She saw his face light up like a young man’s in a blaze of joy. “And do you know how she thinks of me?” he asked. “You and she are very close. How does she speak of me?”
“With great affection,” Hester said. “But whether she loves you as a father or a friend I can’t say. And I’ve never asked. I was hoping, perhaps, that I would never have to ask. If she had met a young man, or if John had come home, or if the war ended…” She turned away from a dozen regrets. “I’ll go and fetch her.”
Frances was in the stable yard, pumping water into a bucket for Alexander’s horse.
“Your uncle wants to see you,” Hester said abruptly. She had to restrain herself from drawing the girl to her, smoothing her hair, holding her once more. “In the parlor.”
Frances heaved the full bucket into the stable and shut the door. “Is anything wrong?”
Hester kept her face pleasantly uninformative. “He wants to ask you something,” she said. “You must answer however you wish, Frances. Please remember that. Answer however you wish. And think about it. No need for haste.”
The girl looked puzzled and then turned toward the house.
In the parlor Alexander found that his throat was so tight that he could hardly breathe. As the door opened he turned around and saw Frances. She put her cape over the back of one of the chairs. She was plainly dressed in a warm gown of gray and there was a thread of hay in her hair. He took her hands.
“You’re cold,” he said.
“I was watering your horse.”
“You should not have done that. I thought Joseph was in the yard.”
“He has too much to do. We have lost all our garden boys. Johnnie and I have to help. I don’t mind it.”
His fingers again felt the calluses on her hands. “I don’t want you doing hard work.”
She smiled. “Mother said you wanted to ask me something.”
Now it came to it Alexander found that he could barely speak. “I do.”
She said nothing, waited for him. He drew her to the chair before the fire, and when she was seated he remained awkwardly standing before her. Then it was the most natural thing in the world to drop to one knee and take her cold little hand between his two palms and say gently: “Frances, I have loved you since you were a little girl and I would like you to be my wife.”
All the prepared speech he had rehearsed on the long, cold ride beside the wintry river went from his head. He forgot to caution her against accepting him, he forgot to promise her that he would always be her friend even if he could not be her husband, he forgot all the things he had thought he would say. He just waited for her answer.
She smiled at once, as if he had brought her a ribbon of exceptional magnificence. “Oh yes,” she said.
He could hardly believe that she assented so easily. At once he wanted to warn her against the wrong decision. “But I am much older than you, you should take time to think, to talk to your mother, perhaps to write to your father…”
She leaned toward him and her arms came around his neck. He felt the warmth of her breath on his cheek and he drew her close and at once knew desire, and a passionate sense of protectiveness.
“I don’t need to ask anyone,” she said very quietly. “I thought you would never ask me. I have been waiting for what seems like forever. I have always known what I would say.”
Winter 1644, Virginia
Winter clamped down on the coastal plain of Virginia as if it had taken sides in the war and was in savage alliance with the colonists. All the food stores of the Powhatan had been looted or fired, there was not enough to eat and even the skills of the women could not feed the tribe from the fish and crabs on the shoreline or the frozen berries left on the trees. The braves went out hunting every day and came back with duck and geese shot on their migrating journey southward. The meat was shared with strict fairness and then mothers gave their portion privately to their children and the old people pretended that they were not hungry.
When they had started the war they had thought that it would be over in one great rush – as battles generally were. There was a persistent belief that the white people would simply go, back to where they came from, especially since they always spoke of that other place as “home,” and talked of it with longing. Why would a man abandon his own fields, his own woods, his own game, and scratch a life on the edge of a strange river? If things went badly for him why would he not take one of the great ships and go, as easily and as unexpectedly as he had come?
Of all the questions Opechancanough had put to John he had never asked him if the colonists would leave if they were defeated – the question never arose in the chief’s mind. He knew that land which had been won in a battle could be lost in a battle. He knew that a newly arrived people could be easily dislodged. It never occurred to him until this terrible winter that the white people would renege on their promise to move on, on their promise that they wanted only a small patch of land at Jamestown, and then their promise that they would settle a narrow strip by the river and live in peace with their neighbors.
Opechancanough did not expect men to be honest. He himself had promised peace with a smile on his face and twice gone to war. But he did not expect the depth and consistency of duplicity that the white people brought to the virgin earth. He did not expect their determination, and to his death he never understood their greed.
In the little village there was a strong sense that everything had gone wrong. The first attack had been a victory but since then they had been hunted like frightened hares. Hidden now in the swamps in midwinter they were safe enough but there was a growing fear that the swamps might be all that was left for them, that only the arid land, the brackish water, the desolate and barren places would be left for the People who had been proud to walk safe on their footpaths through fertile woods.
John’s share of the food stuck in his throat. He did not go hunting with the braves, he was not invited. He cleared the land around the temporary village with the women and with the old people, keeping his head low and scraping the earth with his hoeing stick, dropping the precious seeds safely into the earth and covering them up. He felt as if he had died on the raid on that little farmhouse and that it was his ghost who worked in the row behind Suckahanna and humbly lay in her little house at night. She did not reject him, she did not invite him. She did not by one gesture or one glance show that she saw him at all. She carried herself with simple dignity as a widow who has lost her man, and John in her shadow found that he was wishing that he had died before seeing that beautiful, loving face look away from him and those dark, veiled eyes go blind.
He thought she might grow kinder to him if he worked without complaint and lay on the floor of her house at night like a dog, like a hunting dog which has been beaten into submission. But she stepped over him when she rose in the morning and went to her prayers in the icy water as if he were a log on the floor. She went past him without disdain, without a glance that might offend him, without a look that might open up a conversation between them, even if it were to be a quarrel. She acted as if he were a dead man, a lost man, a ghost, and as the months went by Tradescant felt that he was lost indeed.
He went to find Attone, who was setting a fish trap by the river and watching the flow of the rising flood water over the markers at the riverbank.
“Can I speak with you?” John asked humbly.