“Ain’t real?” Bridger scoffed with a wide grin. “Quit your yankin’ on my leg!”
Titus leaned forward, his elbow clumsily sliding off his knee, then quickly regained his composure. “Just what I said. You an’ me here now … this ain’t real.”
Bridger’s eyes narrowed as he turned to Waits-by-the-Water. “You understand what this here drunk is sayin’?”
Her head bobbed.
“Awright—spill it all for me,” Bridger prodded. “Can’t say I’ve ever heard nothing about any of this dreams an’ such.”
“This here’s hard work,” Scratch declared, then licked his lips. “Workin’ my brain like this makes a man even more thirsty than that trail comin’ down from Fort Hall … so maybe I should loosen my head-hobbles with a li’l more of your whiskey.”
“Just as long as you don’t pickle yourself and pass on out afore you tell me what these here Injuns of ours know that we don’t.”
Promptly Titus pressed one greasy finger up to his lips. “Shshshsh!” he hissed in a coarse whisper. “I ain’t figgered out if we’re really s’posed to know or not, Gabe.” Slowly, with his oversized head swimming unevenly, he turned to gaze at his wife. “Gonna tell my friend here ’bout it.”
“Bridger good man,” she said in understandable American. “He knows dreams good too.”
“What the hell is she talking about?” Gabe inquired. “Me knowing dreams good too?”
Scratch took another big swallow, then dragged the back of his hand across his damp mustache. “Your dreams, Gabe. That’s the answer. Injuns I know believe your dreams are your real life … and this here, where we’re talking by this fire? It ain’t real at all.”
With a loud snort, Bridger growled, “Shit, if you ain’t way down in the cups, Scratch. Here you had me believing—”
“Injuns figger their dreams—’specially their medeecin visions—those are their journeys they take back to the real life,” Titus interrupted with an impatient wave of his empty cup. “Them places we see in our dreams … that’s where our spirits come from, where our spirits really belong.”
Wagging his head, Jim confessed, “I don’t think I understand any of this—”
“We ain’t s’posed to!” Titus said with glee. “Don’t you see? That’s the way it is with these here Injuns. They get their minds around what they can understand an’ they don’t let the rest of it fret ’em at all. It’s the way of things out here in these mountains.”
“How’s that?”
Leaning forward, his elbows on his knees, Bass whispered, “Injuns say I just gotta quit worryin’ ’bout ever’thing I don’t understand.”
“Why?”
“Because it’s what I ain’t meant to understand … till ever’thing is showed me an’ the answers is given.”
“When’s that gonna happen?”
Titus explained, “Waits told me it’s when a warrior’s spirit takes off from his body.”
“When he dies?”
Nodding, Scratch said, “I s’pose that’s it, dead center, Gabe. When a warrior’s spirit is free of his body … we’ll get all the answers.”
“Answers for things like what happened to heal Shadrach’s arm?” Jim asked. “Answers for why Lucas was took by a rattler?”
He swallowed hard on that lump in his throat. “Makes this here child feel a lot better just knowin’ he’ll unnerstand all the questions one of these days, Gabe. One of these days … eventual’.”
TWENTY-TWO
This part of the day always smelled the very best. Here when it grew light enough for him to stir and muck about, but still well before sunup. The air had a special quality to it as the night was just beginning to relent and give itself to the day. These breathless moments were undeniably the best, no matter what season it was.
In spring, you could drink it in deep and smell the fresh, full-bodied, fertile readiness of the earth about to renew itself. And in summer this was the last of those cool moments before the sun began to radiate down from the sky, heat baking back up from the earth in waves of oppressive torture. Now in late autumn the air captured a tang, that aroma of things dying lifting from the ground where leaves and plants lay moldering, where little creatures dug themselves in for a long nap. Come winter, those creatures meant to sleep would not stir, while those meant to suffer and die would indeed endure and withstand, or die. Come winter in this far north land, a time when life could be decided quickly, brutally—when survival hung by a slender thread—each new terrible morning could taste as sweet as winesap on his tongue, at the back of his throat. The long, black night of winter would eventually leave, like a man reluctant to abandon his lover’s bed, unwilling to give itself over to the light of day, to the warmth of those brief hours when about all a man could do was to prepare for the coming of the next long winter’s night.
Autumn mornings in this far country north of the Yellowstone smelled the best. This was the time of year when matters of life and death were held in the balance, when it was decided what would live on and what would not see the coming of another spring. Mornings cold, hoarfrost coating most everything with a layer of icy death, breathsmoke wreathed around his head as he was always the first to stir. But by afternoon the sun had melted away the frost, steam drifted up from the thawing ground, and a man actually began to believe that the finality of winter had been put off for one more day.
Autumn in the north was what he had longed for so when they set off on their hot march north from Fort Bridger, back when Gabe’s calendar had confirmed September was drawing to a close.
“Won’t be no more trains coming through,” Bridger said to Bass one afternoon some two weeks following their return to his post on Black’s Fork.
Scratch had wiped the sweat from his eyes and stared west a moment before he said, “Any pilgrims show up now, like to be caught by snow in the mountains.”
“You got a itch to tramp, this here’s the time to scratch it good.”
Turning to gaze at Bridger, Titus had explained, “I’ll lay as I been here in one place long enough, Gabe.”
“Reckon that’s so.” Jim sighed. “Time was, I kept movin’ too. Been here four years now. Don’t figger I got any reason to move on now, the way I did when I was younger.”
“Likely I ain’t growed out of it like you done,” Bass responded. “Not ready to call one place my home. For while longer, my home gonna stay where my woman an’ me set up camp for the night, or for the winter.”
“Where you fixin’ to stay out the robe season?”
“Gotta be back in Crow country afore the land goes hard, Jim,” he had admitted. “We got us that young’un on the way.”
Bridger had stood and held out his hand. “I can put some store credit on the books for you … or you can take out your wages afore you go.”
“I’ll do some of both,” he had declared. “The young’uns deserve some new pretties, an’ we ought’n have some presents to give out when I take this here family north back to their relations.”
He knew the way well enough that with a three-quarter moon Bass decided they would leave the following day at dusk instead of with the coming of dawn. Travel out those short hours of the late-summer night, pressing on into mid-morning while the heat began to rise again from the earth. Only then finding shade in those leafy trees bordering Ham’s Fork, later the Sandy, then the Sweetwater, and on to the Popo Agie. Climb north to the Wind River as they watched for any sign at the curve of the earth ahead: dust rising from a village on the move, or smoke from those who had planted their camp in some oxbow of a pleasant stream. Come every sunrise as he studied the distance for a place to spend out the heat of the day, Titus Bass also surveyed the land for some sign that they had located Yellow Belly’s Crow. But chances were better than good that the bands were north of the Yellowstone for now. This was the time of the year the camp was moving, when the Crow went in search of the herds in earnest, making the kills and drying the meat against the deep snows and everlasting cold so hard the trees would boom like those cannons the American Fur Company kept atop the walls of its fur posts. Here in the last days of Indian summer the Crow would be hunting with a missionary zeal before the beasts began turning south with that biological imperative buried in their marrow eons before the first man ever raised his first stone-tipped arrow, flung his first stone-tipped spear at the shaggy creatures. Ages ago when winter and the wolf were the only killers.