Then it was all behind me and, with the Tempo gurgling for mercy, I was darting up onto the expressway with the big river to my side.
It was summer and noon and the city was a furnace. And the Tempo’s air conditioner was no more than a husk in the dashboard. But now I was rattling past the pinnacled clocktower of Union Station, and the wind through the open window fluttered my shirtsleeves and cooled my face. The Tempo was hacking like an old man, but it was tacking like a pro. Only I could have made it fly that way. I was a bullet, I was a hummingbird. Boy wonders in their Jaguars were snorting my exhaust as if it were cocaine. In minutes-it seemed like seconds-I shot down the exit ramp and rocketed right into the center of Dogtown. Just a quick swing by Pocum’s, I thought, and I could still make it home in time or thereabouts.
Well, I confess, my blood ran thick with guilt. As I cruised onto the dilapidated avenue, past the dingy brown stores, toward the weary old gazebo slouching on the grass meridian, I felt foolish and depressed. What difference does it make, at this point? I asked myself. But I wished that I had not done it. I wished that I had gone straight home. Then, where the avenue turned in the middle distance, I spotted the big oval Amoco sign that marked the gas station where Frank Beachum had worked. The actual place where the killer worked, I thought, where the condemned man worked. And it gave me a little thrill. I do love a crime scene. And I said to myself, Hey, here I am. And I was lost in soaking up the milieu of what I already thought of as “my murder, my execution.”
Then there was Pocum’s, just there to my right.
The grocery was a one-story red-brick bunker with a dingy, brick-red awning overhanging the sidewalk. It was the last in a line of small stores-an appliance store, a hair stylist’s, a pet shop-that looked pretty much just like it. The parking lot was on the far side at the corner of the intersection with Art Hill. I turned in there and slowed the Tempo down.
The car sputtered as I rolled across the lot. This is it, I thought. I felt I almost knew the place. There, to my right, was where Frank Beachum had come running out the door. He had crossed the edge of the lot just behind me, hurrying to his car. There, against the long side of the building, a dirty brick wall with blackened windows, was the soda machine Nancy Larson had used. I pulled the Tempo up alongside it and stopped. There it is.
The moment the car stopped moving, the heat of the day closed around me. The interior became stifling at once. Sweat collected under my arms and ran down my temples into my shirt collar. I looked out the side window at the soda machine.
It stood alone against the wall. Its chesty convex front displayed cartoons of fizzy bubbles and bottles happily popping their caps. Nearby, a small Bud Light sign shone forlornly, red, white and blue. Other than that, and the windows, the dingy wall was bare.
I wiped my palms on my pants leg. Nancy Larson must have reached through her window to use the machine, I thought. It was set up for that, so you could buy your soda without leaving your car. Then she had put the car into reverse just as Beachum, with Amy Wilson choking in her own blood on the floor behind him, exited the store, turned right and rushed into her path.
I slid the Tempo forward into a parking space and killed the engine. I stepped out and felt the sun press down on me, making me squint behind my glasses. I dragged my hand across my forehead and walked across the lot to the store itself.
All my guilt had now, for the moment, been forgotten. My wife and our impending disaster were pushed to one side of my mind. I felt excited. I love a crime scene. I do. A murder scene especially. It’s like the set of a movie, as familiar somehow as the movie’s star. You’ve read about the people who killed and died here. You’ve suffered with the victim and clucked for her poor relatives grieving on TV. You’ve scowled at the villain and asked yourself what the world was coming to. And now you were there, at the very site of the drama.
I came around in front of the glass storefront. I stopped a moment on the sidewalk, the traffic on the avenue whispering by behind me. There, in the grocery’s window, just over a line of withering oranges and tomatoes, just next to a row of dusty bottles of olive oil, was a sign, hand-lettered in marker on a sheet of typing paper. An Eye For An Eye! the sign read. Beachum has to die. There was a drawing beneath the words: a dripping syringe with a death’s head on the tube. I felt my eyes shining as I looked at it. I could get some good quotes for my sidebar here. I’m telling you: I love this stuff.
I went into the store.
A ribbon of sleigh bells tinkled from the lintel of the glass door as I pushed it open. They tinkled again as the door swung shut behind me. I felt the stale air-conditioned air surround me, cool me. I looked around at dully lighted aisles, shelves of jars and boxes. The counter was to my left. A candy tray hung on it and a fishbowl full of sun lotion tubes stood on top. She’d been standing right there, I thought, right behind that counter. Amy Wilson. Her belly curved with her baby, her hands thrown up uselessly. Please not that! She had dropped down behind that very counter with a bullet in her throat.
Now, another young woman stood there. Disappointingly unattractive, not fitting Amy’s description at all. She was obese, with a sullen, bloated face. Her huge breasts and belly bulged through the cotton of her white T-shirt. She raised her eyes from the tabloid she was reading. Man Gives Birth To Alien Through His Nostril. That sort of thing.
“Help you?” she said.
At the sound of her voice, another woman glanced up at me from the far end of an aisle. Small and pinched-looking with frosted hair done up in a bright bandanna, with green slacks pressing a shade too tightly around her middle. She had been edging along the detergent shelf, the handle of a red plastic basket looped over her arm.
I gave the counterwoman my Handsome Guy Smile. “I’m a reporter,” I said. “With the News.”
These were magic words, as I suspected they would be. The counterwoman left her tabloid and waddled toward me, breathing hard as she moved. The woman in the bandanna started sidling my way resistlessly.
I saw now that the counterwoman was wearing a button on her T-shirt. It had red block letters on it: Remember Amy.
I pointed at it. “This is the place where the Wilson girl was killed, isn’t it?”
“It sure is,” said the counterwoman proudly. Her wattles unfolded and hung loose as she stood a little straighter. She fingered her button, turned it for display. “She was right behind this same counter. Almost six years ago exactly.”
“Wow,” I said, shaking my head. I gave the store an appreciative once-over, ceiling to grubby floor, as if it were a showplace.
“We’re gonna get our own back tonight though,” said the counterwoman. “That is, if the damned lawyers don’t get in the way.”
“Yeah.” I ambled over to her, to the counter. Please not that, I thought. “Like your sign says. In the window.”
“You bet,” said the woman. “Mr. Pocum put that up there himself. He says the needle’s too good for him. For Beachum. Just putting him to sleep like that is too damn good for him. Amy didn’t get any put to sleep. They oughta bring back the chair, that’s what I say, really let him have a jolt of something.”
I greeted these philosophical musings with a contemplative frown. “Were you here when it happened?”
She shook her head regretfully. “Nah. We just moved into the neighborhood a couple years ago.”
“I was!” It was the other woman. She had come out of the aisle now. She joined us before the fatal counter, excitement brightening her pinched face. “I mean, I was living in the neighborhood at the time. My house isn’t three blocks away from the family. They live right over on Fairmount, not three blocks away. They still do. Right near me, three blocks. I used to see Amy on the street all the time. She was such a sweet girl.”