’
‘Right from the off.’ She fell back against the sofa in an exaggerated pose of relief. ‘Steph, it’s bloody great to share it at last. I’ve had to keep my gob shut for so long, it’s been killing me.’
And out it poured. The strange, twisted plan of a woman who had no prospects, no qualifications and no obvious escape from a dead-end life she adamantly did not want. ‘I remember when Big Brother started. I was way too young to get on it, but I could see how something like that might be the way out for somebody like me. Somebody with a totally shit life.’
‘And a brain,’ I said. ‘That’s what made you different, isn’t it?’
‘Well, I think so,’ she said. ‘I was never any good at school, mostly because they wrote me off before I even got my feet under the table. But I reckoned if I could get on one of those shows, I could play a good enough part to make something of myself. I studied them like it was maths or history or summat. I could have gone on Mastermind with reality TV shows as my specialist subject.’ She chuckled. ‘Mind, the general knowledge would have been a bit of a disaster.’
She’d auditioned three times before she finally got her slot on Goldfish Bowl. ‘I had to keep dumbing down.’ She rolled her eyes. ‘You would not believe how fucking dim most of the people who get on these shows are. They haven’t got a clue. No wonder the TV companies love shows like Goldfish Bowl. They can exploit the living daylights out of the contestants and the poor sods don’t even notice.’
‘So it was all a con job?’
‘Start to finish. Remember that night on the first series when I got drunk and danced naked on the table?’
I shuddered. It had been unforgettable, for all the wrong reasons. ‘Oh, yes.’