“Good night.” The Quartet struggled into their coats and, embracing their instruments, descended into the soft night. “Fine boys,” they said again mildly as Michael stood pressed against his mother, regarding them gravely with great eyes. David, standing by his father, manfully shook their hands.
As if reading his memories, Adeline sighed now. “Ah, my David. Shall we ever hear such fine music again?”
David shook himself out of the past. “I don’t know, Mother,” he replied, forgetting to lie this time. “I don’t know.”
Both mother and son were silent. The spring air hovered somewhere, wafting to the far-off strains of music. Was it Mozart? No, it was a popular song on a tinny radio, down a gloomy corridor in a place where institutional food was being prepared.
“Well,” said Adeline, for once practical. “We must act ‘as if.’ And for that reason, I am rehearsing, even as I lie here. In case they should need me. In case, indeed, they meant it when they said we would play together in New York. It’s always best to be prepared, son.” The organized maternal side of Adeline, which occasionally surfaced, showed itself now. David felt the old moral lessons starting again.
“Of course,” he replied meekly. Then, more kindly, he said, standing up, “Of course they will play again. And you with them. It will be grand.” He put his hands in his pockets. “But now I must go. And you must practice. I will see that you get the score,” he promised. “And I will be back for the concert, you may be sure.”
“Good-bye,” Adeline replied absently as he quietly left the room. But her eyes were staring at something else, and her fingers were already beginning to move in chord-seeking clawlike gestures upon the folded edge of the sheet. She was humming to herself, humming so quietly that only Michael, lying close to her, pressing his very ashes against her living body, could hear.
Behind him as he left, David felt rather than heard the music going through Adeline’s mind. He was startlingly angry with his father for giving his mother such false hope. But since it was unthinkable to be angry with Herbert, David stopped the thought immediately, hurrying, now running with long, relieved strides through the streets of New York City toward the arms of Grand Central Station, which this time welcomed him joyously. The train was waiting when he arrived at the tracks, waiting just for him. And the old train sang on its rails, singing to the rhythm of Schubert, carrying David back to Washington, where he would spend days, weeks, and longer, hunched like a mole over old newspapers, magnifying glass in one hand, sorting carefully through all the old newspaper ads of Europe for those that advertised, in code, yet proudly, for additives: elixirs that, when ingested, would somehow deliver the attributes someone, a geneticist, for example, might crave.
“Be Smart.” “Get Lucky.” “Think Positively.” “Improve Your Memory.” “Develop Your Muscular Potential.” “Grow Hair in Only Twenty-one Days.” “Learn to Play Music in Twelve Easy Lessons.” “Enlarge Your Bust.” “Become the Master of Your Fate.” “Find True Love.”
These were the kinds of advertisements David scrutinized. What did they offer? What did they really mean? And who was profiting from all this in the end?
Somewhere, right now, people were doing experiments. In Europe, clearly, but the pills and powders that made it possible, the ground-up substances supplying these laboratories, were, David knew now, coming from America.
Chapter 14 RASPUTIN’S MARK
Each night after she had satisfied herself that all the others were sleeping, Anna, the Rat, undressed carefully under the heaped bedclothes in the darkened room. But this morning, she woke early. Spring light moved across the room. But the family slept, Ilse as never before. Herbert had already left. The Rat wondered what time it was; perhaps time to wake Ilse and the children.
Spring caressed Anna’s cheek as she regarded the still-sleeping figure of Maria, tucked in so tenderly beside her. Painfully, the Rat managed to shift herself into an upright position, which is to say a semicurled sitting one. Her spine ached. Anna drew aside the blanket where it weighted her. And in the soft first light of the morning, she peered at her body as she pulled her nightgown aside.
Anna’s spine, curved in a semicircle, condemned her to stare forever at her own lap. Because of this, she always, even to herself, even in the dark, kept herself covered. But now she took a look.
There it was. The handprints were still there. A sulfurous burn of a hand mark, each long finger articulated on her withered white flesh. The hands were etched into the flesh of each upper thigh as strongly as the print of a leaf can etch itself into cement or stone.
“Oh.” She sucked in her breath in dismay.
She forced herself to look closely. The bony, determined fingers, the emblazoned palms, the hands gripped her thighs and moved them forcibly apart. As she looked, a smell of quickly struck phosphorus rose up from her body. She felt herself on fire, scorched again and forever by the rapacious hands of Rasputin.
“Unspeakable things,” she murmured to herself, now tracing the outlines of the cadaverous hands on her body. She ran her own small, soft hands over the large marks. “He did to me unspeakable things.” And even while she said this to herself, even while she experienced anew the shame and horror, a little spasm, the beginnings of wild excitement, began to mount.
The hands flickered into flame; the flame ignited. Anna melted into her memories, confounded of shame and excitement. “Yes!” she cried to her now-dead lover. Unwillingly, yet at the same time gladly, the sigh rose up from her silent body. Rasputin seized her, looking into her beautiful eyes, entering her once more. Her body throbbed around his. And Anna gave way, rapturous and horrified.
“Dear lady…,” Rasputin had said ironically. “Would you do anything to save your husband?”
“Yes,” Anna had replied. “Little fool,” she thought now, looking back.
She saw herself once more in the dark room alone with the Mad Monk, a candle flickering. His savage, sensual face stared at her, the head hooded, partially hidden by his cowl. But nothing could veil his fierce desires.
“Very well,” he had commanded, not even bothering to look directly at the woman as she stood, a supplicant for her husband’s lands and money, a bent figure bowed before him. “You shall be my companion for two weeks. And after that, I shall intercede with the Little Father on your family’s behalf.” How quickly Anna had agreed. Even then her heart had pounded with dread. Her body itself was a hooked question mark. She waited meekly. Rasputin took her roughly by the hand, blew out the candle, and led her through a hall.
A cold wind swirled around them. And suddenly, there was an ignited odor in the air. Perhaps it was the odor of fresh air after lightning; perhaps it was the Devil himself. But always, forever after, no matter how often she washed, the Rat was to perceive that odor. It would accompany her everywhere. Like night fog, it swirled about them, and her body was forever after impregnated with it.
“Look at me,” Rasputin commanded. Rasputin parted the skirts of his robe. His mad eyes fixed on hers; he drew from his skirts his enormous member. It throbbed and weaved toward her, pointing toward her body as surely as a dowser’s stick. It quivered. “Look!” Anna tried to look away, down, up, anywhere but directly in front of her. “Look. Behold the Rod of God!” There was moisture on the end of it, a shiny, pearly drop hanging from its tip. The enormous branch of flesh moved toward her; it appeared to be drooling lasciviously. Despite herself, an answering river of liquid ran through her body, down her thighs, a shining river on which to travel inward.