Richard didn’t respond, merely pouring the steeped tea, moving the spout up and down, his left hand pressed against the lid — something robotic, if expert, in his movements that indicated his thoughts were elsewhere. He handed Robert a cup of dark, amber Darjeeling. “I didn’t trip the alarm,” he said quietly. He pushed the small packets of rationed sugar toward Robert. “There was someone in here. Two of them. I was on my way down for a snack. I rang the police just as I saw them take off. Couldn’t get the car number or anything, but there’s a good chance the police might cut them off at the roundabout.” He was stirring the tea thoughtfully. “No use frightening the women.”
“No,” agreed Robert. “Was anything taken?”
“No — that’s the thing. You see—”
The phone rang.
“Yes,” answered Richard. “Oh — yes, Inspector. I see. Yes — of course. Now?”
Richard returned to the kitchen table. “They caught two people — not at the roundabout. In the cul-de-sac down a bit. They’d like you and me to go down to the station.”
“Me?” asked Robert, surprised.
“Yes.”
“I didn’t see them. I’d have no idea—”
Richard was handing him the Identikit sketches of the “charmers” that Robert had sent him from Holy Loch. “Oh Christ—”
“Look, Robert — they said we could come in the morning if we liked, but I think under the circumstances — might be better if we nipped down there. I’ll tell Anne you’re coming along to keep me company.”
“All right,” said Robert.
Robert knew it was them the moment he stepped inside the Leatherhead police station. The desk sergeant was typing out the pink sheet, charging them with “breaking and entering” and “illegal possession of firearms”—.22 high-vels — the very make the superintendent at Mallaig had supposed SPETS abroad had been issued with. High-velocity, quiet, and very accurate at short range. Robert could still see the bullet hole in Price’s forehead. The two charmers didn’t look too happy — no confetti this time. The identification was simple and straightforward. There were no lineups given for Chernko’s people abroad. It would be “in camera” and they’d either be shot or, now the surrender was in place, exchanged for two of the Allies.
It hadn’t taken Robert and Richard long, but it had shaken them both to realize that even after the official surrender, the two SPETS had pursued their mission, and they wondered how many around the world were still at large.’Both of them agreed to say nothing to anyone else. There was no point. Besides, for Robert, the diagnosis to be given him by the radiation lab at Oxford was a much more immediate and pressing concern.
CHAPTER SEVENTY
On his third visit to what he’d told Rosemary was a “special submarine update” school at Oxford, Robert Brentwood was informed by the specialists at the radiation medicine lab that the initial diagnosis was confirmed — he had indeed received above-acceptable levels of radiation.
“Am I dying?” he asked the doctor simply.
“We’re all dying, old chap.”
“Come on, Doc.”
“Truth is, we never know for sure. In a case like yours, I’d say—” the doctor shrugged “—fifty-fifty. We can speculate, predict, all we want, but there are other factors: will to live, fitness, individual metabolism…”
“Even in a case of radioactive poisoning?”
“Oh yes, though it’s not generally recognized.” He gave a warm, cheeky smile. “Sounds a bit too mystical for most M.D.s, you see. Difficult stuff to measure.”
The day of the third visit, as he strolled back from the radiation lab through Oxford’s rain-polished streets, the golden spires of the ancient university caught the wintry sun with such brilliance that only nostalgia and hope seemed permissible at that moment. He was shocked to find Rosemary waiting at the station. One look told him she knew where he’d been — her lips aquiver, though she was trying to be brave. She was wearing a scarf, the same one she’d been wearing when they had first met — a light pastel green covered with the wildflowers of an English spring. They held one another before either spoke.
“How long?” she asked finally.
“They don’t know. No one does.”
She didn’t go on at him about why he hadn’t told her. She knew his motive, though she might not agree with it, came from all the old-fashioned virtues of a silent service.
“You’d have nothing to worry about anyway,” he told her. “You and the bairn.” As usual, his Scottish accent was atrocious to her ears, but she felt his love all around her like a warm embrace on a wintry day.
“Anyway,” he hurried on, “I’ll be here to see the boy—”
She was in tears, as they stood hand in hand on the platform.
“Oh—” she said bravely, “what makes you think it’s a boy?”
“Or a lassie,” he said, and he stopped, turning her to him. “Rose. Let’s not be sad. I see the glass half-full, not half-empty.” She sobbed uncontrollably, told him she loved him and that there’d never be another man for her, and he held her tightly and prayed there would be if he went before his time— whenever that might be.
On the train back, the peaceful winter countryside rocking gently outside, he went to the bar and ordered a double gin and tonic for her, the British Rail attendant astonished, proclaiming, “A double? You’d be bloody lucky, mate. Been a war on, you know.”
“Ah — yes,” said Robert. “Then — I’ll just have the single.” He left a hefty tip, not really thinking what he was doing.
“Oh, ta very much,” said the attendant, suddenly solicitous of the American’s well-being. “You’re a gentleman and a scholar, sir.”
Rosemary refused the single gin and tonic, said she didn’t want to do anything that might harm the baby. “Have it yourself,” she said.
He did, and looking out at the land flashing by, the smell of frozen earth thawing, he felt so glad to be alive to feel and see and touch the world about him. It was like a longing fulfilled, and he was sure that what he was feeling at this very moment was what it must be like for Rosemary to feel the warmth of a life, his life, theirs, growing inside her.
“It’s going to be a boy,” he said.
“A girl,” she contradicted, snuggling into him.
“You’ve cheated,” he said, looking down at her with mock accusation. “You had a sonogram—”
“Ultrasound,” she said.
“Yes.”
“No. I don’t know, but my pulse is faster and—”
“Ah—” said Robert. “Superstitions. Anyway, I don’t care. As long as she, or he, joins the navy.”
“Or becomes a teacher,” she countered. “No — really, whatever they decide.”
“Yes.”
“Oh, Robert—”
“Now, now,” he said. “No tears. Silent running.”
CHAPTER SEVENTY-ONE
Outside Dutch Harbor’s Paradise Motel, it was twenty below. Inside, it was much hotter, Shirer already down to his T-shirt, Lana La Roche, nee Brentwood, letting him undress her. Soon he was getting out of control.
“Slowly,” she laughed. “You’re ripping my uniform.”