“But what I was able to pull up was the entire grade enrollment,” he said. “Doesn’t separate it by class, but gives us a complete list of names for everyone in the grade level.”
He slid a manila folder to me across the desk. “I ran the list for each year Detwiler was enrolled. I know you said fourth or fifth grade, but this shows the rosters from kindergarten to fifth.”
I opened the folder and pulled out the printouts. Columns of names looked back at me from the paper.
He stood. “Look those over for whatever you’re looking for. I gotta run down the hall for a minute.”
He left and I wasn’t sure if he was really going to look for something else or if he was just giving me a few minutes to look at the lists alone.
I started with Bailey Detwiler’s third grade year. I thought about the photo Mike had given me. There was no way Elizabeth would’ve been enrolled in a lower grade, given her age when she’d disappeared. I saw two students listed with the last name Tyler, but both were boys. I grabbed a pen from Tim’s desk and quickly crossed off every name that I identified as belonging to a boy. I took a highlighter from the same cup of writing utensils and highlighted Bailey’s name on each sheet. It left me with about sixty names in each grade.
I took a deep breath. I didn’t know what I was looking for, but for once, I felt like maybe there was something truly tangible in my hands. The paper felt like hope.
There were four Elizabeths in the third fourth grade, so I highlighted those. The fourth grade listed the same four. On the fifth grade list, there was one new one.
Elizabeth Sansero.
I circled that name and stared at it for a long moment.
Then I shook my head, irritated with myself. I didn’t see any possible way that my daughter had been abducted and been allowed to use her real first name. It was a foolish, wistful thought. The only reason it made sense was because I wanted it to.
I pushed the list away. It had random names that wouldn’t mean anything to me. It might as well have been written in a foreign language. The hopelessness and frustration washed over me like a bucket of water dumped over my head. I’d gone from optimistic to pessimistic in about half a second. My entire trek to Minnesota seemed like an utter waste of time at that moment.
“Anything?” Tim asked, walking back in, a small stack of books in his hands.
“I don’t even know what I’m looking for,” I said. “I think I may be wasting your time.”
“Well, I wondered how names might help, given that I’m assuming your daughter’s name was changed,” he said, sitting back down in his chair and setting the books in a neat stack on the desk. “But you’re the expert so I figured you knew something I didn’t.”
“I don’t,” I admitted. “Grasping at non-existent straws.”
“Maybe these will help then,” he said, pushing the stack on the desk toward me. “Yearbooks. I picked them up yesterday from the district office. Left them in my car this morning because I had my hands full of other stuff.”
I hesitated, then reached for them. There were three of them, all hard-covered with the name of the school, the school year and a small emblem with the school’s name on it.
“I wasn’t sure if we had them or not,” Tim explained. “We don’t do them at every school because of the cost. But the parents at Hawkins formed a club and covered the expense.” He motioned at the books in my hands. “Same years as the years I printed out.”
And on a dime, the pessimism morphed back to optimism.
I paged quickly through the first one, the year that Elizabeth would’ve been in third grade. I scanned the small black and white photos of the kids. I stopped at Bailey Detwiler’s photo. Her face was slightly younger, slightly chubbier than the photo in my pocket, but I had no doubt she was the girl in the photo next to Elizabeth.
I scanned the faces again, but didn’t see Elizabeth’s.
I handed that one back to Tim. “Not this one.”
He nodded and took the book. I appreciated that he wasn’t chattering just to make noise and was just letting me look.
I opened the fourth grade book and found Bailey Detwiler again. Her face had thinned from the photo a year earlier and more closely resembled the photo in my pocket. I started at the beginning of the class, taking a moment to stare at each girl’s face. I didn’t want to rush and I didn’t want to miss my daughter if she was there.
After ten minutes, I handed the yearbook back to Tim.
“No luck?”
I shook my head.
I opened the last one and paged to the fifth grade section. I found Bailey Detwiler again. Big smile on her face. Her hair in braids. Definitely the girl in the photo with Elizabeth.
I started back at the beginning of the class. Kids with braces, some sulking, some seemingly caught in mid-smile or looking just off to the side. Fifth grade kids who hadn’t reached those awkward, sullen middle-school years. They were still excited for picture day and smiled wildly for the camera.
And on the fourth page, third row down, fifth kid in, I found my daughter.
I inhaled sharply, needle-like shock coursing through me. I forced my eyes to focus on the image in front of me.
Her hair was pulled back away from her face and she was missing a bottom tooth, just near the left corner of her mouth. Her smile seemed forced, like someone had told her to smile. She was wearing a dark-colored t-shirt in the black and white photo.
And she was identified as Ellie Corzine.
But there was no doubt.
Ellie Corzine was Elizabeth Tyler.
My daughter.
THIRTY-EIGHT
I traced the photo with my shaking finger. “This is her,” I said slowly. “This is Elizabeth.”
Tim arched an eyebrow. “Yeah?”
My heart rate went into overdrive, even as I tried to calm myself and remind myself it was just a picture. I didn’t have her back.
Yet.
I nodded. “Ellie Corzine. That’s not her name. Her name’s Elizabeth Tyler. But this is her.”
He leaned forward across the desk and turned the yearbook so he could see. “No doubt?”
“I know my own daughter.”
My voice must have had an edge to it because Tim sat back in his chair and had his hands up, cautioning me to take it easy. “Okay, I gotcha. But if I’m gonna open up someone’s file and share info, it could get me fired. So I want to make sure the one I open is the one that will help you.”
“Sorry,” I said. “Right. Yeah. I’m sure this is her. No doubt.”
Tim nodded and swung toward his computer, his fingers tapping at the keyboard. “Only way I can direct access student and family files is on this computer. Would be pointless for me to try from anywhere else. But looking up families and addresses is pretty routine. Shouldn’t raise any flags.”
I kept my finger on Elizabeth’s photo. I kept tracing the outline. I wondered what she knew. I wondered if she was sad. Or worse for me, happy. I wanted to pull her out of the photo and take her home to Lauren.
And it gave me hope, taking me back to Rodney’s belief about her. Yes, the picture was old. I understood that. But it also meant that she wasn’t one of the unfortunate victims killed immediately by an abductor. Whoever had taken her didn’t kill her. She’d been alive for at least two years after I’d last seen her.
That was as much hope as I’d been given since the day she’d disappeared.
“Corzine, Ellie,” Tim said, staring at the screen. “Was enrolled that year. Listed as a move-in to the district. Says she was homeschooled prior to that. No siblings. Parents listed as Valerie and Alex Corzine. Address in district boundary.” He squinted at the screen. “Completed at Hawkins, moved onto Barrington Middle School and completed there.” He paused, turned to me. “Currently a junior at Brookdale High School.”
My breath caught. I couldn’t swallow. My stomach churned.
Currently a junior at Brookdale High School.
Alive.
I opened my mouth, but nothing came out. I couldn’t organize the thoughts racing through my head. I felt paralyzed.
Tim grabbed a piece of paper and wrote quickly on it. “I’m giving you the home address and the school address, but I’ll tell you right now—no way you’ll get on campus and I can’t do anything to get you on.”