“Yes, I named her. Painted her name on the fuselage, too. Plus a swastika for every kill. Ah, she was a fine, beautiful beast.” He sighed. “You know, I never saw her come down. That’s for the best, I think. Sometimes I like to believe she’s still up there, flying circles over Russia. All the pilots in my squadron named their planes. Do you think that’s childish?”
“Whatever helps keep a man alive is not childish.”
“My thoughts, exactly. The Americans do the same thing. Oh, you ought to see their planes! Painted up like Volga floozies-especially their long-distance bombers-but they can fight like Cossacks. What our air force could have done with machines like those!”
Lazaris had been shipped from camp to camp, he told Michael, and had been in Falkenhausen for what he thought must be six or seven months. He’d only been thrown into this kennel recently-maybe two weeks, he thought, though it was hard to tell the passage of time in a place like this. Why he was in here was anyone’s guess, but he missed seeing the sky.
“That building with the chimneys,” Michael ventured. “What goes on in there?”
Lazaris didn’t answer. Michael could hear the sound of the man’s fingers, scratching his beard. “I do miss the sky,” Lazaris said after a while. “The clouds, the blue freedom of it. If I could see one bird, my whole day was happy. But not many birds fly over Falkenhausen.” He lapsed into silence. Metzger was sobbing again, a terrible, broken sound. “Someone sing to him,” Lazaris told the others, speaking a crude but serviceable German. “He likes being sung to.”
No one sang. Michael sat on the sodden hay with his knees drawn up to his chest. Someone groaned softly, followed by a diarrheic bubbling noise. From across the cell, which couldn’t be more than eight feet or so, Michael heard the whimpering of the blind girl. He could see six figures, silhouetted in faint blue. He lifted a hand and touched the ceiling. Not a crack of light entered the kennel. He felt as if the ceiling were moving, and the walls, too, the entire cell constricting to smash them into bones and juices. It was an illusion, of course, but never in his life had he longed so much for a breath of fresh air and the sight of a forest. Steady, he told himself. Steady. He knew he could withstand more pain and hardship than the normal human being, because those things had been integral parts of his life. But this confinement was torture to his soul, and he knew he could break in a place like this. Steady. There was no telling when he might see the sun again, and he had to keep control of himself. Control was the wolf’s theme. Without control, a wolf had no chance for survival. He could not-must not-give up hope, even here in this den of hopelessness. He’d been successful in diverting Blok’s attention to the fictitious nest of traitors at the Reichkronen, but how long would that last? Sooner or later the torture would begin once more, and when it did-
Steady, he thought. Don’t think about that. It will happen when it happens, and not before. He was thirsty. He licked the wet wall behind him and caught enough moisture on his tongue for a satisfying sip.
“Lazaris?” Michael asked, sometime later.
“What is it?”
“If you could get out of here, is there a weak point somewhere in the camp? A place where the wall might be climbed?”
Lazaris grunted. “You must be joking.”
“I’m not. Surely the guards change, the gate opens to let trucks in and out, a tunnel can be dug. Isn’t there an escape committee here? Hasn’t anyone tried to get out?”
“No,” Lazaris said. “People here are fortunate to be able to walk, much less run, climb, or dig. There’s no escape committee. There’s no thought of escape, because it’s impossible. Now put that out of your mind before you go insane.”
“There’s got to be a way out,” Michael persisted. He heard desperation in his voice. “How many prisoners are here?”
“I don’t know for sure. Possibly forty thousand or so in the men’s camp. Maybe another twenty thousand in the women’s camp. Of course they’re always coming and going. The train pulls in with a new load every day.”
Michael was stunned. Sixty thousand prisoners, by a conservative estimate. “And how many guards?”
“Hard to tell. Seven or eight hundred, maybe a thousand.”
“The guards are outnumbered six to one? And still no one’s tried to escape?”
“Gallatinov,” the Russian said wearily, as if speaking to a troublesome child, “I don’t know of anyone who can outrun a machine-gun bullet. Or who would care to try. The guards have dogs, too: Dobermans. I’ve seen what their teeth can do to human flesh, and I’ll tell you it isn’t pretty. If, by some astounding miracle, a prisoner was to get out of Falkenhausen, where would that wretch go? We’re in the heart of Germany. From here, all roads lead to Berlin.” He crawled away a few feet and rested his back against the wall. “For you and me, the war is over,” he said quietly. “Let it go.”
“The hell I will,” Michael told him, and he screamed inside.
The passage of time was hard to judge. It might have been an hour or two later that Michael noted the prisoners were getting restless. Soon afterward he heard the sound of the door to the next kennel being unbolted. The prisoners were up on their knees, shivering in expectation. Then their own kennel door was unbolted and swung open to let in the excruciating light.
A small, black loaf of bread, shot through with veins of green mold, was thrown in among them. The prisoners fell upon it, tearing chunks out of it. “Bring your sponge!” one of the soldiers who stood in the corridor said.
Lazaris crawled forward, a gray sponge in his hand. He had at one time been a husky man, but the flesh had shrunken over his large bones. Dark brown hair spilled down his shoulders, his beard clotted with hay and filth. His facial flesh had drawn tight over his jutting cheekbones, and his eyes were dark holes in the pallid skin. His nose, a formidable beak that might’ve made Cyrano tip his hat, was crusted with blood around the nostrils, courtesy of Michael’s fist. He glanced at Michael as he crawled past, and Michael shrank back. Lazaris had the eyes of a dead man.
The Russian immersed the sponge in a bucket of dirty water. Then he withdrew it, swollen with liquid. The bucket was pulled away, the kennel’s door slammed shut-a brutal sound-and the iron latch slid back into place. The next kennel down the corridor was opened.
“Dinnertime,” Lazaris said as he crawled past Michael again. “Everyone gets a drink from the sponge. Hey, you bastards! Leave something for my comrade!” There was the noise of a quick and decisive struggle, and then Lazaris nudged Michael’s arm. “Here.” He put a damp bit of bread in Michael’s hand. “That damned Frenchman always tries to get more than his share. You’ve got to be fast around here if you want something better than a crust.”
Michael sat with his back against the rough stones and chewed on the bread. He stared at nothing. His eyes stung. Tears crept from them and trickled down his cheeks, but who they were for he did not know.
8
The iron bolt shrieked back.
At once Michael was on his haunches, roused from a nightmare of chimneys whose black smoke covered the earth. The door opened. “Send the girl out!” one of the three soldiers who stood there commanded.
“Please,” Lazaris said, his voice husky from sleep. “Please let her alone. Hasn’t she suffered e-”
“Send the girl out!” the man repeated.
The girl had awakened, and was shivering in a corner. She made a soft whimpering noise, like a trapped rabbit.
Michael had reached the end of what he would bear. He crouched in front of the doorway, his green eyes glittering above the darkness of his fresh beard. “If you want her so badly,” he said in German, “then come in and take her.”