—CAPTAIN W. E. FAIRBAIRN
Payne said: ‘Our own Colonel Applegate set up the training programme, but the start point was him watching a Limey, said Captain Fairbairn, demonstrating his stuff on attackers who ended up in the laps of the audience, all of them senior military officers.’
‘It looked effective.’
Gavriela realized her analysis was likely to offend Payne – as in, how dare a woman offer an opinion on the matter? – but he nodded before adding an explanation that surprised her.
‘The government are worried about after the war, when the soldiers are civilians again, but trained in silent killing and the rest. That’s why G-men are being trained harder than anyone, though we’re expecting to remain Stateside. It’s for later.’
In Britain, planning was geared towards surviving the war or winning it, not beyond.
Payne delivered other tough-minded observations on the political situation, but when he and Gavriela finally ended up in Grand Central where his wife was waiting on the concourse, he showed another side of himself: embracing his wife with no regard to anyone around, as though the rest of the world had disappeared. Gavriela thought of her night with Brian and shook her head.
‘This is my wife, Sadie. Sadie, this is the Gabby I told you about.’
‘Oh, nice to meet you, Gabby.’
‘Er, yes …’
The station announcer recited a sing-song of poetic names – Poughkeepsie, New Haven – and Sadie said: ‘They’re going our way, except we’re going by automobile.’
When they reached the car, Payne seemed content to sit in the passenger seat while Sadie drove. From the back seat, Gavriela watched the sureness of Sadie’s movements, aware that this was another world in many ways. Outside the car window, much of the landscape was as alien as the Paynes’ manners. From the desert around Los Alamos she had come back to Manhattan’s skyscrapers, and soon enough the green of rural Connecticut as Sadie drove them through the countryside. Finally they pulled up before the perfect wooden-fronted house that was home to the couple. Payne got out first, rounded the car, and held open the door for his wife to exit, even though she had driven. Something about the gesture made Gavriela want to weep.
Two police officers came along the street, hats in hand, unbuttoning their tunics.
‘Hey, good buddy.’
‘You made it back on time.’
Gavriela got out, and suffered the introductions – the cops were Olly and Chet, and they were coming off duty – before Sadie led her through the house and into the kitchen. It was movie-perfect, down to the pleated curtains and the lawn beyond, with whitewashed fence.
‘I’ll get the boys their beers,’ said Sadie, ‘and then we’ll talk.’
Once the men were settled in the front parlour, bottles in hand, Sadie came back, set coffee to making, and sat down at the table with Gavriela. She wiped a microscopic mark from the oiled tablecloth.
‘Charles tells me you’ve been ill quite a lot.’
‘I … yes.’ Gavriela had noticed Sadie’s gaze on her ringless left hand.
If I were Polish, the ring would be on the other hand. If I had a ring.
In England, it was better to be thought Polish than German, and she often was. The same probably applied here.
‘Sick in the mornings particularly?’ said Sadie.
‘Maybe.’
Gavriela could hear the joylessness of her own voice.
‘There are ways’ – Sadie glanced towards the hallway – ‘of making sure things don’t go to term. You’re not showing yet, so it’s early days.’
‘I don’t—’
Gavriela turned her head, but none of the men had left the front parlour.
‘This isn’t legal, is it?’ she added. ‘What you’re suggesting?’
‘Oh, my dear.’ Sadie took hold of Gavriela’s hands. ‘I’m not suggesting anything. I’m trying to find out what you want.’
‘Oh.’
Charles Payne was clearly a good husband, adoring Sadie and adored by her. Could Brian occupy a place like that in Gavriela’s life?
I should try, for the—
Even the thought was hard to complete.
For the baby’s sake.
At least she had three choices: marriage, send the baby to an orphanage, or the whispered option that Sadie offered.
‘I need to sleep on it,’ she said.
‘Of course.’ Sadie patted the back of her hand. ‘First thing in the morning, then. You’re off to Washington in a couple of days, is that right?’
‘That’s the schedule.’
Sadie blinked, perhaps because Gavriela had pronounced schedule in the English rather than American fashion.
‘Come on, and I’ll show you your room. Dinner’s in an hour.’
‘You’re so kind, and your house is so lovely, and your marriage and … everything.’
Gavriela was crying.
I thought I’d forgotten how.
But now she had a link to the future growing inside her.
After breakfast, Payne – Gavriela had begun calling him Charles here in his house, but still thought of him as Payne – excused himself, saying he needed to read the paper alone in the front parlour, where he could concentrate on the funnies. Gavriela wanted to tell him he did not need to do that, not for her sake; but she did not have the words. She watched as he adjusted his braces – suspenders: American English was as bad as Schweizerdeutsch – and checked his tie and cuff-links, as though the New York Times demanded formal dress for reading. Then he went out with paper in hand.
Sadie said: ‘He’s being diplomatic.’
‘I know. You love him very much.’
‘Of course I do. Not everyone can be so lucky.’
It was an indirect way of asking, and Gavriela appreciated it.
‘I don’t know whether …’ She put her hand across her abdomen. ‘I think he’s a good man, the … You know.’
The father. Sadie nodded.
‘A child needs a stable family,’ Gavriela added, ‘and I don’t know, but … I want to try.’
Sadie’s smile was beaming.
‘Good choice,’ she said.
Afterwards, Sadie went out to the front parlour while Gavriela freshened up upstairs. When Gavriela descended, Payne was waiting in the hallway, looking more relaxed than before.
‘I’ve got a trip lined up for you,’ he said. ‘For your last day here.’
‘Oh,’ said Gavriela. ‘All right. Thank you.’
Payne winked at Sadie, and she grinned.
They’re so wonderful.
Later, as Payne drove, he taught Gavriela local pronunciation from fahchrissake to wazitoyuh, huh?, and expressions from ‘doing a Brodie’ to ‘twenty-three skiddoo’, the latter explained as they drove past the narrow-angled Flatiron Building. Gavriela smiled and occasionally laughed out loud as they left the city and headed for New Jersey – Noo Joizey – eventually to arrive in Princeton’s clean, leafy avenues. Payne parked as close to Fine Hall as he could, went inside and came back with a blunt-faced older man and a student dressed in suit and bow tie.
‘We’re your escort,’ said the older man. ‘This way, Dr Woods.’
Could this be what she hoped? As they neared the building they were headed for, beautiful violin music drifted out to meet them.
‘Brahms,’ said Gavriela. ‘Played perfectly.’
The rumour was that his playing was awful. Perhaps she had the wrong idea about what was to happen here; or perhaps she should not listen to gossip. Then the music stopped, and angry words followed.
‘Uh-oh,’ said the older man.
‘Sometimes,’ said Payne, ‘you hurl abuse, you get a smack in the kisser in return.’
‘It won’t be like that.’
‘It better not be.’
They went inside, and knocked on the study door. When the great man came out, his white hair formed a mane in disarray, while his creased bloodhound features were avuncular, as Gavriela had imagined. His baggy clothes were rumpled.
‘This is Dr Gavriela Wolf,’ said Payne, surprising her.
Her hand trembled as she reached out to shake.