"I know this. You would not dare to try to fool me." Abdar glanced at Pachtal. "Though my friend Pachtal tried to convince me otherwise. He has a very suspicious nature."
She shot Pachtal a poisonous glance. Ungrateful bastard. She fell to her knees before Abdar. "I did not know. I would never have sent you to Narinth if I had suspected Li Sung had lied to me."
"You were too confident," Pachtal said coldly. "You thought your meager bed skills would overcome his loyalty. I could have told you otherwise."
She flared with anger. "You seemed to find me pleasing enough." Wrong move, she realized instantly, she must be more clever if she was to win through this situation. She forced a smile. "As Your Highness will in the future. I have planned a night to remember to show you how much I regret inconveniencing you."
"Have you indeed?" Abdar's smile widened. "I recall the pleasure you gave me and Pachtal before. I cannot think how you can best that unique episode."
He was intrigued. She lowered her lashes to hide both her contempt and triumph. Maharajahs or beggars, men were all the same. They would forgive you anything if you could find a way to satisfy their lust. "That was only the beginning. I can make you—"
"Promises." Abdar interrupted. "Words do not interest me." He took a step forward and cupped her cheeks in his hands. "But you do," he said softly. "I find you exceptional. So much life . . . From the first moment I saw you I knew I had to have you."
Satisfaction surged through her. It had been even easier than she thought. "I seek only to give you pleasure," she whispered. "You will permit me?"
"How can I resist you?" His dark eyes were glowing as his fingers trailed down her cheek in a gentle caress. "I believe you're right. This will be a night to remember."
Chapter 9
You must eat, Ian." Jane looked down with i an anxious frown at the untouched tray on the bed beside Ian. "How can you expect to get well if you don't eat?"
"I'm sorry. I'm a great bother, aren't I?" Ian picked up his fork and took a few bites. "There, now I've eaten."
"Not enough."
"That's more than enough for a man flat on his back. It isn't as if I expend a great deal of energy anymore." He shifted from his side to his back and added, "But you mustn't tell Ruel. He worries too much as it is."
"He wants to get you well enough to go back to Glenclaren."
"I've been thinking about that." Ian looked down at his plate. "Perhaps it would be better if I didn't go back."
She looked at him, stunned. "Not go home?"
"Servants are cheap here and I'll need care . . . for a while."
Because he prayed he would soon die and be freed from his bondage. Aching pity flooded through her as she looked at him. His dark hair had grown shaggy and lackluster in the past weeks, his big body distressingly thin, but it was that wistful yearning for release from life that worried her most. "But you love Glenclaren."
His lips thinned with pain. "That's why I'm not going home. I'm no good for Glenclaren anymore."
"Don't be foolish. You'll be a great help to—"
"Margaret?" For the first time she saw bitterness in his expression. "Yes, I'd be a big help to Margaret . . . another invalid for her to nurse. A cripple to lean on her."
"If she's the woman you say she is, she would want you to come home to her."
"There shouldn't have had to be a choice," Ian whispered. "I should have died in that train wreck. God meant me to die that night. Ruel shouldn't have pulled me back."
"You think I have the power to overrule God?" Ruel stood in the doorway, a smile pasted on his pale face. "I'm surprised at you, Ian. That's blasphemy, and besides, you give me too much credit." He strode forward. "I see you haven't eaten your lunch. Why don't you try a little more?"
"Ruel, I can't . . ." He met Ruel's gaze and then sighed, picked up the fork again, and began to eat.
Jane turned and left the room, unable to stand any more. She went to the veranda, her arms crossed over her chest to stop their trembling. Dear God, seeing Ruel's hurt at that moment was almost as bad as watching Ian's unhappiness and agony.
She heard Ruel come from Ian's room ten minutes later and then the clatter of china as he carried the tray to Sula in the kitchen. Afterward he joined her on the veranda.
"Did you get him to eat?" she asked.
"Oh yes, I always get him to do what I want him to do. Didn't you hear him say how omnipotent I am?"
She didn't look at him. "He didn't really mean to blame you. He doesn't want to die."
"Of course he does," Ruel said harshly. "If I were facing what he is, I'd be cursing him too."
"He isn't cursing you."
"Only because he believes God might really wreak vengeance on my head since I've never been in his good graces."
"You saved Ian's life. There's no greater gift you could give anyone."
"Ian thinks there is."
Death. She shivered and quickly changed the subject. "He wants to stay here in Kasanpore."
"He told me that too." He shook his head. "If I let him stay here, he'll wither away and die. At Glenclaren at least he has a chance of living."
"He seems to be worrying about not being capable of properly running Glenclaren."
"He's right, it's not a job for a cripple. My father was out and about every day overseeing the management of the blasted place."
"Couldn't Ian hire someone?"
"An agent? Yes, but it would be another drain and he'd manage only to keep his head above water. In five years I could have bought him anything he needed. I could have built him a bloody palace in place of that drafty barn. Why the hell wasn't I given those years? You'd think God would take care of his own, wouldn't you?"
"What are you going to do?"
He shook his head wearily. "I've written to Maggie and taken passage for Ian out of Narinth on the Bonnie Lady in three weeks' time."
"Are you going with him?"
He shook his head. "I'm going to Cinnidar after I put him on the ship." He whirled to face her. "Stop looking at me like that. I can do nothing for him at Glenclaren right now. If I go to Cinnidar, at least I'll have a chance of giving him what he needs for that damn piece of earth he worships. Money can buy a comfortable life, if not a happy one."
"How could I blame you? You've done more for Ian than anyone could expect you to do."
A bitter smile touched his lips. "More than he wanted me to do anyway." He straightened. "I'm going to the Officers' Club to see Colonel Pickering about arranging transport on one of the troop ships going upriver to Narinth. It will be easier on Ian than traveling overland. Will you watch over him for me until I get back?"
She stiffened, panic surging through her. Ruel had not left Ian's side since the night of the train wreck, and he did not know about the colonel's investigation. What would happen when he—
"What's wrong? Is there a problem?"