I was having that same kind of feeling all over again as I stood by the side of my damaged car.
Jimmy's killer had done this, I could feel it in my bones, but try making the police believe that. No, if they didn't believe I hadn't killed my brother-in-law, they sure wouldn't believe this wasn't just random vandalism. The slashed tire was off, the spare securely attached. But everything in my world was changing. I stuck my hand inside my skirt pocket and fingered Sheila's little ring. What was going on here?
"Here," Jack said, gently taking the tire iron from my grimy hand. He tugged gently, and I let it slide out of my grip. He carefully packed the tire kit, tied it together, and then placed it and the slashed tire into the trunk.
I walked around to the driver's seat, slipped behind the wheel, and stuck the key into the ignition. Jack picked up my guitar, slid it into the backseat, and arranged his lanky frame in the front passenger seat. I turned the key and the car abruptly lurched forward and stalled. I'd forgotten to push in the clutch.
"Damn it!" I swore, stabbing my foot at the pedal. I reached for the clutch and tried to jam it into first gear, but Jack stopped me.
"You're all right," he said softly, his hand resting firmly over mine. "Now just stop a second. Let go of the clutch and breathe." He leaned back against his seat, letting his shoulders drop, watching me. I took a deep breath impatiently and started to jerk my arm back toward the gear shift.
"That's it," he said, gripping my arm and closing his eyes. "Now like this." He took a deep, New Age breath, holding it, then exhaling. "Breathe."
I did it. I leaned my head back against the headrest, closed my eyes, and took a long slow breath. My shoulders relaxed and I felt a tiny bit of tension leave me.
"Again," he said softly, "that's it".
I couldn't believe it. Here I was, deep breathing in my car at three in the morning, after some maniac had slashed my tire. The worst part was, it was actually working.
"You're fine," he said. "You can do this."
Damn straight, I thought, I can do this. And I can find the sorry dirtbag who did this, too. I leaned forward slowly and started the car.
"Who's Evelyn?" I asked.
He laughed and looked out his window. "That Evelyn," he said, "she's quite a gal." He reached forward and switched on the radio, pulling out his harmonica to play along with the country station.
He played for a moment or two and then I felt him watching me as I drove. "You know," he said, "you're thinking it's all related, but it might not be. The universe is funny that way. Full of coincidences."
He went back to his harmonica, not waiting to hear what I thought about the matter. I glanced over at him a few times, but his eyes were closed and he seemed lost in the music. In his world, events probably were coincidental; they probably followed some Zen kind of philosophy or Quaker kind of lifestyle. That was him. In my world, everything meant something. Like Mama always said, don't matter if the glass is half full or half empty, it'll still stain your skirt if it spills.
I listened to him playing,, my head jumbled up with ideas and thoughts, I was barely paying attention, but I did notice one thing. Someone was following us, and they had been ever since we'd left the Golden Stallion.
"Hey, you missed the turn," Jack said, as I drove right by Elm Street and turned right onto Church. Still there.
"It may be coincidence," I said, "but a car's been following us since we left."
"Get out!" He sounded more impressed than worried.
I drove over to Lee Street and headed back toward the Coliseum. Still there. We were definitely being followed. I whipped into a parking lot at Lee and Elm, then swiveled around to see what would happen next; The car drove right on past, a Jeep Cherokee, not new, but not more than a few years bid. It moved too fast for me to see who was driving or even catch a plate number.
"Damn! That tells me a hell of a lot," I said.
Jack stared after the car and back over at me. "Are you sure we were being followed?" he asked. "Maybe it was just-"
"Coincidence?" I said, interrupting. "I don't think so."
I let my foot off the clutch and pulled back out onto Elm, made the quick turn into the parking lot behind Jack's loft, and slid the Beetle into a spot under the only light in the lot. If someone wanted to hurt my car further, I would at least make it difficult.
Jack hauled my guitar out of the backseat and aimed his garage door opener at the back of his building. I scanned the parking lot, looking past it back to Elm Street. We were surrounded by buildings and alleys. A hundred people could be watching us, from almost anywhere, and we wouldn't see them.
Jack stood on his loading dock, waiting. I gave up trying to figure out who was lurking in the bushes and headed for the warmth of the wood-stove.
"Want something to drink?" he asked. He was pulling a Rolling Rock from the fridge and twisting off the cap. The garage door was slowly descending, closing us in. Suddenly Jack's place seemed small and foreign.
"No," I said, starting to turn away, but then changing my mind. "Yes, maybe I will." I am not a drinker. Not like Vernell and the Spivey clan, but the situation called for something. I just wasn't sure what.
Jack busied himself pulling out a second beer, draping it with a graying dishtowel, and twisting off the cap. If he sensed my discomfort, he didn't show it. Instead he walked over to the sofa with both beers and sat down in front of the woodstove.
"What a night." He sighed and took a swig from his bottle. "You look worn out."
"No," I lied, reaching for the beer to hide behind. "I'm always keyed up after we play. Changing that tire didn't even wear me out;." I took a huge swig of beer and choked. Mama said lies'll choke you, but it was the beer.
"Really?" he asked. He was sitting on the couch, shoes off, his legs drawn up Indian-style, looking at me as if I were the strangest thing he'd ever seen. "So, you're wide-awake, not sleepy at all." His voice had taken on an almost hypnotic drone, and I felt myself struggling, just the way a child fights a nap in the afternoon.
I pinched the inside of my leg, hard, and sat up straight. "Nope," I said, "not at all. Why don't you go on up to bed and when I get tired, I'll just turn out the lights and sack out right here. "I said it in my most motherly, matter-of-fact voice. A voice that I hoped said, "We both know I'm almost old enough to be your mother, but in case you didn't believe it, I'm not interested."
"Man." He sighed, a snorty kind of laugh escaping into the space between us. "You are one uptight woman."
"I am not uptight. I am telling you I'm not tired."
Jack leaned a little in my direction. "You were telling me that you didn't want me getting any ideas about us having sex."
I almost jumped backward. My cheeks flamed up, my heart pounded a little, but I held my ground. "Well, so what if I was? I mean, here you are, an attractive young man, and I come bursting into your place, looking for somewhere to stay. Well, how does it look? I wouldn't blame you for thinking it!"
He sat up straight, staring right into my eyes, smiling. I didn't see anything to smile about.
"Maggie, let's get a few things straight, okay?" I sat still. I was about to be on the receiving end of a lecture; I could feel it in his tone. I tried not to look at him with Sheila's impatient adolescent face. I hated lectures as much as she did.