‘What am I? I am a woman. Where am I? At the hearth. What am I? I am a woman. Where am I? At the hearth.’
The chanting never stopped. The light outside grew brighter. It was hot again and then it was cold again. More people came in. Others left. Jodis shook Vali awake, shook Disa awake, steadying her on her platform, throwing more herbs on the fire.
‘What am I? I do not know. Where am I? In the dark. What am I? I am a raven. Where am I? On the field of the slain. What am I? I am ravens. Where am I? Where I can see.’
Was she really saying that? Vali wondered. The ground seemed to rock as if he was on a ship. The air seemed thick and clinging. The light outside was weakening once more. Neither Vali nor Disa had slept in three days. Disa’s voice was cracked, hardly audible.
Something cut through the fug of his thoughts. Disa was coughing and spluttering, then she let out a scream and began to shiver violently. Jodis and Sefa leaped to her side, holding her on the chest. Disa’s body went rigid — it seemed almost as if she would lift off her seat.
‘These pins are so sharp in my skin.’
Disa had spoken but in a way that Vali had never heard her speak before, slow and deliberate, much higher than her normal tone and with a strange accent.
Vali looked up at her, his legs stone with sitting, his mind like a boulder.
‘A rune I took from the tormented god.’
It was a tremulous voice, almost like that of a child, thought Vali. On some sounds it seemed to draw and suck like the sea on shingle but on others cracked and choked like the noise of a dog with a chicken bone.
Disa threw herself back and sat down heavily on the table, the chest going crashing to the side. Her body convulsed but then the shivering subsided, and she became calm. Jodis and Sefa let her go and she stood on the table looking out across the room. The temperature in the room plummeted and Vali felt his skin prickle into goosebumps. His breath froze on the air in front of him. There was something in Ma Disa’s manner that was quite unlike her. She stood tall and proud, surveying her surroundings like a queen. The people drew back from her, a couple giving involuntary cries. A patina of frost had formed at her feet. Vali was sure he was seeing magic working before his eyes. He was right. But it no longer had anything to do with Disa.
12
The witch queen had sensed the first death like someone dozing on a summer day might sense a cloud go over the sun. Things had moved quickly then — candles had been lit to pierce the tomb dark of the caves, sisters disturbed from their ritual sufferings, boys dispatched to find the corpse.
Authun was not yet back home from the Wall with the infant Vali when Gullveig located the first body.
The girl was lying in the lower tunnels, close to the wet rocks, near the deep pool where the rite of the water rune was performed. She was hanged, a rough rope thrown over a jutting rock, a triple knot tied at the neck. The witch queen had touched the girl’s cold smile and then the rope. She knew what those knots meant, the three tight interlocking triangles — the dead lord’s necklace, sign of the god Odin, the berserk, the hanged, the drowned, the wise and the mad, the god to whom she had dedicated her life.
The witch queen touched the white of the girl’s throat, her magic-widened senses drinking in the resonances of the child’s death. The bruises had the sense of a delicious stain, she thought, blackberries and dark wine. She took up the girl’s hair in her fingers and breathed in. Baked bread, cinders, straw bedding and dried flowers were the odours of her death. The girl had gone home. It was a suicide, Gullveig was sure.
The dead child had not been unhappy. She had been scared when she had first entered the caves, but the presence of the queen — at twelve years old a child herself — had reassured her and the witches had touched her mind to bring her calm. The pain and suffering of the rituals had not come easily to her, but she had endured, seen the aim, felt her mind widening as her grip on sanity loosened.
She was to have been the inheritor of the rune of water, to carry the resonance of that ancient symbol within her, to sustain it and be sustained by it. Two girls had been trained. When the old witch who was their mentor died it would be decided who would nurture the rune and who would participate in lesser rituals — to help, to fetch and carry. Now there was only one girl to continue the magic. If anything happened to her the rune would cease to manifest in the physical realm and the sisters’ power would diminish.
There was something else Gullveig could sense in the magical signature of the girl’s death, a feeling of heaviness — the heaviness someone drowning feels as their clothes fill with water, the heaviness of a downward current as it sucks the strength from a swimmer’s limbs. There was a magical presence there, the witch could tell, and it had flowed from the rune the girl had been given to learn. That should not have happened. The witches had suffered losses before but they had been physical ones — sisters frozen, smothered or suffocated by smoke when a ritual had gone wrong. The runes had been within their control for generations. Until that day.
The witch leaned forward and tapped her tongue on the girl’s cheek. The taste was of ocean depths, sightless and empty voids. Gullveig felt the pulling tides, the tug of groping blind sea beasts, the weight of waters above her, all seeming to say, ‘Come lower. Descend, lose sight of the light and give yourself to this heavy darkness.’ She shivered. There would be more of these deaths, she knew, as certain as people of lesser sensitivities know that one wave follows another.
The following years proved her right. Sometimes there were no deaths from one summer to the next; in others there might be two.
Knowledge of the girls’ passing came to the witch queen in different ways. One death presented itself as a lurch in the consciousness, like when you suddenly pull back from the brink of sleep. Another came as a feeling of disquiet from a dream that didn’t stop when she woke. Still another arrived like the taste of tar in the back of her mouth, a nausea that she could not shake until she saw the corpse.
Gullveig held their pale bodies in her arms, touched the bruises at their necks, put her fingers to their swollen lips, stroked their broken limbs and felt an unbearable pressure in her head.
Loki had told her the truth, she thought. Odin was acting against her, killing her sisters. She was certain of one thing — this creeping harvest was only a prelude. Odin would not be content taking one or two lives, nibbling away at her power from the shadows. He was coming, as himself and in force.
It had taken her nearly sixteen years to find him, which did not surprise her. If the god did not know himself then it would take a huge effort for a mortal to identify him. She had managed it, through the old and trusted ways — meditation, ritual and suffering. At first his presence had been elusive in her mind, glimpsed like the glimmer of a fish in water, gone almost as soon as it was there. But over weeks and months, in waking and sleeping she had tracked him, through her agony-induced trances.
She saw herself wandering under the empty spaces of the northern evening until, so startling they shook her from her trance, she saw a pair of pale blue eyes looking at her from a field of snow and heard the lonely howl of a wolf. It was him, the god, appearing in just a fleeting vision, but it was all that she needed. She was on his trail.
She did not see, and could only barely sense, the pale woman with the ruined face who watched her in her meditations. She knew though that there was a presence who walked at her side, hating her, just out of sight. It was that presence that guided her. All the queen could tell was that something travelled with her in her meditations and seemed to know what would harm her. She had sensed its excitement rising when she had caught sight of Odin. The witch did not find this particularly disturbing. She had lived all her life alongside strange entities, faces that flickered from the firelight, shadows on rock that seemed to glower with carnivorous intent. Sleeping or waking, she was never far from the suffocating spirits of the dark.