Then Hamilton was on the ledge.
Short Leg turned to the cliff and, scrambling, hand by hand, feet scraping for holds, began to climb.
Hamilton followed her.
Some seventy or eighty feet from the stones below, clinging to the cliff, Short Leg turned her head, looked back, and, fingers scratching, sliding, lost her grip, and, screaming, plunged backward, falling, twisting, until she struck the stones.
At the foot of the cliffs Hamilton saw Pod, the infant of Short Leg. Suddenly screaming with hatred she seized the child and lifted it over her head, to dash its skull open against the cliffs, and then, sobbing, wild, Hamilton stumbled to Nurse, and thrust the child in her arms.
Hamilton rolled on the stones, striking at them, howling, shrieking at the sky in misery. She cut her body with the stones, and her tears and her blood marked the granite. In her right hand were the stains of the berries. Old Woman went alone into the forest and cut her face with rocks. With a flint knife she cut from her left hand two fingers.
Hamilton stood up. She looked down at the stones, covering the trough. All night Hamilton had sat with the child in her arms. By force Old Woman and Nurse had taken it from her arms, and placed it in the trough. Some articles, too, had been placed in the trough, some berries, some shells and a toy of stuffed leather. A child, too, had placed a pebble in the trough and one of the hunters had added a bow, a tiny one, with tiny arrows. Then the men had put stones over the trough.
Then Stone had said, “The meat must be roasted. There are skins to clean.”
The Men, followed by the women, and the children, turned away.
Hamilton, and Tree, remained behind.
“He liked berries,” Hamilton said.
Tree did not respond to her.
Hamilton took from her throat the necklace of the Men, unknotting it. She handed it to Tree. “I am going away,” she told him.
The hunter did not detain her.
33
“You are my daughter,” said Herjellsen.
“Do not excite him,” said William. “He is dying.”
“It has finally caught up with me,” said Herjellsen. “My own body. I am to be killed by my own body.”
“The child died,” said Hamilton. “It died. There is no child.”
“We have all failed,” said Herjellsen. “All of us have failed.”
Gunther, sitting on a wooden chair in the corner of the room, regarded him, not speaking. William sat near the bed, a stethoscope about his neck. In the background stood Herjellsen’s two blacks, the large fellow, who was called Chaka, though it was not his true name, but the name of a black king, and the smaller man, his friend. They wore khaki shorts and open shirts.
“Your scheme was a mad one,” said Gunther, slowly. “You are insane.”
Herjellsen looked at them, peering through the thick lenses of his glasses. He rested his head back. He sat in bed, propped by pillows. He was far thinner now, and whiter than Hamilton remembered him. His body seemed small beneath the sheets. He wore a ragged pair of red-striped pajamas. The neck was open. The first two buttons were opened. His face suddenly tensed, and his body was tight, clenched on a saw’s edge of pain.
“You should rest now,” said William.
“No,” said Herjellsen. Then he looked at Hamilton. “I had hoped,” he said, “there would have been a child.”
“It died,” said Hamilton.
“I am sorry,” said Herjellsen. Then he looked at her. “I chose you,” he said, “because you are my only daughter, my only child.”
Hamilton had not known her parents.
“It was essential to my hopes,” he said. “But now we have all failed.”
“What was it,” demanded Gunther, suddenly, angrily, “that you hoped to accomplish in your madness?”
“To inaugurate the renaissance of man,” said Herjellsen. “To touch the stars.” He lay back against the pillow, but his eyes were open. “Man,” he said, “has within him beasts and gods, and he is only truly man when each may thrive and both are fed.”
“On what,” asked Gunther, “can gods and beasts feed?”
“On meats and horizons,” said Herjellsen.
“The two natures of man?” asked William, smiling.
“No,” said Herjellsen, “that is the odd thing, for there is truly only one nature, though there is no name for it in any language I know. If there were to be a word, I suppose it would be the nature of the god-beast or beast-god. The important thing to understand is that it is the beast brain which thinks, which perceives, which acts. There is only one nature, that of the beast which can lift its head and catch the scent of the fires of stars.”
“Surely one nature or the other must die,” said William.
“No,” said Herjellsen, “that is the teaching only of those who have little of either nature.” He thrust his head forward. “If the god dies, so, too, does the beast, and if the beast dies, with it expires. the god. The heart may not be removed to succor the brain, nor the brain removed from the skull to pacify the heart. It is one system, one glory, one splendor, called Man.”
No one spoke. And Herjellsen again rested his head back on the pillows. He seemed scrawny, almost, now, and futile, and silly in the red and white pajamas. He was only a primate with delusions, one who could not understand evident realities. To whom could such a man speak? To the world he despised he could count only as a madman. It could only kill such men, or ridicule them, for he was like a knife to the belly of complacency. “The enemies,” said Herjellsen, “lie about us, outside us and within us. They are the little men, the small men, the insects who can dream only the dreams of insects. They cannot know the greatness of man. It cannot register on the compound eye; it eludes the antennae, his strides cannot be understood by the tiny feet to whom a leaf is a country, a weed a continent. Their measurements and scales are not those of men. Comfort, security, softness, too, lie about us, and within us, more deadly than the aging heart, the wretched, brittle valves, the withered tissues.” The old man’s eyes blazed, and it seemed his weakness, his tortured frailness vanished, and there was only, for the moment, burning within him, flaming, the intellect, the heart, the indomitable will. “Civilization,” said he, “is not the end, not the termination, the destiny. It is the vehicle, the path, the instrument. Without it we cannot achieve Man, nor discover him.”
“And where,” asked Gunther, “shall we achieve man? Where shall we discover him?”
“Among the stars,” said Herjellsen. “We will not achieve Man until we, his precursors, stand among the stars. It is then, and then only, that we will discover him. He may be found there, and there only! It will be only in the landscapes of infinity, you see, that he shall rise to his full height, for in what other country could a man stand as high as a man can stand? He will not be fully man until he can see the stars as pebbles at his feet.”