I need to save some for Lava and Lily, and I need to buy some cookies for Catsu. Now he needs to eat well.
23:41. It's unusual to fall asleep in an empty room.
Do Lavender and Lilia often get bouquets of lavender and Lilia? You should definitely ask them.
Has anyone visited Catsu today? I don't remember anyone coming to see him. I feel more and sorrier for Catsu every day, and I want to hug and comfort Him and tell him that everything is going to get better. By the way, he liked Nora's cookies, and I'll bring him some more for breakfast.
Dino likes oatmeal cookies with chocolate chips and cherry marmalade.
02:36. He couldn't forget me! Dino will come back to me! We will be together!
03: 12. The Moon is beautiful, and the nurse went for a sedative, but why do I need it? I don't feel any pain; I don't feel anything at all now except emptiness.
Hello, Diary.
Today is January 29, 2069, Sunday.
On the street -7, cloudy.
14:31. I was with Catsu after breakfast. It looks much better today than it did yesterday. This pleases.
15:54. Lava and Lily arrived, and I shared cookies with them.
17:12. My parents came and brought everything I asked for. Now you need to draw a portrait and give it to Catsu. I hope he likes it.
19:41. Yuna came and spent most of her time with Lily and Lava. Sammy came with her. He gave me a trial version of the test so that I could prepare and, after discharge, start driving practice. It's good that he supports me.
21:03. I finally finished the portrait of the Cats.
22:33. He was very surprised by my gift and thanked me for a long time. He has a beautiful smile.
* Diary, it's time for you to get to know Catsu Kunala better. *
His height is 172 cm, weight 43 kg.
He lost weight during the depression because he didn't eat anything. His mental health has almost stabilized, and he is only in the hospital for weight gain.
It is interesting to play Board games with him, where logical thinking is required, not luck. Watching Catsu, I realized that it had long turned away from him. I want him to always smile.
Catsu is kind and always ready to help if asked, but because of his modesty and taciturnity, he is considered strange even in the psychiatric ward.
Catsu doesn't tell you much about himself, and it's hard for him to trust people. I think it has to do with his parents.
* End of Dating. *
23: 23. It’s time to sleep. I don't want to look out the window; I don't want to see Him now.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is January 31, 2069, Tuesday.
On the street -6, snow.
12:42. Today we went to the gym and had a little volleyball tournament. It's been a long time since I went into the game with my head, it's sad when our group lost, but I tried very hard. After the game, the Catsu praised me.
14:04. Today we made our own salad, just mixed sliced vegetables and dressing, but it was much more interesting than ready-made meals. Why don't other departments do this?
16: 33. I finished reading the book Sammy gave me. He keeps coming to me every day. This pleases.
Yuna talks to Lily more often now than to me, but it doesn't bother me at all. Now Lavender and I have become more connected, and I learn something new every day.
18:19. The doctor asked me to delete his portraits so that I would think less about Him. But they are too dear to me, if I do not follow the doctor's recommendations, I can stay in this hospital for another month.
23:01. My graphics tablet was taken from me, again. Why do they do this?
23: 22. Dino stopped visiting me, and I started to miss him even more. Why doesn't He come back? Did the drugs start working? But I want to see Him!
01: 44. Time for bed.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is February 2, 2069, Thursday.
On the street -6, snow.
14:43. Catsu was discharged, and he didn't even say goodbye to me. Was I just a distraction all this time? Why do these thoughts hurt me?
All people are the same. They use you when they need you, and then I throw you out of my life like a used toy! Hate.
These thoughts are killing me. Somebody helps me. I don't want to suffer anymore.
18:46. I was sedated; now I don't feel anything, again. It's even better; I don't want to feel these emotions anymore.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is Friday, February 3, 2069.
It's -5 outside, cloudy.
21:13. Nothing happened today.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is February 4, the year 2069, Saturday.
It's -3 outside, cloudy.
18:54. The cats came to visit me. It turned out that he did not expect to be discharged, and he was not given time to say goodbye to everyone. He apologized for a long time. Apparently, he was worried about me. After that, I got hysterical, again.
23:35. Dino came to see me. He said he was worried and bored. I asked him to unblock his blog so that we could communicate. But did I block it? I need to check it out tomorrow, and now I'm falling asleep from the medication.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is February 5, 2069, Sunday.
On the street -5, cloudy.
07:27. It turned out that I really blocked Him in the blog. Dino texted me every day, wishing me good morning and good night. He hasn't forgotten me!
08:33. I'll block Him, so I don't see these messages again. Yes, that would be better.
09:09. The doctor prescribed me Aqua therapy to relax my muscles, now I will swim in the pool. But will it help me?
18:32. Yuna and Sammy came to see me, and most of the time my friend was with Lily and Lava, and I was reading Tarot cards for Sammy. It amuses me to think that you can “predict” the future using cardboard boxes with strange images that tell you that Sammy is waiting for a difficult choice, but the system calculates everything for us. Future profession, marriage, pet ownership, divorce, children-it all depends on the systems.
My grandmother gave these fortune-telling cards to me, apparently, they are no longer suitable for our time, now we do not control our fate, and the Tarot can predict what can be changed.
20:13. Catsu came to see me, and I missed Him. Tomorrow, he will return to his EOPQ. I hope that Catsu will quickly catch up with the program, and he won't have any problems. The main thing is that he eats well at home. After discharge, I will go to visit him and cook something delicious.
23:54. I read the Diary again. I'll walk around the city at night and see all these lights, but really, I just want to see Dino.
My head is splitting, I need to sleep.
Bye, Diary.
Hello, Diary.
Today is February 17, 2069, Friday.
On the street -3, snow.
12:43. I'm sorry it took me so long to write. Dino was always there for me, and I didn't want to be distracted by Anything but him. We talked and ate together.
Today I spoke with a psychologist, and he said that I should delete everything related to Him. This was already happening when I had to update my Diary because I couldn't think of anything else. I always wondered what Dino was doing, what he liked, and I wanted to know everything, so I forgot about myself.
I went through numerous therapies, but the result was not enough for a long time, the doctor even began to think about partial removal of memories to improve my health, but because this procedure has side effects and requires a long recovery, this idea was left until my full adulthood (until my 21st birthday). And now the doctor suggested that I just delete the Diary.
18: 42. Lily spends hours chatting with Yuna, so I have to entertain Lavender, She also draws, and we have common topics to discuss. Most of all, she likes to make sketches of flowers, especially camellias, which mean modest superiority.