When he eventually did marry, Marcus remained distrustful. Wasn’t sure whether he could believe him. The divorce four years later must have confirmed it for Marcus: David had finally decided to wrap up the fiction he had created for him.
*
As he drives through Usha he knows its people are dreading the thought that the Night Letter came from Nabi Khan, fearing a return of the days of the civil war, Nabi Khan and Gul Rasool reducing two-thirds of Usha to rubble in the early 1990s, killing a third of its population as they fought for supremacy, five hundred rockets fired into various parts of Usha in a single day. To visit certain streets was to realise that only the sky remained unchanged there.
THE BUDDHA, Marcus remembers as he approaches the stone head, had denied the existence of the soul.
It’s mid-morning and the boy is asleep at a distance from the statue, as still as an effigy.
It was here in Afghanistan that the Buddha had received a human face, the earlier representations of him having been symbols — a parasol, a throne, a footprint. A begging bowl. The Greeks in Afghanistan gave him the features of Apollo, the god of knowledge, the god who repented. The only Asian addition to Apollo was a dot on the forehead and the topknotted locks.
A meeting of continents. When he described the Muslim Paradise, Muhammad in all probability drew on the memories of the Byzantine palaces he had seen during his pre-prophethood days as a travelling merchant.
It seems that the young man has been looking at his old notebooks. Marcus picks one up from the alcove. Qatrina and Zameen and he had loved everything about books. In tissue paper, in cardboard boxes, in paper cups they would locate the scent of stationery, the odour of libraries.
He turns the pages and it all comes back. Cis-3-hexanol smells of cut grass, he recalls with a pang. How can he count the things that are now lost? To him. To this country. Are the forty-seven names by which a lover may address the beloved preserved somewhere? The tablets of etiquette. And the one vital sign, specific to each situation, which exhibits a person’s character and intentions: My friend had hesitated before entering my house, so I knew I could trust him. Does anyone recall the blue-black curls and arabesques on the water, the yards of meandering lines, when kohl floated away from the eyes of the women washing their faces at the dawn lake? And is this remembered? As though it were the moon cutting into their sleep, the men of Usha had woken one night to discover pillars of shimmering gold descending on them from the mountain range, a midnight breathing in the air as they stared at the hundred columns of light drawing near, as unnaturally real as a dream — and then the women, for it was they, approached and lifted the fronts of their burkas and revealed that the entire reverse side of each garment was studded with fireflies, one for every square inch of the fabric, the women’s skin flickering. The wives had gone away and captured these specks of frayed light and come back like living lanterns, the fluorescence streaming through the cloth. Their skin reacted provocatively wherever the wing of an insect brushed against it with any firmness, desire entering the hearts of the men at the sight. The husbands had fallen quickly asleep upon returning from the labours of the world a few hours earlier, fatigue bubbling in them like soda, the exhaustion that at times made them resent even having to drag their shadows around. And if there was anger in any of them now at having been abandoned during sleep, they remembered to check their words because they knew that a woman decides who deserves to be called a man.
Does anyone else remember that night?
There are millions of marks of love on the earth, runes and cuneiforms on the water, on the very air. It is the wisdom of a thousand Solomons. The communal script of belonging. The First Text. In a place where not many can read or write, each person’s memory is a fragile repository of song and ceremonies, tales and history, and if he vanishes without passing it on, it’s like the wing of a library burning down.
The boy stirs on the floor. For that’s what he is. A boy. Visiting the West, Marcus was always surprised to read the word ‘man’ being used to describe eighteen- or nineteen-year-olds. They are children, who, even if they may already know much about the world, know nothing about themselves yet. Won’t for many years.
‘I thought I’d have a look at your wound,’ Marcus tells him when he opens his eyes. ‘I wonder if we should change the dressing.’
‘Why do you have this idol here?’ he asks, beginning to unknot the bandage.
‘It’s always been here. It is part of Afghanistan’s past.’
He just nods in return. There is a little drowsiness in him, the result of the painkillers.
‘For a long time it never bothered anyone, for a very long time.’ The Arabs who came to fight the Soviets had called the Afghans ‘donkeys’, telling them their version of Islam was a corruption, even saying they didn’t know how to pray correctly. They fired rockets into the graves of Afghan saints. ‘People used to come and work down here, long before you were born. This was a perfume factory.’ He recalls the floor heaped with the frilly hills of roses.
‘It seems to me’, Casa says, ‘that only a bad Muslim would remain unconcerned by this thing.’ He speaks very quietly so it’s hard to detect if there is ill feeling behind what he is saying.
‘The Koran itself says that the race of djinns belonging to Solomon had decorated his cave with statues.’
‘Please don’t say such things.’ He is visibly pained.
‘I am sorry.’ Muhammad had personally saved portraits of Jesus, Mary and Abraham from the Kaaba shrine while ordering others to be smashed.
‘I thought you said you had converted to Islam.’
‘True.’
‘Then I don’t understand why you are disrespecting the Holy Book.’
‘I wasn’t aware that I was. But I’ll say nothing more on the subject.’
‘Thank you.’
At breakfast neither David nor Marcus had known how to react to Casa’s words. Qatrina, of course, would have gently but firmly challenged him. Sometimes it is important to say things, she’d claim. And although, yes, Marcus remembers change taking place in him because of what he had heard someone say, some conviction of theirs that was startling to him, he doesn’t wish to argue with the boy now. ‘I sometimes wonder’, Qatrina once said, ‘if one shouldn’t let people hear a sentence like, “I do not believe in the existence of Allah.” They’ll be stunned but will go away and think about it. They might have heard about such people but to have it come from a person with a skin, with a mouth and eyes, a person who is standing at the same level as them — that has a different impact altogether. They must see that I am someone whose pulse they could feel if they stretched out their hand and placed it on my neck vein, and yet still I haven’t been struck by lightning because of what I have just said.’
Marcus examines the back of the head in silence and then reties the bandage, their three hands working together, rising and falling. Replace just one carbon atom with one silicon atom in the 1,1-dimethylcyclohexane molecule and the smell goes from eucalyptus to unpleasant. Who knows how the boy ended up with these opinions? What small thing could the others in the world have done differently for a happier outcome, what small mistake was made? Wolves exhibiting strange behaviour — caught in traps and thrashing about, injured by other creatures or by bullets, pups suffering from epilepsy — are attacked and killed by their pack members. But here everyone is human and must try to understand each other’s mystery. Each other’s pain.