Right now it stood for “we get ourselves into violent messes and then heroically try to get out of them.”
“Anyway, the moral of that long story I just told you wasn’t to compare you to your dad. It’s to remind you that it’s your life, Nevada. You own the responsibility for it. I can’t be in charge of it and I don’t even want to give you advice. There is no point. No matter what I say, you’ll do what feel right to you in the end. So.” Mom folded her hands on her lap. “What feels right to you, Nevada?”
“I don’t know.”
“Well, when you figure it out, let me know. If I have to shoot Mad Rogan, I’d like to be properly prepared for it.”
“I was wrong about him, you know,” I said quietly, half asleep. “I thought he was a sociopath, but he cares about his people being killed.”
“You sure he isn’t just pissed off because they failed?”
“No. He tries to hide it but you can tell it tore him up inside. He went to notify all the families personally yesterday. When we were tracking Adam, he was really angry about the way the Air Force had treated Bug. I didn’t think that much of it at the time, but now it makes sense.”
“So he’s human after all.”
“Sort of. He cares about his people. I just don’t know if he cares about anyone else. He still thinks he’s at war, Mom. It’s kill or be killed. There is no middle ground with him.”
“Mhm.”
I yawned. “I invited him for dinner. I just wanted to tell you so you don’t have a heart attack.”
She said something back, but she sounded far away and I couldn’t make it out. Thoughts crawled around my head in all directions like big lazy caterpillars. I gave up, closed my eyes, and let myself drift.
Chapter 6
I woke up because I heard voices. I opened my eyes. My mom was gone. The tower was empty and the only light came from the outside filtering through the narrow slits of the windows and from the square opening that led down. I checked my phone. I’d slept for forty minutes, and now I felt kind of woozy. I didn’t want to get up. I wanted to lie right here on this cozy air mattress and stay warm and comfy. And maybe sleep some more.
The creaking of a ladder announced someone climbing up into the tower and moving fast.
I flipped onto my stomach, sat up, and leaned toward the opening, my hands on the floor, to see who was coming up the stairs. In that exact moment Rogan raised his head. We were face to face. An overwhelming relief flooded his eyes.
I was so glad to see him.
“Are you hurt?” he asked. Mere inches separated us.
“That’s the second time today you asked me that.” I leaned closer. I couldn’t help myself. “You should really come up with a better pickup line.”
He surged up, halfway into the room, his upper body in, his feet still on the stairs. His mouth closed on mine.
His lips burned me. The sleepy wooziness evaporated in a heart-fluttering rush. He smelled of sandalwood, and my head was spinning. I licked his lips. He tasted so good. A hoarse male noise escaped his mouth. Yes, growl for me.
His hand stroked the back of my neck, his teeth bit my lower lip, and I gasped as my breath caught in my throat. Heat warmed my skin from within, each sensation magnified. I felt so alive. I wanted his hands on me. I wanted the heat of his rough fingers on my skin. I wanted him inside me. I opened my mouth, shocked at the thought, and he took it, his tongue brushing mine and withdrawing, perfectly in tune with my breath, conquering and seducing, teasing and pulling back, pretending I could get away and then claiming my mouth as his.
A velvet heat dripped down the back of my neck, a phantom molten honey sizzling on my skin, as Rogan’s magic bound us. It slid down my spine, inch by inch, setting every nerve on fire in its wake, my body eager for the repeat of ecstasy it remembered. Oh my God, how could this feel so good?
Rogan’s hand slid over my chest to cup my breast. Yes, yes, please. He took a step up. Another.
If he came up all the way, we’d have sex right here, right now.
On my mother’s air mattress.
I pushed him. For a fraction of a second he stayed where he was, grasping the air for balance, and then he slid down the stairs with a thud.
I leaned into the opening. He caught himself midway down the ladder, looked up at me, and spread his arms, his face puzzled.
“What’s going on?” Mom called from somewhere below.
“Mad Rogan fell down the stairs.” I squeezed my eyes shut for a second, cringing inside.
“Does he need a medic?”
Yes, Rogan mouthed and pointed at me.
Aha, no, I’m not giving you any sexy healing. “No, he’s fine.”
Rogan started back up the stairs, his face determined.
“He’s coming down,” I announced. “Now.”
He gave an exaggerated sigh, went down the stairs and stayed there. Great. Now I would have to climb down the stairs while he entertained himself by looking at my butt. Maybe he would move.
He didn’t.
However, by the time I got down the stairs, he’d slid back into his I’m-a-Prime-and-I-can-kill-you-with-my-pinkie expression. Probably because my mother and my grandmother were both in the vicinity, standing in the doorway of the media room and looking at something on the screen. Leon hovered nearby, gazing at Rogan with all of the puppy love his evil teenage heart could muster. For some odd reason, Leon hero-worshiped Rogan with the passion of a thousand burning suns.
I went to the media room. Rogan followed me. One of his people, an African American woman, sat cross-legged on the floor by a laptop connected to our TV with a cord. The other, a trim athletic man in his forties, sat on the couch, leaning forward and keeping most of his weight on his feet, expecting to jump up any moment. An image of an iced-over overpass stretched on the screen and the view was flying down the ice, veering left and right.
Mom and Grandma Frida had identical expressions on their faces: dark and angry.
“Troy should get a raise,” I murmured.
“He will,” Rogan promised, his voice hard. “Thank you for saving his life.”
“I didn’t . . .”
“I’ve already watched this,” Rogan said. “You did. Thank you for taking care of him.”
On the recording I snapped, “Open the window!”
I hadn’t realized I barked like that.
The woman’s hands flew on the laptop keyboard. The view switched to the rear camera and the windshield of the 4Runner fractured.
“Clean kill,” Mom said.
“What?”
“Zoom in,” Mom said.
The recording rewound a few seconds and crept forward at a fraction of the normal speed, zooming in on the windshield. The bullets tore into the glass and punched the dark shape in the passenger seat. It jerked and went limp. That’s why nobody came out of the 4Runner after the illusion mage. I’d killed the passenger.
“That’s a hell of a shot,” Rogan’s man said.
Mom turned to Grandma Frida. “Threat-based?”
“Probably.” Grandma Frida grimaced. “Well, at least Bernard takes after me.”
“I don’t get it,” I said.
“Pause it,” Mom said. The woman paused the recording.
“You and your mom get your shooting from your grandfather,” Grandma Frida said. “You more than her. Your Grandpa Leon was crap with a sniper rifle, but if he were under fire, he returned it with deadly accuracy. That’s the way his magic worked. Penelope lies there with her rifle and goes to her happy place, but you have to have people shooting at you to hit the target.”