Something lifted noisily from the black water. A span of darkness, vertical, its upper edges dripping, fast dissolving.
‘Follow me,’ Clip gasped. ‘Quickly!’
Nimander rose and tugged Skintick back — ‘Everyone, stay behind me’ — and, seeing Clip lunge forward and vanish within the Gate, he hurried forward.
But Nenanda reached the portal before him, rushing in even as he drew his sword.
Cursing under his breath, Nimander darted after him.
The Gate was collapsing. Someone shrieked in his wake.
Nimander staggered on slippery, uneven bedrock, half blinded by streaks of lu shy;minescence that scattered like cut webs. He heard a gasping sound, almost at his feet, and a moment later stumbled against something that groaned.
Nimander reached down, felt a body lying prone. Felt something hot and welling under one palm — the slit of a wound, the leaking of blood. ‘Nenanda?’
Another gasp, and then, ‘I’m sorry, Nimander — I saw — I saw him reaching for his dagger, even as he stepped through — I saw — he knew, he knew you were following, you see — he-’
From somewhere ahead there came a hollow laugh. ‘Do you imagine me an id shy;iot, Nimander? Too bad it wasn’t you. It should have been you. But then, this way it’s just one more death for you to carry along.’
Nimander stared but could see nothing. ‘You still need us!’
‘Maybe, but it’s too risky to have you so close. When I see a viper, I don’t invite it into my belt-pouch. So, wander lost in here. . for ever, Nimander. It won’t feel very different from your life before this, I expect.’
‘The god within you,’ Nimander said, ‘is a fool. My Lord will cut it down and you with it, Clip. You don’t know him. You don’t know a damned thing!’
Another laugh, this one much farther away.
Nimander wiped the tears from his cheeks with his free forearm. Beneath his palm, the pulse of blood from the wound had slowed.
Too many failures. Too many defeats.
A soul carries a vessel of courage. It cannot be refilled. Every thing that takes from it leaves less behind.
What do I have left?
Whatever it was, the time had come to drink deep, to use it all. One last time. Nimander straightened.
‘Desra? Skintick? Anyone?’
His words drew echoes, and they were the only replies he received.
Nimander drew his sword, and then set out. In the direction of that mocking laughter.
Ribbons of light swam in the air on all sides.
He encountered no walls, felt no wayward currents of air. The folded bedrock beneath his feet undulated randomly, angling neither upward nor downward for long, uneven enough to make him stumble every now and then, and once to land on his knees with a painful, stinging jolt.
Lost. Not a single sound to betray where Clip might be now.
Yes, this was a clever end for Nimander, one that must have given Clip moments of delicious anticipation. Lost in darkness. Lost to his kin. To his Lord, and to a future that now would never arrive. So perfect, so precise, this punishment-
‘Enough of that, you pathetic creature.’
Phaed.
‘They’re here, you fool. As lost as you.’
What? Who? Leave me be. I told you, I’m sorry. For what happened to you, for what I tried to do. I’m sorry-
‘Too late for that. Besides, you don’t understand. I lived in fear. I lived in per shy;petual terror. Of everything. Of all of you. That I’d be found out. Can you imagine, Nimander, what that was like? To live was torture, to dread an end even worse. Oh, I knew it was coming. It had to. People like me win for only so long, before someone notices — and then his face fills with disgust, and he crushes me underfoot.
‘Or throws me out of a window.’
Please, no more-
‘They’re here. Desra, Skintick. Sweet Aranatha. Find them.’
How?
‘I can’t do this for you. Shouts will go unheard. There are layers to this place. Layers and layers and layers. You could have walked right through one of them and known nothing. Nimander Golit, the blood of our Lord is within you. The blood of Eleint, too — is that the secret? Is that the one weapon Clip did not know you possess? How could he know? How could anyone? We have suppressed it within ourselves for so long now-’
Because Andarist told us to!
‘Because Andarist told us to. Because he was bitter. And hurting. He thought he could take his brother’s children and make them his own, more his own than Rake’s.’
Nenanda-
‘Had the thinnest blood of all. We knew that. You knew it, too. It made him too predictable. It killed him. Brother, father, son — these layers are so precious, aren’t they? Look on them again, my lover, my killer, but this time. . with a dragon’s eyes.’
But, Phaed, I don’t know how! How do I do that?
She had no answer. No, it would never be that simple, would it? Phaed was not an easy memory, not a gentle ghost. Nor his wise conscience. She was none of that.
Just one more kin whose blood stained Nimander’s hands.
He had stopped walking. He stood now, surrounded by oblivion.
‘My hands,’ he whispered. And then slowly lifted them. ‘Stained,’ he said. ‘Yes, stained.’
The blood of kin. The blood of Tiste Andii. The blood of dragons.
That shines like beacons. That call, summon, can cast outward until-
A woman’s hand reached out as if from nowhere, closing round one of his own in a cold grip.
And all at once she was before him, her eyes like twin veils, parting to reveal a depthless, breathtaking love.
He gasped, vertiginous, and almost reeled. ‘Aranatha.’
She said, ‘There is little time, brother. We must hurry.’
Still holding his hand, she set off, pulling him along as she might a child.
But Nimander was of no mind to complain.
He had looked into her eyes. He had seen it. That love. He had seen it.
And more, he had understood.
The Dying God, he was coming. Pure as music, bright as truth, solid as certainty. A fist of power, driving onward, smashing everything in its path, until that fist uncurled and the hand opened, to close round the soul of the Redeemer. A weaker god, a god lost in its own confusion.
Salind would be that fist, she would be that hand. Delivering a gift, from which a true and perfect faith would emerge. This is the blood of redemption. You will understand, Redeemer. Drink deep the blood of redemption, and dance.
The song is glory, and glory is a world we need never leave. And so, my beloved Itkovian, dance with me. Here, see me reaching for you-
Supine on the muddy floor of Gradithan’s hut, Salind leaked thick black mucus from her mouth and nose, from the tear ducts of her eyes. Her fingernails were black, and more inky fluid oozed out of them. She was naked, and as he knelt beside her Gradithan had paused, breathing hard, his eyes fixed on the black milk trickling down from the woman’s nipples.
Standing wrapped in his raincape close to the doorway, Monkrat looked on with flat eyes, his face devoid of expression. He could see how Gradithan struggled against the sudden thirst, the desire that was half childlike and half sexual, as he stared down at those leaking breasts. The bastard had already raped her, in some twisted consummation, a sacrifice of her virginity, so the only thing that must have been holding the man back was some kind of overriding imperative. Monkrat was not happy thinking about that.