"It's not a problem, Tom, I don't know why you're making it a problem. We just go a little closer, have a look around…"
"You lied to me."
"I didn't lie."
"Marie, what do you care now? After twenty years, for God's sake, what could you possibly careabout that man? I don't. I don't give a damn where he is, what he does, I don't want to meet him, I don't want to know anything about him."
"Are you afraid?"
"No, I'm not afraid, but—"
"Liar yourself."
"Do you want him to rule your life, Marie? Is what happened twenty years ago going to govern your whole damned career?"
Marie's hand was in motion, and he'd gotten faster over the years. He blocked it. It stung, even so.
"Don't you lecture me!" Marie hissed. "Don't you lecture me, Thomas!"
"'Bygones be bygones.' Hell!"
He wasn't looking for the second try. He didn't intend the force of the hand that blocked it.
"Cut it out, Marie!"
"Don't you lift a hand to me, don't you ever lift a hand, you hear me? Damnyou!"
"I said cut it out!" He intercepted the third try, realized he was holding too tight and let go. "I'm not him, dammit, Marie, I'm not him, God, stop— stopit, Marie!"
She got a breath. She was absolutely paper white, staring at him with white-edged eyes, mouth open—he was shaking. She could still do that to him, he didn't know why, except that she could make him mad and that when he was mad he didn't think. He could hit her in his temper and maybe hurt her, maybe wantto hurt her, that was the fear that paralyzed him.
She got her breath. She stared at him. "Whose side are you on?"
"I didn't know there was a side!"
"You damned well believe there's a side! Don't you talk to Mischa behind my back! I didn't have to have you. I didn't have to keep you. And what's fair—what's fair, Tom, your talking to Mischa, when Mischa never did one damned thing to help me, my own ship never did a damned thing to help me—like it was all myfault—"
"I know what you feel, Marie, I don't blame you, but you don't know—"
"You don't know what I feel! You don't know any part of what I feel. Don't give me that!"
"I don't want this ship to leave you in some station psych unit!"
"I'm not stupid, boy! Does Mischa think I'm stupid?"
"Mischa doesn't have a damned thing to do with my being here, I'm here for you, Marie, for God's sake, don't act like this! Listen to me!"
"Get away from me!" She shoved him off, ran along the frontages, and he ran after her, caught her, but she started hitting him.
"Marie,—"
"Hey!" somebody said, a voice he didn't know. Someone grabbed him hard from behind and shoved him, Marie broke and ran, and he was staring at an angry spacer a head taller and a good deal wider, yelling, "What's your problem?"
"That's my mother, dammit!"
The man grabbed him by the collar. "You treat your mama like that?"
"She's in trouble! Let me go!"
"What trouble?"
"Let go!" He broke the hold and ducked, ran toward Corinthian'sberth, and stopped, having lost all sight of Marie. Someone came running behind him, and he swung around, held up both hands in token of peace, ducked the man's attempt to grab him again.
"I'm telling you that's my mother, it's crew business, I'm not after a fight—just leave me the hell alone, she's breaking regs, I got to find her!"
He shoved the man off, ran down the dock closer to Corinthian, hoping he'd find some hidey-hole Marie might have found—there were bars and he skidded into one, hoping for a service door—saw one, but it was behind the bar. He kited back along the wall as the damnfool spacer came in looking for him. He slipped out the door behind the man's back, then ran down the row to the second bar over, and into the far dim back of the room, in case the man should give it another try. He was out of breath, hoped the man hadn't called the cops. He saw a public phone and went to it—it was too far around the station rim to rely on the pocket-com. He punched in the universal number for ship-lines, Sprite'sberth at orange 19, then the internal number for bridge-corn.
"This is Tom Hawkins. Put me through to the captain, this is an extreme emergency."
Mischa came on, immediately, with, "Where did she lose you?"
"Green 10," he said, shamefaced. God, not even a What happened?
"Kid, stay put, do you copy? Where are you right now?"
He had to look up at the bar name on the back wall. "The Andromeda. "
"You don't budge from there. Do you copy? Don't budge. Saja's on the dock. He's had you in sight. He's been trying to catch up to you since you left, damn your hide."
Chasing us, he thought. Why? They had the com. Why didn't they just call us?
"Yes, sir," he said. "I'll be here. " Imagination painted what Marie might be up to, trying to get on board Corinthian, lying in ambush for their crew on dockside—getting caught at it, and arrested, because Corinthianhad probably gathered all sorts of evidence on Marie's intentions over the years, if Mischa was right about the messages she'd sent.
He hung up. He followed the edge of the room, around the tables, not to leave the bar, but because he wanted not to be visible from the door. Traffic was moderate in the establishment. A group of spacers came in and went to the bar. He spotted a darkness about the patch. It could be Corinthian. He couldn't tell from his vantage; and the man that was following him hadn't shown. He thought he might just sit down in the corner and order a drink, but it wasn't a table-service kind of place, you had to go up to the bar, and he wasn't eager to go up there with the newcomers.
He took a look outside, a careful look-see, anxious whether there was any sight of Spritepersonnel, or whether the man who'd followed him into one bar was still searching.
No sign of either. But he saw Marie, down the row, just standing in front of some shop, looking across the wide dock to Corinthian'soperations zone.
He could go back and call Mischa. He could lose her, that way. He stayed where he was, thinking Saja and his group could spot him that way, and thinking to keep Marie in sight.
But Marie started to walk along the frontage, still in the direction she'd been going, with consistent looks toward Corinthian'sarea.
Stalking them. He stood watching, looked frantically for Saja to show up, and. saw Marie getting further and further away.
Screw it, he thought. Mischa knew where he was better than he was going to know where Marie was if he didn't move. He started walking as fast as he could—he figured running would draw attention he didn't want. He just tried to look like someone on business, without making the noise that would alarm Marie or drive her to cover down some service access that on some docksides you found unlocked.
She stopped and took something from her pocket, he was scared to death it was a gun; but it was an optic of some sort, maybe a camera, he wasn't sure. She was looking toward Corinthianand he took the chance to run, as lightly and quietly as he could, in her direction.
She saw him at the last moment, spun about in alarm and then scowled at him.
"Dammit," he panted. "What are you looking at?"
"Damn yourself. The answer's Miller Transship, 23 green, no long distance from 10. They're onloading. But that's a Miller company transport. You'd know that son of a bitch was going to deal all inside."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean he's not hiring outside help. No freight handling by any outside party. He sells to Miller, he buys from Miller, Miller's his transport, his commissioned supplier…"