… he was holding my legs apart…
… strong, so strong. The grip of his fingers was so strong, his nails bit into my skin even through the gloves I know he was wearing, dug into my very bones…
… he cupped my cheek with this obscene gentleness, and then I felt his teeth…
… he was squeezing my breasts and I could hear him breathing, panting…
… his nails dug into me…
… he slapped me, and I felt-
– the ring he wore tore her flesh, laid it open along her jawline. She could feel the warm wetness of her own blood trickling down over her throat, feel him hanging over her like some monstrous creature out of her nightmares. Part of her was glad he'd wrapped the nightgown around her head in a blindfold, because she was terrified to see his face, to see the animal he'd become. But she was even more terrified of what he was going to do to her now that he had her helpless. She felt his hands roughly tying her wrist to the bedpost just as he'd tied the other one, and a low moan of protest and anguish throbbed in her bruised throat.
Bobby… don't, please… Bobby, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't mean-
Maggie came out of it with a start, hearing an odd little whimper that at first she didn't even recognize as coming from her own throat. With shaking hands, she wiped at the tears on her face, looking around her to make certain there was no one near as well as to ground herself once more in the here and now.
A peaceful scene. A park mostly deserted on this Wednesday afternoon in November, a bit damp and chilly, but unthreatening. Quiet.
Safe? Probably not, but for the moment she was safe, surely. For the moment.
But it was nevertheless several long and unsettling minutes before the overwhelming terror and strange sense of guilt finally left her, before her breathing steadied and the hot pressure of tears eased.
Before she could nerve herself to look down at what she'd drawn.
Hands. A man's hands reaching out for something or someone, raw-boned in their brutal strength. Awful in their sick, grasping hunger. Large, sinewy, ugly. With sparse black hairs sprinkled across the backs and even onto the fingers. Nails that were surprisingly long but ragged because he bit them.
Because he bit them…
The fleeting memory, wispy as smoke, drifted away, and Maggie was left staring down at the hands she'd drawn. So unique she knew she'd recognize them instantly if she saw them in the flesh. But otherwise there was nothing to identify them-except the rings.
On the right hand was a big gold ring, inset with some kind of stone.
On the left hand was a wedding band.
Maggie stared down at the sketch for a long time, her gaze locked on the hands that had tortured and maimed and murdered so many women.
"Bobby," she whispered.
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
But how could I have written it without knowing I had?" Jennifer protested. "I swear to you, I don't remember anything except finding the note in my car."
"Of course you don't remember," Quentin said soothingly. "I'm not saying you did it consciously, Jenn."
She scowled at him. "How else could I have done it?"
"It's called automatic writing. It's a way to free the unconscious mind, to tap into our own memories or abilities."
"You're saying I remembered those dates?"
"No, in your case I'm saying it was a latent ability you tapped into." He traded glances with Kendra. "We're not entirely sure where it comes from, but automatic writing sometimes shows up during stressful situations, especially in cases of extreme need. You tend to be intuitive, don't you?"
"Yeah, sometimes."
"That's usually the case. Someone with good intuition can often tap into unsuspected, latent abilities."
"Are you saying I'm psychic?"
"No, I'm saying that with the right trigger some time during the early years of your life, you might have been. There's a theory that most humans have some sort of extrasensory ability if we only know how to tap into it. Maybe left over from more primitive times, when we needed an edge just to survive one day to the next."
"I've heard that," Jennifer admitted.
Quentin nodded. "In this case, you badly wanted an answer, or at least something to point you in the right direction, so your subconscious tried to help, opening itself up-sort of like an antenna. Thoughts are just energy, after all, the electrical impulses of the brain."
She was still frowning. "My mind picked up somebody else's thoughts?"
"Caught the gist of them, let's say." He frowned as he thought of those two dates. "The bare gist."
"And those thoughts just happened to come from the rapist?"
"There are few coincidences in life, I've found. You're looking for him, and have been for months. He's… embedded in your consciousness. Science is only beginning to understand the way our brains work, but suppose the electrical energy of our individual minds has a signature as distinctive as a fingerprint. That's entirely possible. And maybe there's a part of our brains that can recognize those signatures, even if we can't do it consciously."
"So my subconscious sort of tracked his?"
"Maybe. It's certainly a possibility. In any case, we've found that the source automatic writing taps into tends to be surprisingly both specific and accurate."
She eyed him. "Has anybody ever told you that you are a very weird FBI agent?"
"Frequently."
"I'm not surprised."
John said, "But he is making sense. At least, I think he is. And none of us has been able to come up with any other explanation for how that note got into your car."
Jennifer sighed. "Great, that's just great. Now I not only talk to myself, but my subconscious mind is listening in on other minds."
"Only under extreme stress," Quentin reminded her gravely.
She got up. "I'm leaving now. I'm going out on the streets to talk-out loud-to some of the uniforms who patrol the area where Hollis Templeton was found."
"Still looking for your transient?"
"I'm going to find him, dammit. With absolutely no help from my subconscious."
Kendra asked, "Mind if I come along? I don't know if I'll be any help, since this is your territory rather than mine, but God knows I could use the fresh air and exercise. If I stare at this laptop much longer, I'll either go to sleep or go nuts."
Jennifer barely hesitated. "Sure. I'd welcome the company."
"Don't get into trouble," Quentin told his partner.
"Without you along," she responded politely, "how on earth would I?"
"Ouch," John murmured.
"She's mean when she loses sleep," Quentin told him.
Kendra wiggled her fingers gently at her partner and followed a grinning Jennifer from the room.
Quentin sighed. "I don't think Jennifer quite bought the automatic-writing explanation. Sometimes I forget how hard this sort of thing is for most people to accept."
"But you do believe that's where the note came from?"
"Oh, yeah."
"Then am I wrong in thinking the chances are the rapist was somewhere close by when Jennifer… tuned in on him?"
"You caught that, huh?" Quentin smiled. "Yeah, probably. Distance is usually a factor, so it's likely he was nearby. That's why Kendra's tagging along with Jenn. We don't figure this is the sort of guy who hangs around police stations because cops fascinate him; if he was here, it was because he was watching someone."
"Jennifer?"
"Maybe. He might well consider grabbing a cop to be the ultimate challenge."
"But it could have been any woman entering or leaving this building?"
"Of course. Or any woman in the general area, for that matter. There's no way to know for sure."
"Figures." John looked at his watch again and said restlessly, "I know there hasn't been a lot of time and virtually no new information, but are you two profilers getting a handle on the way this animal's mind works?"