"Huh. I had no idea."
"They forget their whole lives every five seconds — then it's like they're new fish again."
"Or they think they are."
Pico gives me a funny look. "How come you're the only Block Parent on this street?"
"I'm not — really?"
"Yep. I went around looking for signs, and you're the only one."
"It's because we're the nicest."
"Can I feed your fish?" Pico asks, standing up.
"Sure." We trade places, and I settle into the groove he's left in my bedcovers. "The food's just there. But don't give them too much — "
Pico glances at me over his shoulder, already sprinkling the coloured flakes into the aquarium. "I know what I'm doing, Les."
On my bedside table is a deck of playing cards. I pick them up and try making a house, but the cards keep slipping off one another. Pico comes over, shaking his head.
"You've got to make triangles." He sits down beside me, takes two cards, and leans them against one another. He succeeds in building a few levels before the whole thing collapses.
"Hey, want to see a trick?" I ask.
"A card trick?"
"Sure. Just pick a card and tell me what pile it's in."
This is the only card trick I know, and it's a simple one: after three times through the same routine, the person's card is always the eleventh out of the pile. But I choose it with a flourish, throwing the cards around the room, and then walking around as if confused before pulling the right one up off the floor.
Pico claps. "Again," he commands. "Again!"
"Nope. Magicians never do the same trick twice in a row."
"Oh, come on."
"Sorry. Maybe some other time, Pico."
Pico looks at me carefully. "The kids at school call me PeePee-Co, sometimes."
"That doesn't even make sense," I say. Here I am, sitting with this boy on my bed, this odd little fellow with the face of a diabolical American president. "You want to stay for dinner?"
Pico considers, tilting his head toward some indefinite place on the ceiling. "I'll have to call my nana," he says, nodding. "But I think it might be a good idea."
JUDY COMES HOME to Pico sitting on the floor of the kitchen, talking to the dogs. I've got a veggie moussaka in the oven, tomato and tarragon soup simmering on the stove, and a spinach salad tossed and ready for dressing on the counter.
"More bird food?" says Judy. She stoops down to greet Pico and his canine companions. "You must be Pico."
Pico looks up and grins. "I'm staying for dinner."
"Oh, you are now." Judy turns to me. "Did you check with his mom?"
"His nana," I tell her. But then I realize I haven't. I had stayed in the kitchen while Pico made the call from Judy's bedroom. Pico and I exchange a quick look, and then I turn to Judy. "I'm sure it's fine."
"She knows you're Block Parents," says Pico.
Judy shrugs, steps over Pico, and opens the fridge. "Don't we have any beer?"
"Beer?" I squeeze a wedge of lemon into a glass jar, add some olive oil, salt, pepper.
She slams the fridge door shut and then leans up against it. "What a day. I spend half my week wrist-deep in vaginas — you'd think I've got the best job in the world."
I frown and nod my head in the direction of Pico, but he seems oblivious, totally absorbed with trying to get the already prostrate dogs to lie down.
"Oh, shoot," she says, snorting. "Would you believe I've got another couple who are burying their placenta? Although at least these two aren't eating it. Man, these people. You'd think they'd just be happy if their kid comes out all right, it's not — "
She catches herself.
"Oh, fuck. Les — I'm sorry."
The room has changed. Even Pico is quiet. I shake up the jar of oil and lemon juice. I shake it, I keep shaking it, I stare out the window and I shake the jar, and all I can hear is the wet sound of the dressing sloshing around.
Judy is beside me. She has her hand on my arm. I stop.
"It's okay," I tell her.
"It's okay," she tells me.
We finish dinner by seven o'clock, so Judy and I ask Pico if he wants to come along while we take the dogs out for their evening walk. Before we ate, Judy had decided Pico needed to know I had a lisp when I was a kid, and he kept my sister in hysterics, calling me "Leth" and "Lethy" for the better part of the meal.
Everyone helps clear the table, and then we collect the dogs and head down to the creek behind Judy's house. We call it the creek, but it's basically dried up, just a gentle dribble through the ravine. The dogs love it, though; we let them off their leads and they go bounding and snarling into the woods.
The sun is just setting as the three of us make our way down along the path into the ravine. Judy's brought a flashlight, but she keeps it in her coat. "It's for when they poop," she tells Pico, and shows him the fistful of plastic bags in her pocket. His eyes widen.
Under the canopy of trees overhead, the light down here is dim — almost as if the ravine is hours ahead of the sunset. We unleash the dogs, who bolt, disappearing into the gloom. Judy and Pico follow them, but I move the other way, climbing over a mound of roots and earth, arriving in the dried-up creekbed. I kneel down, put my hand out, and I'm startled to feel water, icy and streaming urgently over my fingertips. But then I realize I can hear it, I probably could have all along — the happy, burbling sound of it barely above a whisper. I close my eyes, listening, my hand dangling in the thread of river.
Rachel and I went to an art exhibit once on one of our trips into the city. There was this room that you went into, and it was dark, totally black. When you entered, a single lightbulb turned on and lit up the room. And in this light you saw, written on one of the walls, text about guillotined criminals who were found to be able to communicate after their heads had been chopped off. Then, right as you read the last word, the lightbulb turned off, leaving you in darkness.
As we were coming out of the room, Rachel took my hand and whispered, "Man, that was spooky."
"Yeah," I said, but later I realized she was only talking about being left in the dark.
Out of the woods, one of the dogs comes trotting up to me and nuzzles its nose into my hand, then starts lapping at the creek. I smack its muscled haunches and the tail starts pumping. Judy and Pico are close, moving through the trees, their voices muffled. Then Pico starts calling, "Leth-eee! Leth- eee!" and Judy gets into it too, their voices ringing out in chorus. Judy turns on her flashlight — it swings through the darkness, sweeping the forest in a fat, white band. I hunker down, my arm around the dog, and wait for them to find me.
AUTUMN HAS FULLY arrived, the smoky, dusty smell of it thick in the air. The leaves are starting to fall, and in the mornings my breath appears in clouds as I putter around the backyard. I figure I'll get a space heater for the cabin once it gets really cold, but the big problem is that I don't know how much longer I'll be able to work outside. I had an indoor workshop at the old house, back when carpentry was only a hobby. It was odd moving, clearing out that room — with all my tools missing it became just an empty space in the basement, smelling vaguely of sawdust and leather. I'm sure Rachel's since turned it into the darkroom she used to talk about.
I don't see Pico for more than a week. Then one afternoon I'm out in the front yard doing the first rake of the season, and he wheels up on a bicycle.
"Les!" he yells. "Look at the bike my nana bought me."
He does a wobbly circle on the street. The bike is a throwback to a time well before Pico's birth — tassels dangle from the handlebars, and the seat curves up into a towering steel backrest. I give Pico the thumbs-up.
With some minor difficulties Pico dismounts, lowering the bike gingerly onto Judy's lawn. Today he is wearing a pink K-Way jacket about two sizes too big for him, blue sweatpants, and a pair of rubber boots. He runs up to me, and we both stand there for a minute, silent, breathing in the crisp autumn air.