I didn’t need prodding. Tom promised he’d take care of Arch and Marla, and especially Todd, when they returned.
At the door of 1019, I identified myself to a young Jefferson County deputy and asked to see Barton Reed. The deputy inquired about ID, meticulously scrutinized my driver’s license, then told me to go on in. I knocked gently. From within came a groan.
If Reed didn’t want company, I would leave immediately. Even aggressively snowboarding convicts deserved hospital privacy. I pushed open the surprisingly heavy metal door.
A single small light illuminated the form in the bed. Barton Reed’s right leg was thickly bandaged and suspended. His head and left arm were also swathed in gauze. Flecks of dried blood clung to his forehead and cheek. All of his jewelry had been removed; tiny dark holes freckled his ears. The earrings lay in a dish on a metal bureau. On top was a silver cross on a tarnished chain.
“Barton?” I whispered.
He was breathing heavily. “Henh?”
“Do you want me to leave? I’m just here to visit.”
He mumbled something that sounded like, “Who you?”
“Goldy Schulz,” I replied. I moved closer to the bed so he could see me. One of his eyelids was blackened, swollen shut. The other eye—clouded and blue— opened and regarded me blearily. I went on: “I first saw you last summer. At Aspen Meadow Health Foods. You were getting an herbal cancer treatment.” He shook his head, and I wondered how much painkiller they’d given him. “And I was at Killdeer today. I saw the accident.”
His groan was deep and guttural. “You from … the church?”
The question took me back. “The church?”
His face was sheened with sweat. “I’m gonna die.”
“Of course you’re not,” I said, panicked. “Let me call a doc—”
“Nah.” The sole blue eye assessed me. “Why’re you here?”
“I just wanted to see you—”
He sighed. “Is she dead?”
I swallowed, then said, “Who?”
“Lady I hit.” His bulging eye questioned me.
The lady I hit? So he didn’t know Eileen Druckman? Had he not been aiming directly for her? “No. She’s hurt, but hanging in there.”
“Is he … dead?”
I hesitated again, torn between wanting to get information and trying to be pastoral to a man who believed he was dying. “Who?”
“Kee-rist! You an owl or somethin’?” This question sent him into a fit of spasmodic coughing.
“Gilkey?” I said when his paroxyms abated. “Were you aiming for Jack Gilkey?”
Reed started coughing again. “Is he dead?” he repeated hoarsely.
“Do you mean Jack Gilkey? No, he’s not dead. Do you mean Doug Portman? Yes. Did you hit him, too, the way you hit that lady?”
“I’m dying,” Barton Reed repeated dully. “There’s no hope.”
“There’s always hope.”
He turned his head away.
Since he didn’t seem to want to talk about Jack Gilkey or Doug Portman, I said brightly, “You’re quite a snowboarder. Maybe when you get better—”
“She wouldn’t do the half-pipe with me anymore. Said she was hurt but that was … crap. Just chickened out.”
I knew better than to say Who? a third time. I decided to try the Rogerian technique, one of the few remembered remnants from a mostly-useless psych degree. The famous shrink Carl Rogers had maintained that you should always repeat what the patient says. See where it leads. I repeated dutifully, “She said she was hurt.”
“She was the best. Got hurt. Wanted to be famous. Never happened.”
“It never happened.”
“Is there an echo in here?” Barton turned from the window and batted his good eye at me. A puzzled look came over his face. “Is he dead? I gotta know.”
I folded my hands and tried to think of what to say. Barton Reed was confused. He was convinced he was at death’s door. He craved information or absolution or something, and I just didn’t know how to provide it.
He groaned. “You from the church?” he repeated.
“Yes, I am.”
“Then pray for me.”
I took his bandaged hand in both of mine and clasped it. No matter what, give what you’ve got, Rorry and I always told our class. God can take a couple of sardines and five hard rolls and turn it into a feast, and God can help you pray with an incoherent criminal in physical and spiritual pain.
“Our Father,” I began; he mouthed most of the prayer with me. When we finished, he was asleep, and I hadn’t learned who “he” was in his insistent question: Is he dead? I figured I could come back and visit him the next day, and hope he’d be more coherent.
But it did not happen. The next morning, Tom and I received a calclass="underline" Barton Reed had died of a heart attack at midnight.
CHAPTER 19
That morning, Thursday, after we got the call, I prayed for Barton Reed. Then I cleared my mind and did my yoga before pulling myself into the shower. I couldn’t focus. Again and again I saw Barton Reed, crouched, hell-bent, racing down the slope, sending Eileen sprawling. The previous night, I had not been allowed to see Eileen. The doctor told Todd his mother was doing so well she could probably be out of Intensive Care today. Todd, subdued and shaken, had come home with us. He’d spent the night in Arch’s room, in Julian’s old bed.
Jack Gilkey, his eyes red and swollen, had informed us that he was spending the night at the hospital. He asked Tom to call the bistro so someone else could do the lunch shift the next day. Before we left Lutheran, the Hispanic family took notice of poor Jack. They told us the grandfather of their clan had been in a car accident, and they, too, would be spending the night in the waiting room. Diego offered Jack hot homemade tamales. The last I saw of Jack, he was holding a tamale in one hand and a Dos Equis in the other.
Now, as I toweled off, I wondered how he was doing. Sleeping on a couch always seems convenient until you’ve done it for six or eight hours. I slipped into warm clothes and descended to the kitchen. Tom, who was poring over a plumbing manual, set it down to fix me a double espresso topped with a soft dollop of whipped cream. I sipped it and stared out the bay window in my no-longer-commercial kitchen. Too much had happened. Too many people had been hurt. No break, no light, appeared on the horizon. Outside, as if echoing my gloom, a steady snowfall that had begun during the night showed no sign of letting up.
“I’m taking the boys to school,” Tom announced. “They want breakfast at McDonald’s first. Can I bring you something?”
“No, thanks. Are they sure they want to eat out? I have to put together breakfast dishes for today’s show, and I can offer them something good in about half an hour.…”
Tom touched my shoulder. “Todd says he doesn’t want to sit around. He’s asked the doctor to call him at school if there is an emergency.” He smiled mischievously. “And both boys are desperate to get their Spenser presentation over with so they can have their Christmas party. Nothing like the lure of Christmas cookies.”
“Oh, Lord!” I exclaimed. “I forgot to make anything—”
Tom picked up a foil-covered platter from the marble counter and crinkled up a corner. Underneath the silvery wrapping lay dozens of crisp brown Chocolate Coma Cookies, each one studded with dried tart cherries, toasted almonds, and dark chocolate chips.
“What in the—?”
“Miss G., you wanted your recipe tested, didn’t you? After I finished putting in the drains—”
“Tom! You’re done?”