Maggie watched him broodingly. "And yet you know what those decisions and choices are going to be. Which argues that fate is set, my destiny planned-and there is no such thing as free will."
"Then let's call it the illusion of free will."
"You can be very maddening sometimes, you know that?"
"You tell me so often enough." Beau disappeared into the kitchen for a few minutes and returned with two canned soft drinks. "This stuff is very bad for us," he said vaguely. "I read it somewhere." He handed her a can and sat down across from her to pop the top of his own.
Maggie followed suit. "You swear to me you can't tell me who the rapist is?"
Beau frowned. "There's no sense of identity, and I can't see his face. That's something I would tell you if I could, Maggie, believe me. There's nothing in the seer's handbook about protecting monsters."
"He is that, you know. Inhuman."
"I know."
"I have to stop him."
"You mean you have to try."
"Yes. Yes, of course that's what I mean."
"You're helping, Maggie."
"Am I? I don't have a sketch yet."
"Maybe not, but you're helping those women. If they have any kind of a life when this is over, it'll be largely due to you."
"Then why don't I feel better?"
Quietly, he said, "Because you've let yourself get too close to them. You won't be able to do this much longer if you don't back away a bit. Try to stop feeling everything they feel."
"Teach me how to do that and I'll give it a shot." She laughed, but the sound held no amusement. "We're running out of time. It's only going to get worse from here on out, Beau, we both know that."
"Even so, stop trying to carry all of the load yourself. You can't do this alone, I've told you. You have to trust someone else to help you."
"Someone other than you."
"I'm… outside the loop. My job is to offer cryptic warnings, remember?"
"Yeah, right."
Beau smiled slightly, but it was sympathetic rather than humorous. "I wish I could do more."
"Then do more, dammit."
"The seer handbook, remember? We all have to play by the rules, Maggie. Putting one foot carefully in front of the other, testing the ground, feeling our way, studying the signs. So wary of doing something that might make things even worse. You've been doing that too. Otherwise you would have told them the truth a long time ago."
"And how am I supposed to tell them the truth? Andy, the other cops? How will they ever understand? Hell-how will they even believe me?"
"When you don't quite believe it yourself,' he murmured.
"It isn't an easy thing to believe, to accept."
"I know."
"You could be wrong about it," she said, more of a question than a statement.
"I really wish I was, Maggie. For your sake." He watched her for a moment in silence, then said, "Is Garrett here yet?"
"Yes. He was at the station yesterday. Wanted to talk to me about Christina."
"Did you tell him?"
"The truth? No. I lied. I looked that man in the eye and lied to him about his sister's death."
"Why?"
"Because… I don't know why. Because he wouldn't suffer less for knowing the truth. Because he'd blame himself for something he did, or failed to do. Because Christina wouldn't want him to know. Because he wouldn't believe me." She lifted her drink in a mocking salute. "Or maybe just because I'm a coward."
"I don't think that was it."
"Don't you? I'm beginning to wonder. I'm afraid, Beau. I'm scared to death."
"Of the future?"
"Of now. What if I'm not strong enough? Or smart enough, or quick enough? I wasn't before."
"You will be this time."
"Is that from the seer? Or just from you?"
"From me."
Maggie sighed. "That's what I thought." She brooded in silence for several minutes, then said abruptly, "Garrett. You're wrong about him."
"Am I?"
"Yes."
"Well," Beau said affably, "I've been wrong before. Not often, mind you, but it has been known to happen. Time will tell, won't it, Maggie?"
"Yeah," she said. "Yeah, time will tell."
Andy Brenner had been a cop almost fifteen years. He loved the work, even though it had cost him his marriage-which wasn't exactly an unusual price for cops to pay. Half the guys in the department were either divorced or trying to make a second marriage work better than the first one had. And the female officers didn't seem to have it any easier.
Like most of the spouses, Andy's had hated the long hours and lousy pay, the stress of knowing her husband waded in filth virtually every day and might not come home except in a flag-draped box. But, even more than that, Kathy had hated his commitment to his job.
Well, Andy could hardly change that. Hell, he couldn't even apologize for it. A cop wasn't much good to anybody if he wasn't dedicated, was he?
No.
Which was why he was staying late yet again on this Friday night. Going over files he'd already studied so many times the information was practically embedded in his brain cells. Only now there was nobody waiting for him at home, pacing the floor or drinking too much wine after a supper alone.
"Andy?"
He looked up. "I thought you left hours ago, Scott."
Scott Cowan shook his head. "No, Jenn and I were just in the back digging through some of the old files." He was holding a dingy gray folder in his hands.
"What the hell for?"
"Just following up on a hunch."
"A hunch about what? The rapist?" Not, Andy thought, that there was much chance it was about anything else; the case possessed all of them these days.
"Well, yeah."
"So? Let's hear it."
Scott hadn't been a detective long enough to have a lot of faith in his hunches, and he reddened a bit under Andy's gaze. "Well, I know we fed all the information we've got on this rapist through the computer to look for similar crimes, but Jenn and me were talking today and we started wondering about the old files. Some of those files go back fifty years and more, and none of the info is in the system."
Patiently, Andy said, "I doubt our rapist was attacking women fifty years ago, Scott. That'd make him-what?-seventy-five or eighty now? Not even a little blue pill could help a geezer like that get it up."
"No, that's not the way we're thinking. Something the shrink said at the meeting yesterday. She said this rapist seemed to have his rituals well established, as if he'd been at this much longer than the six months we know he's been active. So we thought he might have found himself some ready-made rituals, copying a much older string of crimes."
"Taking the information right out of our old files?"
"Not necessarily. Jenn checked, and some of this stuff has been written up in books over the years, especially the unsolved crimes. It's a popular subject, Andy, you know that. And it's at least a possibility that our guy could be following somebody else's game plan, isn't it?"
"Anything's possible." Andy pursed his lips for a moment as he considered the idea. "Not bad, Scott. It's an angle we haven't considered. Find anything yet?"
"We're not sure."
"Something else interesting?"
"Something peculiar. At least we thought so. Maybe you can say different." He opened the file and extracted a yellowed sheet of paper, which he handed across the desk. "Just for the hell of it, we started with the really old files, those from more than fifty years ago. Specifically from 1934. Jenn found this in one of them, among some case notes of a murder investigation."