I can’t see Silver Star, which means he must be lying down. That’s both good and bad: good, because it keeps the weight off his feet, and bad because it means he’s in enough pain he doesn’t want to stand. Because of the way the stalls are constructed, I can’t check on him until we stop and unload the other horses.
I sit across from the open door and watch the landscape pass until it gets dark. Eventually I slide down and fall asleep.
It seems like only minutes later when the brakes begin screeching. Almost immediately, the door to the goat room opens and Kinko and Queenie come out into the rough foyer. Kinko leans one shoulder against the wall, hands pushed deep in his pockets and ignoring me studiously. When we finally come to a stop, he jumps to the ground, turns, and claps twice. Queenie leaps into his arms and they disappear.
I climb to my feet and peer out the open door.
We’re on a siding in the middle of nowhere. The other two sections of train are also stopped, stretched out before us on the track, a half mile between each.
People climb down from the train in the early morning light. The performers stretch grumpily and gather in groups to talk and smoke as the workmen drop ramps and unload stock.
August and his men arrive within minutes.
“Joe, you deal with the monkeys,” says August. “Pete, Otis, unload the hay burners and get them watered, will you? Use the stream instead of troughs. We’re conserving water.”
“But don’t unload Silver Star,” I say.
There’s a long silence. The men look first at me and then at August, whose gaze is steely.
“Yes,” August finally says. “That’s right. Don’t unload Silver Star.”
He turns and walks away. The other men regard me with wide eyes.
I jog a little to catch up with August. “I’m sorry,” I say, falling into stride beside him. “I didn’t mean to give orders.”
He stops in front of the camel car and slides the door open. We’re greeted by the grunts and complaints of distressed dromedaries.
“That’s all right, my boy,” August says cheerily, slinging a bucket of meat at me. “You can help me feed the cats.” I catch the bucket’s thin metal handle. A cloud of angry flies rises from it.
“Oh my God,” I say. I set the bucket down and turn away, retching. I wipe tears from my eyes, still gagging. “August, we can’t feed them this.”
“Why not?”
“It’s gone off.”
There’s no answer. I turn and find that August has set a second bucket beside me and left. He’s marching up the tracks carting another two buckets. I grab mine and catch up.
“It’s putrid. Surely the cats won’t eat this,” I continue.
“Let’s hope they do. Otherwise, we’ll have to make some hard decisions.”
“Huh?”
“We’re still a long way from Joliet, and, alas, we’re out of goats.”
I am too stunned to answer.
When we reach the second section of the train, August hops up onto a flat car and props open the sides of two cat dens. He opens the padlocks, leaves them hanging on the doors, and jumps down to the gravel.
“Go on then,” he says, thumping me on the back.
“What?”
“They get a bucket each. Go on,” he urges.
I climb reluctantly onto the bed of the flat car. The odor of cat urine is overwhelming. August hands me the buckets of meat, one at a time. I set them on the weathered wooden boards, trying not to breathe.
The cat dens have two compartments each: to my left is a pair of lions. To my right, a tiger and a panther. All four are massive. They lift their heads, sniffing, their whiskers twitching.
“Well, go on then,” says August.
“What do I do, just open the door and toss it in?”
“Unless you can think of a better way.”
The tiger rises, six hundred glorious pounds of black, orange, and white. His head is huge, his whiskers long. He comes to the door, swings around, and walks away. When he returns, he growls and swipes at the latch. The padlock rattles against the bars.
“You can start with Rex,” says August, pointing at the lions, which are also pacing. “That’s him on the left.”
Rex is considerably smaller than the tiger, with mats in his mane and ribs showing under his dull coat. I steel myself and reach for a bucket.
“Wait,” says August, pointing at a different bucket. “Not that one. This one.”
I can’t see the difference, but since I’ve already ascertained that it’s a bad idea to argue with August, I oblige.
When the cat sees me coming, he lunges at the door. I freeze.
“What’s the matter, Jacob?”
I turn around. August’s face is glowing.
“You’re not afraid of Rex, are you?” he continues. “He’s just a widdle kitty cat”
Rex pauses to rub his mangy coat against the bars at the front of the cage.
With fumbling fingers, I remove the padlock and lay it by my feet. Then I lift the bucket and wait. The next time Rex turns away from the door, I swing it open.
Before I can tip the meat out, his huge jaws chomp down on my arm. I scream. The bucket crashes to the floor, splattering chopped entrails everywhere. The cat drops off my arm and pounces on the meat.
I slam the door and hold it shut with my knee while I check whether I still have an arm. I do. It is slick with saliva and as red as if I had dunked it in boiling water, but the skin isn’t broken. A moment later, I realize August is laughing uproariously behind me.
I turn to him. “What the hell is wrong with you? You think that’s funny?”
“I do, yes,” says August, making no effort to contain his mirth.
“You’re seriously fucked, you know that?” I jump down from the flat car, check my intact arm once more, and stalk off.
“Jacob, wait,” laughs August, coming up behind me. “Don’t be sore. I was just having a little fun with you.”
“What fun? I could have lost my arm!”
“He hasn’t got any teeth.”
I halt, staring at the gravel beneath my feet as this fact sinks in. Then I continue walking. This time, August doesn’t follow.
Furious, I head for the stream and kneel beside a couple of men watering zebras. One of the zebras spooks, barking and throwing his striped muzzle high in the air. The man holding the lead rope shoots a succession of glances at me as he struggles to maintain control. “Goddammit!” he shouts. “What is that? Is that blood?”
I look down. I am spattered with blood from the entrails. “Yes,” I say. “I was feeding the cats.”
“What the hell is wrong with you? You trying to get me killed?”
I walk downstream, looking back until the zebra calms down. Then I crouch by the water to rinse the blood and cat saliva from my arms.
Eventually I head back to the second section of the train. Diamond Joe is up on a flat, next to a chimp den. The sleeves of his gray shirt are rolled up, exposing hairy, muscled arms. The chimp sits on his haunches, eating fistfuls of cereal mixed with fruit and watching us with shiny black eyes.
“Need help?” I ask.
“Naw. About done, I think. I hear August got you with old Rex.”
I look up, prepared to be angry. But Joe’s not smiling.
“Watch yourself,” he says. “Rex might not take your arm, but Leo will. You can bet on that. Don’t know why August asked you to do it anyway. Clive is the cat man. Unless he wanted to make a point.” He pauses, reaches into the den, and touches fingers with the chimp before shutting the door. Then he jumps down from the flat. “Look, I’m only going to say this once. August’s a funny one, and I don’t mean funny ha-ha. You be careful. He don’t like no one questioning his authority. And he has his moments, if you know what I mean.”