“And so were the Kraljica and I,” ca’Vikej interjected. When Allesandra turned-with what Varina thought was an odd glare-he shrugged. “It’s only the truth,” he said.
“In any case, there’s not only my judgment involved, but that of the Faith,” Allesandra continued. Her gaze stayed on ca’Vikej for several moment before returning to her contemplation of the scene outside the balcony. “They will insist on his hands and tongue for using the Ilmodo, and his life for A’Teni ca’Paim. The citizens of Nessantico will also insist on his life for the lives of our own that he’s killed.”
“Many of those same citizens supported him when he talked about the Faith, when he said that the Faith should be less about accumulating wealth to itself and more about helping its people, when he said that the teni should pay more attention to the Toustour and less to their purses.”
Allesandra’s lips twisted in a wry smile. “And those same citizens also cheered when he talked about how the Faith shouldn’t tolerate heretics, or are you forgetting that?”
Varina shook her head. “No, I’m not. It’s just… I don’t want to give up on Nico. He’s been gifted with a great power, and I hate to see that wasted.”
“He’s not the sweet child you remember, Varina. He’s using that great power against you. And me.”
“I know that. But I also want to believe that he’s not the person he should have become. Given the right-or wrong-circumstances, any of us could end up the way he has. And his abilities…” Varina shook her head slowly. “I’ve never, never, seen someone do what he’s doing. It’s as if he just reaches into the Second World with his mind and pulls out the power, without any spell at all. If nothing else, that’s worthy of study.” Varina lifted the cup of tea at her side from the saucer, then set it down again without taking a sip. The sound of porcelain on porcelain was loud in the room. “I’m not asking you to release him. He deserves punishment. I’m asking that you don’t kill him.”
Ca’Vikej snorted. “The bastardo might prefer a quick death to a life in the Bastida. Cenzi knows I would.”
“Erik, please!” Allesandra snapped, and ca’Vikej’s eyes narrowed, his mouth closing. He pushed himself up from the chair and gave Allesandra a mockingly low bow, as if he were a petitioner before her.
“I should go,” he said. “I have a meeting with the Ambassador from Namarro in a turn.” As he passed Varina, he leaned down and whispered: “If you want, I can make certain he dies quickly. Believe me, that would be a blessing.” He smiled at Varina and patted her shoulder as if she were an old friend as he left.
“Sometimes, I’m not sure what it was that I saw in him,” Allesandra said after he left. “Was it ever that way with you and Karl?”
“With Karl, the problem was getting him to see me in the first place,” Varina told her. “But no, I never had second thoughts about him. I knew he was the one.”
“I envy you that, then. I’ve never had that luxury. Well, only once, when I was very young…” She seemed to drift off into reverie for a moment, then Varina saw her shiver as if a cold breeze had touched her. “I’m told by the gardai that the Numetodo were critical to the success of the assault. I’m also told by Talbot that you used some… interesting devices-weapons that used black sand and yet could be carried in one’s hand. They were very effective against the war-teni, he said. You called them ‘sparkwheels,’ I believe he said.”
That brought back the memory of Liana: of the young woman falling backward after Talbot shot her with his sparkwheel, of the terrible hole gouged in her chest and the gurgling rattle of her last breaths, of Nico’s scream at seeing her fall and the madness and inconsolable grief that took him then, of the young woman dying in Varina’s arms as Varina and a healer cut her child from her womb. They were images that Varina desperately wanted to wipe from her memory, like chalk from a board. But they could not be erased, would not be erased. She was afraid they would haunt her for the rest of her life.
She would also remember pulling the trigger of her own sparkwheel with Nico’s body right there in front of her, and the misfire of the weapon. You were willing to kill him yourself…
“Talbot tells me that you developed the weapon,” Allesandra was saying. “Is this what you’ve been hiding yourself away working on since Karl passed?”
Varina nodded; it was all she could muster.
“I have a proposal for you,” Allesandra said. She was looking out toward the Old Temple again. “You want Nico left alive. I think that’s foolish, but I’m willing to grant you that wish-at least temporarily-if you’ll give the Holdings the secret of this sparkwheel.”
She was looking directly at Varina now, with the question written on her face. Varina couldn’t hold her gaze for long; she looked away, toward the painting of Marguerite. “Allesandra…” She began, but couldn’t continue. How could she tell her how frightened and guilt-ridden that made her feel, how the future she imagined-a world where the formula for black sand was common knowledge, where anyone could construct a sparkwheel-would be like. She had no illusions that someone wouldn’t improve upon the black sand formula: make it more powerful, more deadly. She had no doubt that some skilled artisan would be able-like Pierre Gabrelli-to take her design and perfect it; make a better and more effective weapon.
She could imagine that world. She wasn’t certain she wanted to live in it.
You won’t. How much longer will you live, even if you survive the coming siege by the Tehuantin? Five years? Ten? You won’t see the world you create.
But it would be hers, nonetheless. Her name, and the name of the Numetodo would be attached to it.
“I know what you’re thinking,” Allesandra said. “What would Karl have told you, Varina?”
“You can’t stop knowledge: it wants to be born, and it will force its way into the world no matter what you do.” She heard his voice in her ear, as clearly as if he were standing alongside her. She gasped, an intake of breath that was almost a sob. “I’m afraid of what we would be unleashing, Allesandra. You’re a believer in Cenzi, but this
… This would shake the foundations of the Faith. This would say to the world that magic is less important and less effective than simple knowledge. We Numetodo already defy the Faith-we refute the idea that magic must be confined only to the Faithful, that it comes from Cenzi. This would go further, Allesandra. I’m afraid…” She shook her head. “But Karl would say that once the duck is cooked it can’t ever be uncooked, so you might as well eat it.”
“Then tell us how to make your sparkwheels, and I’ll set the smithies and artisans of the city to work. It may be our only hope.”
She was still shaking her head, still haunted by the vision of the world she might be creating. They both heard Talbot’s knock on the door of the chamber, and the aide opened the door. He inclined his head to Varina before addressing Allesandra. “Kraljica, Ambassador Sergei is in the palais; he’s just come from Firenzcia.”
“Send him up,” Allesandra told him, and Talbot bowed and shut the door again. Varina started to rise, and Allesandra gestured to her to stay. “No,” she said. “We both have things to tell him.”
There was a new knock on the door, and Talbot announced Sergei, who hobbled into the room with his cane. He looked more tired than Varina remembered, as if he hadn’t slept well.
“Sergei,” Allesandra said. “You’re back quickly. Did you have a good trip?” Allesandra’s voice had a strange tremor to it that jerked Varina’s head around.
“I had an interesting trip, in many ways,” he answered, but under the metal nose, he was smiling as he lifted a scroll from his diplomatic pouch and handed it to Allesandra. “Your treaty, Kraljica,” he said. “Signed. Hirzg Jan is on his way with the Firenzcian army.”