But she looks up at the ceiling again, sucking her lips, the tears in her eyes -
The tears in her eyes -
The tears -
Tears -
Tears, tears, tears, until -
Until she says: ‘Why?’
‘Because -’
‘Because what? Because you fucked me?’
‘Helen -’
‘Fat lot of good that did me.’
‘Helen, please -’
‘Fat lot of bloody good screwing the boss did me, eh? Pregnant and wide open to this shit.’
‘Pregnant?’
‘Oh, don’t worry. I got rid of it.’
On my knees: ‘What?’
‘All bloody water under the bridge now.’
‘When?’
‘When what?’
‘When did you -’
‘Sunday.
‘Where?’
‘Manchester. Why? Why do you want to know?’
I catch him, stop him murdering mothers, orphaning children, then you give us one, just one -
I look up at the ceiling, the tears in my eyes -
The tears in my eyes -
The tears -
Tears -
Tears, tears, tears, until -
Until I see her -
See the tears in her eyes -
The tears -
Tears -
Tears, tears, tears, until -
Until I say: ‘Where is he?’
‘Who?’
‘Craven.’
‘Why?’
‘This has got to end.’
‘You can’t -’
But I have her by her coat, my wings outstretched, shouting: ‘Where?’
And she’s shaking -
Shaking and looking up at the ceiling, sucking her lips, the tears in her eyes -
The tears in her eyes -
The tears -
Tears -
Tears, tears, tears, until -
Until she whispers: ‘The Strafford.’
And I’m gone -
Wings outstretched -
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I catch him, stop him murdering mothers, orphaning children, then you give us one, just one more -
My last deal -
Last prayer.
Down the stairs -
Into the rain -
Under the arches -
Into the car -
Hit the radio:
‘… asked him, “Are you Peter David Williams of 6 Park Lane, Heaton, Bradford?” to which Williams replied, “Yes, I am.”
‘The Court Clerk then told Williams, “You are accused that between 10 December and 11 December 1980 you did murder Laureen Bell against the peace of our Sovereign Lady the Queen. Further, you are charged that at Mirfield between 6 December and 27 December, you stole two motor vehicle registration-plates to the total value of 50p, the property of Cyril Miller.”
‘Williams was then asked if he had any objection to the remand in custody and whether he wanted reporting restrictions lifted. Williams replied, “No” on both counts…’
Punch the radio -
Out the city -
Onto the motorway -
To the end, thinking -
Know the way, know the time -
Know the place, know it well.
The End of the World:
Wednesday 31 December 1980 -
Dawn or dusk, the whole thing fucked:
River brown, sky grey -
Seven shades of shit -
Wings, my wings on fire -
Into Wakefield city centre -
Sky blood, city dead -
The Bullring -
The End of my World:
The Strafford.
Everyone gets everything they want -
The Strafford -
The first floor, boarded up:
Closed.
I drive past and turn left -
Drive slowly round the back of the buildings -
Round and into a car park, dark under a row of first floor rooms -
Empty upstairs rooms, back rooms -
Blind eyes out onto a rotten, uneven car park -
A car park deserted but for puddles of rain water and motor oil -
Deserted but for one dark green Rover.
I park, waiting -
Watching -
Watching the row of rooms up above -
Their boarded glass, their blind eyes -
Knowing he’s near, here.
I get out of the car and open the boot -
I take out a hammer -
Take out a hammer and put it in the pocket of my raincoat -
Then I take out a can of petrol -
A half empty can of petrol -
And I close the boot of the car -
I walk across the car park -
The rotten, uneven car park -
Puddles of rain water and motor oil underfoot, heading for the stairs and a door -
A door to an upstairs room -
A door banging in the wind, in the rain -
I climb the dark stone stairs one at a time and stop before the door -
The door banging in the wind, in the rain -
I pull open the door -
The backdoor to the Strafford -
The backdoor to a passage -
The passage is dark and I can smell the stink of a shotgun -
The stink of bad things, the stink of death -
The stink of the Strafford.
I step inside -
A rotting, eaten mattress against a window -
I walk down the passage to the front -
To the bar -
I pull open another door -
The door to the bar -
The walls of the bar tattooed with shadows, tattooed with pain -
Maps, charts, photographs of pain -
The pain of the photographs -
Joyce Jobson, Anita Bird, Theresa Campbell, Clare Strachan, Joan Richards, Ka Su Peng, Marie Watts, Linda Clark, Rachel Johnson, Janice Ryan, Elizabeth McQueen, Kathy Kelly, Tracey Livingston, Candy Simon, Doreen Pickles, Joanne Thornton, Dawn Williams, and Laureen Bell -
Across the maps, the charts, and the photographs -
Across them all -
Swastikas and sixes -
Shadows, swastikas and sixes -
Across every surface -
Six six sixes -
(Out of the shadows).
I put down the can of petrol and try the light switch -
Nothing, only darkness -
Darkness, shadow, pain.
I step further inside -
Underfoot smashed furniture and splintered wood, stained carpets and shattered glass -
Behind the bar, the broken mirrors and the optics -
The jukebox in the corner, the silent bloodstained pieces -
Beneath the boarded windows, the long sofa full of holes -
A low table pulled out into the centre of the room -
On the table, pornography -
Spunk -
Pornography and a portable tape recorder -
A cassette case:
All this and Heaven too.
I walk towards the table -
Walk towards the table and see him -
See his boots -
On the floor, between the table and the bar -
His boots, him -
Him -
Lying on his face between the table and the bar -
Bob Craven -
His head blown off, a shotgun across one leg -
I look away -
Look up -
Two holes in the ceiling, above the bar -
Look down -
The head blown off -
Kneeling, I reach down between the table and the bar, reach down and turn him over -
Head off, face gone, beard gone -
Blood across the wall -
Across the shadows -
Across the swastikas and across the sixes -
Six six sixes -
(If the shadows could talk).
I pick up the shotgun from off his legs and I step back -
Step back beside the table and the portable tape recorder -
Machines the only survivors -
I press play:
Pause, hiss -
‘I’m Jack. I see you are still having no luck catching me. I have the greatest respect for you George, but Lord! You are no nearer catching me now than four years ago when I started. I reckon your boys are letting you down George. They can’t be much good can they?
‘The only time they came near catching me was a few months back in Chapeltown when I was disturbed. Even then it was a uniformed copper not a detective.