He said, “Terry Crevolin.” Incongruous bass voice.
“Alex Delaware.”
“So I’ve been told. Sit.”
As I did, he got up and locked the door. Two silk T-shirts exactly like the one he was wearing hung on dry-cleaner’s hangers from a hook on the back.
He returned to the desk, sifted through papers for a few moments, then said, “Yeah, you look like a doctor. What kind of doctor are you?”
“Psychologist.”
“Psychologist. But you know about what plays in prime time.”
I said, “I know Bear Lodge sure wouldn’t. Too long ago and times have changed. No one cares much about a hunch of radical freaks blowing themselves up.”
One of his eyes twitched. He looked at my briefcase.
We had ourselves a little staring contest. He was pretty good at it- plenty of practice, no doubt, with desperate writers pitching concepts. But I’d sat through tens of thousands of hours of therapy. On the doctor’s side of the couch. Waited out every evasion known to mankind…
Finally he said, “I was given the impression you had something for me- a concept. If you do, let’s hear it. If not…” Shrug.
“Sure,” I said. “Here’s a concept: adolescent search for identit-”
“It’s been done.”
“Not like this. My protagonist is a bright young kid, orphaned at a very young age. Good-looking, idealistic. Half-black, half-Jewish. His parents are political radicals who die under suspicious circumstances. Seventeen years later he tries to find out how and why. And ends up getting murdered for his efforts- set up in a phony drug bust. Lots of good stuff in between but probably too downbeat, huh?”
Something that could have been pain scuttled across his face. He said, “You’ve lost me.”
“Ike Novato. Novato as in Spanish for novice. Novice as in green. The little boy who once belonged to Norman and Melba Green.”
Crevolin inspected his nails.
I said, “He tried to see you this past summer, couldn’t get through.”
“Lots of people try to see me.”
“Not about Bear Lodge.”
He peered at a cuticle.
“Do lots of them get murdered, Mr. Crevolin?”
Some color came into his face. “Boy, this sounds pretty dramatic.”
“He was murdered. Check it out for yourself. Last September. Drug deal gone wrong down in Watts. Funny thing is, though, people who know him say he never used drugs, had no reason to go to Watts.”
“People,” he said. “There’s no way to know someone- to really know what goes on in someone’s head. Especially a kid, right? The whole kick about being young is keeping secrets, right? Creating your own private world and keeping everyone else out of it. If you’re really a shrink you should know that.”
“Ike Novato’s secrets were dangerous,” I said. “They may have killed him. And his grandmother too. An old woman who lived in Venice named Sophie Gruenberg.”
His mouth opened, then closed.
I said, “She disappeared a few days after he was killed. The police think someone disappeared her. They’ve got no leads, can’t seem to connect any of it, think maybe there’s a dope connection. But I’ll just bet they’d love to talk to you.”
He said, “Oh, shit.”
I said, “Gruenberg to Green. Green to Novato. The family had a thing for name changes, but they kept the hue consistent. When did Norman Green change his?”
“He didn’t. His old man did. For business. The father was bourgeois; the mother didn’t approve of the name change. After the old man died, she changed it back.”
“But Norm didn’t?”
“No. He liked the old man. Politically, he saw eye to eye with his mother. But she was hard to get along with. Abrasive. Emotionally, she and Norm weren’t close.”
His nostrils flared and closed. He rolled his lips over his teeth, chewed on a pinkie. “Listen, I’m sorry to hear all this. What’s it got to do with me?”
Bad bluffer. Pinocchio would have laughed and lent him his nose.
I said, “I think you know. One family destroyed- three generations exterminated, because the wrong people got asked the wrong questions. Asking you might have been safer, but Ike couldn’t get through.”
He waved a hand frantically. “Don’t lay that on me.”
“You’re laying it on yourself. You’ve never forgotten Bear Lodge. That’s why you agreed to see me.”
He slumped, ran his fingers through his spiky hair, checked the time on a wristwatch thin enough to fit through a coin slot.
I said, “Getting his message last summer brought back those memories full force. You probably considered seeing him. Your idealism may be long-buried under a heap of game shows but-”
He sat up. “I don’t do game shows.”
“- you’re still a person of principles. Or so it’s been suggested.”
“Yeah? By who?”
“Judy Baumgartner at the Holocaust Center. She says you helped them get that documentary produced. She’s the one who told me about your book.”
His expression turned sour. He pulled something out of his jacket pocket. An orange lollipop that he unwrapped with stealth and haste, as if it were a forbidden pleasure. He jammed it in his mouth, sat back, hands folded across his belly, pacified.
“Principles, huh?”
“Why’d you turn him down?” I said. “Too painful opening old wounds? Or was it just inertia? All those meetings you take every day, you simply didn’t have the energy to handle another one?”
He yanked out the lollipop, started to say something, gagged on it, and stood up, turning his back to me. He faced the rear wall, taking in his cartoon buddies.
I said, “Fairy godmothers and glass slippers. Would that life were so simple.”
“You with the government?” he said.
“No.”
“Show me some ID.”
I took my driver’s license, psychology license, and medical school affiliation out of my wallet and handed them to him. “Got major credit cards, too, if you want to see them.”
He turned around, examined them, gave them back. “Doesn’t really mean anything, does it? You could be who the papers say you are and still be government.”
“I could but I’m not.”
He shrugged. “And what if you are? Like you said, times have changed- no one cares anymore. What’s my crime? Shifting gears into a survival mode? What’s the penalty gonna be? Working at another network?”
I smiled. “How about working with game shows?”
He leaned forward. “Come on, level with me. What’s this really about?”
“It’s about what I told you. I want to ask you some of the questions Ike Novato never got to ask.”
“Why? What’s your connection to him? Were you his shrink?”
“No. I never met him. But I’ve been looking into the death of one of his friends. A young girl named Holly Burden.”
I waited for a sign of recognition, got none.
I said, “Her family asked me to do a psychological autopsy. To try to understand why she died. That led me to Ike. He was one of the few friends she’d had. A confidant. I traced him back to the Holocaust Center, some books he checked out on racism. He’d written your name and number in a margin. Judy was certain he hadn’t met you there, thought he might have tried to reach you because of your previous life.”
I opened the briefcase and pulled out his book. “I bought this today, read the Bear Lodge story and saw the Berkeley picture. Figured out who Ike really was.”
He sat down, put the lollipop back in his mouth and withdrew it quickly, as if it had lost its flavor. “Some literary masterpiece, huh? I was coming down from acid and mushrooms and Methedrine chasers when I wrote that. Flashing back and seeing God. One superstoked weekend, no revisions. I didn’t even come up for air. Pulitzer Prize stuff, it ain’t.”
“Don’t sell yourself short,” I said. “It had a certain raw energy. Passion. The kind you probably don’t experience much anymore.”