Genevieve swallowed. “I…I don’t know what to say, other than that if it helped you in any way, I’m very glad you took it.”
“As am I.” His gaze probed hers, and she had the impression he could see directly into her soul. “You’re Charles Brightmore.”
She’d known what was coming, but hearing him say the words out loud still jolted her. “Would there be any point in denying it?”
The ghost of a smile whispered across his face. “No.” He paused, then said, “You’re immensely talented.”
She hadn’t expected that. “Th-thank you.”
“And very insightful. I hope the second book is even more successful than the first one. You can be sure I’ll be purchasing a copy.”
“You’re not…shocked?”
“No. I’m proud of you. And I wish you the very best in all your literary endeavors, especially this next one since, as I said, it saved my life. As for your Brightmore identity, you may rest assured your secret is safe with me.”
She couldn’t think of anything to say other than, “Thank you.”
“My pleasure. Now, as to what I wanted to discuss with you-I’ve been thinking a great deal since I left Little Longstone, about many things. You, mostly. The time we spent together. And all those thoughts boiled down to one thing you said to me.”
“And what was that?” she asked, trying not to sound as bemused as she felt.
“You said, ‘I hope the rest of your life is wonderfully happy.’” His gaze searched hers. “Did you mean it?”
She nodded. “Yes, of course.”
Something that looked like relief flashed in his eyes. He smiled. “Excellent. I was hoping you’d say that. Well, I’ve decided that’s what I hope for as well-for the rest of my life to be wonderfully happy. Once I concluded that, all I had to do was determine what would make it so. It didn’t take me very long to figure that out. Indeed, it was very easy.” He stepped toward her, and took her hand-the one that wasn’t clutching the piece of paper and her flowers. “The answer is you, Genevieve. You are what I need to be wonderfully happy.”
Genevieve went completely still. Then her heart, which had stuttered at his words, raced and tripped over itself. He wanted to continue their liaison. She’d vowed never to allow herself to be vulnerable again, never to risk her heart, never to be any man’s mistress, but, dear God, she loved him. How could she even contemplate walking away from him now that he was here? Here, clearly wanting her to be his mistress. It was, of course, all a man in his position could offer her. She’d loved Richard and been his mistress, but Simon…she not only loved him, he owned her heart. How could she give him any less? For an answer, the vows she’d once made to herself crumbled like dust at her feet.
Before she could tell him, he said, “This last month has been the most miserable, lonely four weeks-plus two days-of my life and it is an experience I never want to repeat.” He brushed his fingers over her cheek. “Dare I hope that you’ve been as miserable?”
She blinked. “You hope I’ve been unhappy?”
“It’s been said that misery loves company, although unhappy is a lukewarm word for the way I hope you’ve felt.” He moved a step closer. “I hope you’ve been utterly forlorn. Desolate. Despairing. Crushed. Joyless. Lonely. And excessively heartbroken.” Another step closer. “Just as I have been.”
Now less than two feet separated them, and she could see he looked drawn. As if he hadn’t been eating or sleeping well. Her gaze flicked to his temple, but little evidence of his injury remained. “You’ve been all those things?”
A humorless sound huffed from between his lips. “Every single one. Since the moment I left your sitting room. And I don’t want to feel them any longer. So-dare I hope you’ve been in the same pitiable state?”
“I cannot deny I’ve been sad, or that I’ve missed you.”
“Excellent.”
“Simon…about becoming your mistress-”
“I don’t want you to be my mistress.”
Confusion flooded her, which quickly turned to a hot wave of embarrassment at the realization he wasn’t suggesting a liaison after all. “I’m sorry. I thought-”
“I want you to be my wife.”
Genevieve could only stare. “Pardon?”
He cleared his throat, then said very slowly and distinctly, as if he were speaking to a small child, “I said, I want you to be my wife.”
Dear God, his head injury had rattled his brain. “Simon, men in your position do not marry their mistresses.” God knows she knew that well enough.
“The scandal could ruin you, ruin your family.”
“Perhaps. But I can live with that. It’s you I cannot live without. And you aren’t my mistress.”
“We slept together.”
“Yes. And it is an event I want to repeat. Every night. For the rest of our lives.” He cupped her face in his hands. “Genevieve. I haven’t been the same since the first moment I saw you, when I hid behind the statue in your bedchamber. It was as if lightning stuck me. God knows I haven’t been able to think of anything other than you. I knew I cared about you when I left Little Longstone, but I convinced myself I’d get over you. Forget my feelings.” He gave a short laugh. “What a bloody nincompoop I was. I quickly learned the folly of that idiotic notion. I don’t merely care for you. I am madly, insanely, arse-over-heels in love with you. I would have come sooner, but I wanted to settle my affairs so I wouldn’t have to rush back to London.”
Genevieve’s heart was beating so wildly, he surely had to hear it. “You love me?”
“So much it hurts.” He leaned forward and touched his forehead to hers. “So much I couldn’t stand another day away from you. Not another hour. Not another minute.”
“But your life is in London.”
“That doesn’t seem to matter-my heart is in Little Longstone.”
Dear God, he sounded perfectly serious. “But what of your work for the Crown?”
He lifted his head and looked at her through green eyes that reflected the seriousness of his tone. “I am officially retired. As for my life in London, I’ll keep my townhouse, but I’ve decided I’d rather spend the bulk of my time here. There is a fifty-acre tract of land for sale just west of the village. Beautiful trees, a lake, a pond and, best of all, four hot springs. It would be the perfect place to build a home.”
She swallowed, trying to find her voice. “You’re serious.”
“Never more so. Before I came to Little Longstone, I’d been discontented. Something was missing from my life, but I didn’t know what. Then I met you. One touch from you and I knew. You are what was missing. So now, the only questions are-Do you feel the same way I do? Do you want the same things I do? And do you want to share your life with me?”
She actually felt the blood drain from her face. He meant it. Really, truly meant it. He loved her. Wanted to marry her. It was unbelievable. “My God,” she whispered.
Alarm flickered in his eyes. “Bloody hell, you’ve gone pale. I don’t think that’s good.”
A laugh escaped her, one that turned into a sob. His alarm grew. “Oh, God, you’re crying. I know that’s not good.”
Another laugh and sob. “I’m not crying. I’m…stunned. And deliriously happy.” She set down her flowers and paper then framed his face between her hands. “I feel exactly the same way you do-I love you so much I can barely breathe. And I want the same things you do-to build a beautiful home together in Little Longstone. And I want, more than anything, to share my life with you.”