“Ach, there is dust here under the bed.” The wives thrashed. “Why did I never see it before? Why must I lie here on the floor looking at dust while she — the musical instrument — gets to sleep on the pillow? On my mother’s sheets. Does she think I am just her maid, hmm?”
The violins, viola, and violoncello said nothing to this unfair attack as the men pressed their cheeks to the smooth necks of the instruments and curled their fingers around them. But the next morning, at the rehearsal, it was hard to feel their customary joy.
Somewhere in the recesses of the first violinist’s flat, four discontented women threw pots around the kitchen, and the sounds of quarrels and complicity filled the air.
“Again,” commanded the first violinist in rehearsal. He had been distracted. “The first movement again.”
“But why?” The second violinist questioned.
“Silence.”
All four men laid their instruments aside. Never in the history of the Tolstoi Quartet had the authority and decision of the first violinist been questioned. “Because…,” the chief finally stuttered. “Because…” He could find no reason. Silently, he took off his glasses and wiped them, laying them on the music stand. All the men looked at one another. “My friends…,” began the first violinist with difficulty. “Oh, my friends…”
“Oh mein Gott!” the second violinist cried aloud in an agony of remorse and shame. “Forgive me! Forgive me,” “Shh,” said the cellist, laying a restraining hand on his knee. “It is normal,” added the viola player soothingly. “We begin again.”
And then, as if the interruption had never happened, the four men took up their instruments and played the first movement from the top. But the heart had gone out of them, and the instruments sounded dispirited.
“My friends…” The first violinist sighed as the four men put down their bows, and before they could turn the page and essay the second movement. “Nothing is normal,” muttered the cellist. He looked at his watch. It was almost time for lunch, that savory mixture of soups, dumplings, breads, and apple strudel that sustained the men through long rehearsals. “Maybe we should stop for the day.” The four men took out their cloths of red velvet and rubbed down their instruments, which lay inert and silent as little children. For they, too, were depressed at their rendition of the first movement. “It is nothing. We will play it again after lunch,” the men promised one another. But the instruments did not gleam with their usual luster, not even after their rubdowns.
Laying the instruments in their cases, the men did not shut the lids, but left everything as it was, the bows on the music stands, the pages of musical notes still gesturing wildly to them, and headed for the kitchen, where, as usual, they would sit down and eat amid the cheerfulness of scented steam.
As they trooped in single file, the men rubbed their hands in anticipation. “Here we are, my darlings!” sang out the first violinist, as he had every lunchtime for fifteen years. But silence greeted them. The kitchen was tidy and cold. No pots bubbling merrily on the stove. And the enamel kitchen table was unadorned. No tablecloth, no deep white bowls awaiting soup and gratitude. Nothing. The kitchen stood bare and clean and cheerless. Bewildered, the four men looked at one another. What was this? What was this terrible void?
“Where are you, my little dumplings?” the men sang out, as if playing a little game of hide-and-seek. They tiptoed around the room, into the pantry. “Where are you, our little mice? Our dearest ones? Our little strudels? Our sweet little legs of lamb?”
But there was no answer. Clasping their hands in front of them, the men coaxed. “Come out, come out, little darlings. Are you hiding from us, silly ones? Oh, come here our succulent pork chops, our sugar buns.”
Again, nothing but cold silence greeted them. “Now, my dearest ones, be reasonable,” said the first violinist, trying a sterner note. “You know it is lunchtime. And we must eat. This is enough of joking.” Still no answer. The men looked at one another. Their eyes widened and they began to feel frightened. “Come now, our Lebkuchen, this has gone on long enough.” The cold kitchen gave no answer, and the instruments, waiting in the parlor, were silent also. A vacancy filled the house.
Chapter 11 WHAT IS MISSING?
Soon all of Vienna knew the wives had gone. But where? That was a mystery. The men continued to practice as before, to give their concerts, and to travel together, sharing rooms. They could be seen walking together as a single body, each carrying an instrument, as if nothing had happened. Only — at night — some joy had gone from their sleeping. Although they lay freely now with their instruments, although beautiful music resounded at full voice from the bedrooms, there was something missing. It did not have the same sweetness, perhaps, as the piano sobs in the muffled nights attended by their wives.
And yet they would have said, if asked, that they were now happy. They could play music freely; they could rehearse until the small hours of the night — no one to complain or shout “I hate music!” at embarrassing intervals.
Only, there was the problem of food. Musicians, like everyone else, must eat. Or maybe they must eat even more. “For after all,” as the violist used to remind his wife at mealtimes, “I must eat for two.” Although some of the good women of Vienna, the same women who swooned over the men and their music in the grand concert hall, left casseroles at the violinist’s door, and although sometimes there would be found a large tureen of good chicken soup, there were many times when the men were obliged to live only on Sacher-Torte and Apfelstrudel purchased from the Café Mozart or the Hotel Sacher or one of the establishments that produced good strong coffee and cake. “Man does not live by cake alone,” reminded the cellist jokingly. The men grew nervous and thin.
“Gentlemen, something is missing,” the cellist announced gravely as, after a nearly spirited rendition of the third movement of a Brahms quartet during rehearsal, the men sat back for a moment and returned their instruments to their cases. Without music, the apartment was suspiciously quiet, and each man sighed, remembering the good meals that had awaited them so often at moments like this in the past. “Ach, how I miss Gudrun,” said the second violinist. “And Inge,” said the first violinist. “And I, too, my sweet little Ludi,” added the violist. “And Olga,” the cellist said. The men sighed, and their instruments shifted restlessly, twanging a bit awkwardly as they did so.
“Yes.” The violist sighed. “We must face this. Gentlemen”—he leaned forward portentously—“we are getting stale.”
“We are getting old,” whispered the second violinist. “Old!” Could it be true? Startled, the four men looked at one another in wonder. Yes, these dear faces were now lined. They all wore spectacles now to read the music. Hair, formerly tumultuous and passionate, was now almost white, thinning, and in the case of the cellist, it had gone completely. Their kindly faces were wrinkled, especially at the smile lines. How had this happened? Four ardent young men had, in the course of years, grown old.
“But we have always made beautiful music together,” said the first violinist. “Yes…And we will make more beautiful music.” The men smiled fondly at their instruments and patted them. “Don’t worry, my darlings, you will stay young forever.” The instruments preened, but the men looked at one another again.
Their final concert of the season was approaching, and only a few months were left to prepare it. As if one person, the Quartet regarded one another. “Yes…,” whispered the second violinist, already reading the thoughts of the chief. “Yes…”