“It’s just a thought experiment. Like let’s say you accepted the diagnosis and knew you only had one day.”
“I’m not confused by the question. The answer is I would spend the last twenty-four hours refusing to accept that it was my last twenty-four hours. I’ll tell you right now, if there’s such a thing as fate, it can eat a bag of dicks.”
This answer clearly annoyed Amy. I scrambled to think of a way to change the subject but before I could, she said, “I think you should see a doctor.”
“What? You think I have a terminal illness? If so, that was a super weird way to bring it up.”
“No. About medication. For your moods.”
“This is totally not the time for that conversation.”
“It’s absolutely the time, because you’re up. You’re feeling energetic because you’ve got a project. When this is over you’re going to get planted on the sofa again and when you’re like that it’s like talking to a grumpy log.”
“Amy, I’m not depressed because of brain chemicals, I’m depressed because I don’t have a job and don’t have any skills or education. Because I’ve wasted my life. There’s no drug that’s going to make me okay with that. Other than alcohol, I guess. The point is, I don’t need a doctor, I need work. I need a reason to get out of bed in the morning.”
“That’s what the drugs are for, they get you up off the sofa so you can go fix your life, find a job, get out of this cycle where you spend all day in bed because you’re depressed, but the thing you’re depressed about is the fact that you wasted all day in bed.”
“We’ll talk about this later.”
“You know for a fact we wo—”
But I was already heading upstairs, to escape the conversation. I entered the master bedroom. John had a very expensive king-sized mattress and box spring, but kept both of them on the floor, insisting that he never understood what the rest of the bed was for (and I admittedly had no answer for that). There was a television mounted to the ceiling so that he could watch it from bed, the thing looked like it weighed a hundred pounds and would crush his skull if the screws came loose.
The bed was made. That was not typical.
A quick glance around confirmed that, yes, a woman was staying here. Girly clothes in the closet, makeup in the bathroom. This was hardly an unusual circumstance, but keeping it from me and Amy was very unusual, to the point that I don’t think it had ever happened before. I would say that maybe he thought we wouldn’t approve but, holy shit, when did that ever stop him? He’s been hanging out with Nicky for more than a decade and I work so hard to avoid her that she hasn’t even appeared in this story yet. She’s got a PhD in some useless subject, and is one of those people who laughs at her own jokes and absolutely no one else’s. Don’t get me started.
I searched the room for notes from ourselves, found none.
I made it back downstairs at the same moment John was walking in from his garage, holding a medieval mace with three-inch spikes.
He said, “Okay, I’ve got Buddha’s mace here. It’s about twenty-five hundred years old but it should still work.”
I said, “I was actually hoping it’d turn out we had built some kind of superweapon in your garage while we were on the Sauce. A big monster-killing bomb or something.”
John said, “Well, we’ve got all that sulfur. And the—”
“The rubber asses, yes. Hey, uh, who’s staying here?”
“Who’s what?”
“If it’s none of my business, just say so, it’s fine. I just, you know, normally you’re open about it.”
“I don’t know what you’re referring to.”
“There’s plainly a woman living here. Her clothes and stuff are in your closet. Unless they’re yours, which again, the only thing that would bug me is that you didn’t feel like you could tell me.”
John looked confused and more than a little alarmed. He stomped up the stairs past me, mace in hand. We followed him up and watched as he flipped through the skirts and tops in the closet, then examined the pile of makeup and face washes on his vanity.
“That stuff was not here before.”
Amy said, “Well, is this some kind of monster-related thing or do you just have a squatter? Maybe one of your girlfriends got flooded out and came to stay?”
John said, “Not without letting me know. They’d have been incinerated.”
“Well, maybe they did let you know, while you were tripping on the Sauce. And you just don’t remember.”
John gestured toward the clothes and said, “No, look.”
Amy studied the clothes and said, “Hmm.”
I said, “What?”
She said, “These don’t belong to anyone we know.”
“How do you know?”
“Because I’ve never seen these outfits before. I know what John’s friends wear, David.”
“You do?”
“This black skirt with the slit going halfway up the hip? Try to imagine any of the girls we know wearing that.”
“Okay, give me a minute.”
John said, “No, she’s right. This is weird.”
I said, “It certainly is. Crazy how your day can start off perfectly normal and then something like this happens.”
“Yeah. All right, let me run to the bathroom, then we’ll go.” He was going to the bathroom with the owl jar above the toilet. John would smoke weed in front of me, but not meth. Weird the little boundaries people have.
The moment he was out of earshot, Amy said, “So let me get this straight, if you were confronted with a life-ending crisis you’d fight it to your last breath, but you’re perfectly fine with slowly drowning in a warm pool of your own ennui?”
“My own what?”
“What if I told you that you were possessed by, like, a powerful sadness demon and that it was feeding off your life force? Would you fight it then? How about if I told you it was coming for me next?”
“What are you talking ab—”
We heard John burst out of the bathroom. He charged into the room, breathless, and said, “Dave, I need to see your ass.”
I stared at him for forty silent seconds.
“Why.”
“I found the next note. In advance, this time. It’s written on my penis, in Magic Marker. It says, ‘Check David’s ass, there’s an important message written on it that contains valuable information.’”
I said, “It clearly does not say all that.”
“You want to see? You won’t even need to get too close, because the font is—”
Amy said, “David, will you show him your butt?”
I gritted my teeth and glared at John. “You did this. You’re the one who Dude, Where’s My Car’d this shit.”
“I have no memory of that.”
“Yeah, that’s kind of the point.”
“Why are you yelling at me instead of showing me your ass?”
“You stay here. I’ll go check it in the mirror.”
A minute later I stormed back to the kitchen. “It says, ‘Don’t let them’ and then the letters S, C, R and a scrawl across to the other cheek. As if I woke up to find someone writing on my ass and then violently slapped their hand away.”
John said, “Shit. Don’t let them scr … Don’t let them scream? Screw? Scrape?”
Amy said, “Guessing is pointless, since we don’t know how much more there was to the message.”
“Well it’d have to be enough to fit on one human ass. Screw the pooch? Script a sitcom pilot?”
“Scrawl things on your butt?” offered Amy.
I said, “Goddamnit, we’ve wasted like an hour and we have nothing to show for it.”
Amy said, “And we had so much to show from the previous eighty thousand hours before that.”
John got a notification on his phone and said, “Marconi’s here. They’re parking at the vacant Walmart, says it’s on pretty high ground.”